.Saturday, January 3, 2009 ' 12:20 AM
my mood swing again ,
i guess it's obvious who make me mood swing uh ?
what actually happened between us ?
i guess you yourself knew the truth uh ?
not that i don't wanna call you for chat or anything ,
did you have any time for me ? what are you busying with ?
watching show ? playing maple ? what are you doing ?
every morning what i do ? waiting for your call ?
waiting for your sms , yarhhs right .
people sms you , you will reply ? i'm your stead ?
yet sometimes you choose not to reply uh ?
nevermind , it's your choice whether you wanna reply a not .
my life sucks but all it takes is a little perspective .
how long will i have to suffer on & carry on ?
i'm really tired of everything now .
i feel like leaving this world & bid goodbye .
but if i'm doing this am i fair to those people i loved ?
example family & friends ?
the more i don't feel like thinking anything the more i think .
i don't feel like worrying anything but
it's inside my mind all the time .
actually you can just tell me what you are not happy with me now ?
because of you i can try to change .
friends asked me not to think so much ?
am i thinking too much a not ?
from a lot of calls become maybe 1 calls a day .
yarhs people might think that at least no call right ?
that call how long we chatted ? anyone knows ?
everytime i feel like sms - ing you ,
but the moment i thought that you always
don't wanna reply me , i don't wanted to waste my sms .
i see no point right boy , everything had changed .
my hearts bleed , tears rolling down & much others .
do you actually know what i'm thinking a not ? i'm a fool .
can you believed it ? from secondary 1 till now .
my heart never stopped loving you although i stead
with other guys before but they can never replace you in my heart.
♥bi .
i write all this thing , you might be thinking
that i'm blaming you or what so ever .
don't get wrong idea , it's just that i wanted you to know
what i'm feeling all this while , i do love you as what
i used to be , ♥bi i really love you .