♥ It doesn't last forever.

.Sunday, May 31, 2009 ' 1:51 AM

today i'm really so super boring larhhs.
didn't went out, stayed at home and kept eating non-stop.
2 bowl of maggie mee, 2 otah, biscuit, hotdog,
and things which i've forgotten, i'm definitely a big whale and fat pig.
haish, i don't want to stay at home. I wanted to go out!
i'm bored to death already, kept disturbing my mother and she beat me
of course playing kind uhs. And now she's sleeping beside me on my bed.
and i've no one to play with already, i'm bored !
life's sucks kay, misses baby so so much D;

dumbass baby,
went working horhs?
thrown me at home now D;
haish, i'm really super duper bored.
and i'm really a whale and a pig now, piss off kay.

finding jobs to stop making me bored,
any introudce?

248 days,
the day we spent together.

.Saturday, May 30, 2009 ' 5:06 AM

woke up as usual like school time, prepared and walked to
peiwen's boyf void deck to meet leelim' dar and evon' mama.
and peiwen' boyf was the last to come down, my goodness.
slow poke plus dumbass pig ((:
walked to the poineer mrt, train down to the end to pasir ris.
we were all so excited to enter to the escape themepark larhhs.
couldn't buy any ticket as today was special occasion,
bought ticket from pearlyn as she got extra, and get a ticket from
someone who don't know but he had extra ticket ;D
went in, super duper fun at first. Car racing!
cool kay, this is the part i loved. My first time being a driver lorhs.
i was the last to drive back to the destination, so paiseh :x

this is the funniest part, i didn't saw evon' mama came back with the car?
where was she? her car stuck in the middle of the road.
wahlao then she drive back alone and she bang the wall.
lol, she thought she's playing with bomber car uh? Haha,
leelim' dar and i jitao laugh until we fall onto the ground,
those people was queue-ing was laughing at her too.
she came out of the car she looked so paiseh ley, her face jitao red!
damn funny lorhs, next station pirate ship. Cool, this is the highest
pirate ship i first took, damn high kay! Heart nearly stopped.
leelim' dar kept shouting ' fluck your mama asshole, fluck your mama cb uh'
i guess she's afraid of the high, and it was really very scaring kay.
it seems like we almost fly out from the stupid ship! The weather was so hot larhs.
went shopping centre, they waste so much money on arcade D;
i only spent $2 ((: clever right, know how to keep money.

nothing more to walk, plus they had spent all money in arcade?
we decided to train back to the poineer station, leelim' dar went home.
while the 3 of us went to slack lorhs, totally shag can.
no money to eat, all hungry like fluck lorhs.
kept calling people and finding money everywhere? in the end ? haish.
forget it, couldn't find any people too. Now i'm having a great headache,
i guess it's because of the powerful sun today, shag man.
anyway i loved going out with them, and that stupid dar.
kept disturbing me in the mrt, she's so cute !

dumbass baby,
i missed Yous so much larhhs.
i loved Yous super duper lots larhs.
i hope to see Yous now larhhs.
D; too bad i can't !

should i choose to cherish or just to give up?
it depends on the days going on D:

247 days,
the day we spent together.

.Friday, May 29, 2009 ' 7:51 AM

my parents didn't went to get my result ((:
i went leelim' dar house in the morning, baby was sleeping at her house.
till 2pm ley, i ask him wake up then he tsk me! wahlao.
nevermind let him sleep, i cooked noodles at her house.
treat that as my second home :x played with my dumbass dar!
very fun larhs kay, she's super duper cute larhhs. ILoveHer ;/3.
jastine' darling and peiwen' boyf came afterwards, slacked.
then jastine' darling and peiwen' boyf went off.
went central kfc with leelim' dar and baby. Enjoy while eating.
after eating we played with the chili it was like so fun larhhs.
after that slacked at central nothing to do ley, like so pathetic.

went home after that, while baby went arena with hanhui and accompanies
reached home played computer and enjoyed food kay ((:
9plus meet baby, leelim' dar, evon' mama and pearlyn.
chatted, joked, laughters. Leelim' dar that joker, cute lorhhs.
home at 10.30pm, tomorrow's trip to escape themepark ! Wee.

dumbass baby,
thanks for joking with me,
i love Yous kay,
your kisses and hugs i won't forget.
muacks, goodnights!

everything would be fine,
relax relax relax ((:

246 days,
we had spent together.

.Thursday, May 28, 2009 ' 7:01 AM

wow, kena found out by mum that i smoked D: haish, anyway.

last day of school, cool uhs ((:
went for cip and only our class took bus ley, Mr Chong so good la.
cip was so bored man, after finishing our job.
Mr Chong agreed to treat us MacDonald ley, wah wah wah ((:
we waited in the canteen for Mr Chong to delivered for us nahs.
he ordered for everyone a burger, harshbrown and a cup of coke.
i was the last one to finish my burger ley, people finished it with smile,
while i ate it with those funny looks, as i was really super duper full.
force myself to finish it because i don't want to waste Mr Chong's money

after school, leelim's dar house again.
cooked maggie for jastine' darling and myself.
after cooking for jastine and i cook mine, half way no more gas!
lucky my maggie just finish boiling arbo i confirm kill leelim' dar uhs :x
slacked, mahjong session for awhile and bus down to my void deck.
nothing to do ley, totally shag lorhs D: haish, bored.
evon came to find us and left already because she said really bored!
slacked until 5plus i went home to bathe and came down again,
cause im going IMM with jastine' darling, i asked peiwen' boyfriend to tag along.
baby said he wanted to accompany me, and so he came too ((:
joke, laughter and nonsense all the way with my dumbass baby.
shopped for about 1 hour plus and we decided to go home le!
took shuttle bus to jurong east entertainment and took 99 back home.

baby, thanks for your sushi uhs ((:
sorry that i made Yous real angry just now,
i love Yous so so so much nahs.
dumbass baby, bad larhs Yous!

sometime i was really piss off,
i'll try to endure with the nonsense.

245 days.
we had spent together.

.Wednesday, May 27, 2009 ' 4:08 AM

reached school so early ley,
sian, slacked outside school for awhile.
went canteen to buy something to eat and assemble at
the parade square and listen to so many craps.
floor was wet and i squat like fluck lorhs, leg so tiring.
i buay tahan and just sat on the stupid wet floor.
whole day was so flucking bored, slept in class and talk craps.
after school slacked around for awhile and went home le.
baby came my house, he used my computer and i disturbed him like fluck.
he said i very irritating ley ((: best lorhs.
kept beating him like hell, out of my house it's his turn to bullied me.
because my mum wasn't with me already and i cannot complained marhhs ((:
best lorhs him, we went to find leelim' dar to slack.
disturbed each other and so, send them both to take bus
and i walked home so pathetic, a good girl like me went home early kay!

my stupid result was so best kay?
dumbass, all subject failed ley.
totally failed, none of my subject passed.
wow, if i'm gonna get this result for my N level.
i can go nowhere already, can stayed at home and rot
for the rest of my life D: guardian angel ! Please save me!
i don't wanna die in this ugly way ley, haish.
Christine, it's time to buck up when school starts! JiaYous.

dumbass baby,
bullied me until so happy horhs?
cool, i love your style!
stupid dumbass, kept calling me baby whale!
fluck Yous! ((:

i want to listen to my parents,
i'm a 24 hour good daughter ((:

244 days,
we had spent together.

.Tuesday, May 26, 2009 ' 5:16 AM

Happy 8th Month Anniversary To Baby & I ((:

baby, it had been 8th month that we had walked through together,
it's a tough road but we managed to walked till now.
even though we had quarrels and nonsense that shows how much i care,
when Yous do somethings for me.
maybe sometimes Yous do little things made me feel so jealous
but i really don't wish to lost Yous.
i know whenever i need Yous, Yous will be there.
your jokes, laughter & foolish action made me love Yous more than a words.
whenever i was down, Yous will hugged me and calm me down.
baby Yous really mean alot to me, lastly i want Yous to be my foever ((:
i love Yous, i miss Yous & i need Yous, muacks ;/3.

after school went leelim's dar house again,
slacked and watched mob tv ((:
left her house and went central for awhile and bus down to
jurong point, slacked awhile ate in the mac, jokes and funny stunt
done by dumbass leelim' dar, always do so many funny jokes.
simply loved her larhhs ((: dumbass joker!
shopped around and decided to go home @ 6plus.
baby accompany me bus home and i accompany him wait for 99
near my house bus stop, off he go.
and guess what did he showed me when his inside the bus while i'm
outside of the bus? He showed me his middle finger? LOL.
that stupid dumbass, tomorrow his definitely gonna get it from me.

every friend of mine was almost finding holiday's job,
haish, i though june holiday should be the time that we should
enjoyed ourself alot before N level starts?
aiyo, nevermind bahs. i guess there'll still be friends who don't work.
i bet i can find them to slack and walked round the whole singapore :x
everyday after school our life was like flucking bored lorhs,
always thinking where to slack and where to shop?
my goodness, i'm sick of it already.
now i only hope that june holiday will be a best one for me ;D

Happy 8th Months Anniversary ((:
i love Yous now and forever.

horny horny horny!
kill Yous, kill Yous.
Arghh!

243 days,
we had spent together.

.Monday, May 25, 2009 ' 4:51 AM

today reached school so early man ((:
craps in the class, making lots of nuisance sound.
slept for lesson, chinese teacher didn't come.
best uhs, saw her i feel like vomiting that asshole miss teow.
don't mention her anymore, made me boil uhs.
skipped, after school no where to go was totally bored like hell.
now a days after school no more place to slack already, bored like dots.
went central to have our lunch and craps awhile.
auntie at another table kept looking at us and kept laughing too.

and my that stupid leelim' dar kept making those stupid maid
voice to play with us, she thought she really came from phillipine
made me really laugh non-stop ley. My mouth ache uhs :x
heart nearly stopped again haha, dumbass baby kept beating her ley D:
poor leelim' dar haha, then we walked to evon' mama void deck.
she went home and bathe while baby fixing my pathetic phone.
nearly die, but baby saved it back for me. Haha, thanks dumbass baby.
after evon done, we crap at the playground and decide how are we going
to takecare of our children the next time? Example, let them smoke?
put tatoo and so, of course it's just joking larhs. It's just our childish thinking.
grown up we'll definitely have different thinking ((:
went peiwen' boyf derhs void deck enjoyed ourself on see-saw with baby &
leelim' dar, zhenyuan and peiwen arrived we went poineer mall.
bought everything and baby send me home lerhhs ((:
life getting flucking bored alright D: sian uhs!

If i hugged Yous,
would Yous never let go?
If i kissed Yous,
would Yous cherish that moment?
If i reached for your hand,
would Yous take mine gently?
If i needed a shoulder,
would Yous let me cry on Yous?
If i needed to talk,
would Yous really listen?
If i needed to scream,
would Yous do it with me?
If i needed to go,
would Yous come with me?
If i fell for Yous,
would Yous catch me?
or just let me hit the pavement?

each day passes by,
i can see what's good about Yous already ((:

242 days,
we had spent together.

.Sunday, May 24, 2009 ' 5:18 AM

went out with parents to relative's house,
do nothing, watched tv for awhile and went off for our lunch
@ jurong point, i ate super duper lots.
because from Yesterdae night i already very hungry yet i didn't eat.
ntuc for awhile as parents wanted to buy vegetables.
went taman jurong for dinner again, i didn't eat much.
i think because i ate too much for lunch already :x
went home with bloated stomach D:
reached home, and i remembered i forgot to buy comb.
my comb lost, tomorrow morning how to tie hair leyy )):
i'm sure i would find a solution soon.
alright, i got to go now. Wanted to download song le!

a day without Yous,
it seems so weird D:
i miss Yous alot, but do Yous?
a day passes, i've alot of question in my mind.
should i trust Yous once again?
i believe it's hard. Haish )):

should i ask or should not?
i doubt she will give me the real answer.

241 days,
we had spent together.

.Saturday, May 23, 2009 ' 12:14 AM

seriously, i forgive people very easily.
this is what i hate myself the most. Hope i can have a hard heart,
than a soft hard from now onwards.
going out now, will edit when i'm back home again
so bloody boring at home uhs.
i need money alot now, wallet left only $2?
broke man, pathetic me D:
June holiday starting soon, i've lot of fun place in mind ley.
example, shopping, escape themepark and lots lots of place.
kay, crap finish already lerhs. Off i go now! Roll roll roll ((:

[ Edited ]
went jeff's papa house to slack, mahjong session.
then watch shinchan with evon' mama.
watch until very sien, so we went to gekpoh's kfc to take our dinner.
helped baby and zhenyuan to buy bubble tea and back jeff's house.
slacked, chit chat with jeff's mother and evon' mama.
7plus decided to go arena, waited so long for 193.
ended up we cab down instead, played played played.
reached home @ about 11.10pm.

haish, mood swing somehow.
but i don't really know what made me change mood.
perhaps baby or friends bahs?
haish, life was kinda bored already.
no money, bored uhs.
how i wish i was rich uhs, buy whatever stuff i loved.
too bad i wasn't, sigh!
nevermind, i should admit my fate D:

Yous tried to made me happy when i'm sad,
i swear, i wasn't a good girlfriend to Yous.
what Yous ask for, i can't give.
promise me that Yous would find a better girl.
i guess by leaving me Yous would smile with teeth everyday ((:
but i still love Yous.

i would rather Yous to be happy,
i'm willing to exchange my happiness with Yous.

240 days,
we had spent together.

.Friday, May 22, 2009 ' 8:16 AM

wasn't late for school, cool uhs.
had morning mass run but i walked all the way with my friends!
class was so bloody bored, mr chong put me to seat with chengfoo,
we didn't talked to each other at all, sien.
chatted with jubellina mummy alot.
after school meet kaixin jie outside school, cool nehs.
long time didn't saw her already, becoming cuter and slim uhs.
we shared alot of things with each other, loved our coversation :D
she went off to meet her friend, while all of us went home to bathe.
meet at 4plus and headed to jurong point.

was suppose to watch movie together,
queue was so bloody long and movie was selling fast.
waited evon and jeff to arrive, evon sick until so jialet.
whole face so damn pale, so we postpone our movie to next week then.
slacked around, had so much fun with leelim' dar.
made me laugh non-stop & my heart nearly stopped ;x
reached home about 10.35pm.

dumbass baby piggy back me,
i loved that feeling.
it had been a long time that i last piggy back by people.
thanks for commenting me heavy like a whale? Haha.
love your retarder actions, super duper silly and cute larhs.
dumbass baby, remember there'll always a baby loving Yous.
i'll cherish Yous like i never, i'll treasure Yous like i never ((:

june holiday coming,
where should we slack nehs?

239 days,
we had spent together.

.Thursday, May 21, 2009 ' 4:41 AM

got back almost all the result, i was so stunt.
laughs, all failed man.
however, i must buck up and study well for my N level ((;
after school went leelim's house awhile and headed to look for
zhenyuan with peiwen and baby.
went to his house slacked all the way until 6.30,
bus home after that, was suppose to watch movie today.
but we changed our mind and postpone to tomorrow lerhs.

Quiz.
1. Do your baby love Yous like how he used to?
- How i know? Yous ownself ask him lorhs..

2. Does your baby accompany Yous everyday?
- Almost.

3. Does your baby ever ill-treat Yous?
- Yes, that dumbass.

4. Is your baby sweet to Yous?
- Last time he used to, now? Not so.

5. Is your baby a hongster?
- I'm not sure, i believe he himself know it better.

6. If Yous quarrel with your baby, will Yous blurt out the word break?
- If it's a very serious matter, i will.

7. Do Yous miss your baby everyday, everynight, every min & second?
- Of course i will.

8. Will your baby give in to Yous?
- Yup, he will.

9. Does your baby text other girls more than Yous, how Yous feel?
- He did, what can i feel other than jealous?

10. Does your baby change after Yous have give him chances?
- He didnt, history repeated again and again.

jiaYous for your study,
and choose a course that Yous really loved.
graduate from this sucker school.
speechless.

do bitch exist in this world?
do bastard exist in this world too?
can Yous name out who are they?

238 days,
we had spent with each other.

.Wednesday, May 20, 2009 ' 3:15 AM

i'm totally shag, nonsense kept chasing after me.
no one trust me, therefore i won't trust anyone too.
i'm not gonna be a stupid fool anymore,
rather piss off, i looked like an idiot being fool by Yous.
i'm not stupid, it's fated for me to know everything.
don't try to hide anything from me anymore, Yous are not up to it.

i loved walking under the rain, because no one know i'm crying.
what can i still do other than separating both of us?
is there any choices? Yous told me Yous would change.
but history repeated again and again.
Yous should know what i hate most, Yous insisted on doing it.
did Yous do it on purpose? Answer me truthfully.
what the fluck am i to Yous? What did Yous regard me as?

we had walked ups and downs together,
nonsense, craps, sadness, happiness and quarrels.
are this consider as part of our love?
jealously? Yous loved to made me jealous isn't it?
what more do Yous want? I really had flucking enough.
who says so that i don't love Yous?
if i don't love Yous, i won't wait Yous for that long period.
when will Yous change?

what more Yous want?
who should be the one who need reflection?
everyone had own limit, if i betray your trust?
do Yous liked that? If Yous want to try it, i can show Yous.
decision is up to Yous to do larhs.
if we were to separate, i believe i will be flucking sad.
but i can do nothing, pain won't last forever.
and i'm hurting everyday, min and second.

which guy can be counted as a good boyfriend?
which guy will be my forever partner?
which guy won't hurt me that deep anymore?
why my fate was like so bloody shit!?
kill me to death man, i'm tired and flucking stress.

237 days,
we had spent together.

.Tuesday, May 19, 2009 ' 6:34 AM

finally my exam paper came to the end ((; cool kay.
after last paper of chinese listening, went to leelim's house.
mahjong session again, watched show for awhile.
and off to meet evon with baby and went gekpoh to rent disc,
ghost movie kay, shiok uhs. Bought mac to jeff's house to eat.
leelim, peiwen & zhenyuan arrived,
watched that horrible movie, whole body felt so uneasy.
those people in the movie all die until so chacha ;x puke!
accompany evon go home for awhile and walked to central.
bought monopoly to play ;x haha, we've so many pattern huh.
everyday different things to play, or else i'll sure bored to death.

walked back to peiwen's house,
monopoly session, that dumbass peiwen'boyf!
bought so many house and i kept paying her money!
arghh, terrible kay!
slacked under her void deck for awhile,
and walked home with leelim, jeff, evon and baby.
having a great headache now D; faint faint.
i should take bathe and rest soon uh ;D

betray my trust again and again,
it isn't the first time already.
Yous disappointed me everytime after i've given Yous chances,
Yous simply don't understand what the fluck i want.
i give Yous choices whether to leave or stay,
i just wanted to be alone and think of those nonsense stuff
Yous had given me, tolerate and tolerate.
i'm bursting soon, Yous made me mad!

Journey to an end,
what am i suppose to do now?
god please save me!

.Monday, May 18, 2009 ' 6:08 AM

chemistry paper was confirm fail ((;
finished it at about 15 min and i fall asleep lerhs.
after paper, leelim' dar's house.
watched ghost show and followed by mahjong session ;D
went arena for pool, went home @ 7plus.
war and quarrel starts again, flucking hate it.
i'm really so piss off by everything already,
fluck off.

from now onwards, i don't want to say much anymore.
i don't want to behave like as if i'm so bossy,
Yous can do whatever Yous want bahs.
i'm tiring of telling Yous of what should and should not do.
Yous have your own decision to made, fluck me.

stress kept coming towards me,
i wish i could say goodbye to this bloody world.
it just seems to flucking sucks to me.

.Sunday, May 17, 2009 ' 11:22 PM

boy, where the hell are Yous? What are Yous doing?
it seems like everything had changed.
i don't even know whether Yous have woke up already?
as a stead of yours, i don't know your routine.
how funny is it? if i'm the outsiders i'll sure laugh out loud.
are Yous telling me that pool and computer are your life?
then may i ask Yous, what am i to Yous?

saw friends around me, texting with their own boyfriend.
while me? i'm waiting for yours, but Yous didn't.
are Yous sure Yous still loved me as before?
where's the call in the morning that Yous used to give?
searching for the love, it seems so near but actually it's far away.
i think let's not contact for today, let's see what Yous want.
let me calm down and let me think properly of what i want too.

i'm so bored now, can Yous tell me where are Yous?
sleeping? playing computer? eating?
haish, forget it let me find something to do bahs.
this love, i guess one day both of us will choose to let it go
as it was really too tiring for us right?
i swear, being friends are enough for us
i'm really so piss off now,
i better go take a shower to cool myself down.

if now Yous are given a chance,
would Yous still wanted to patch with me?
would Yous just choose to be friend with me?
what i wanted to say, above i have explained it clearly.
let us see what we really want.
given Yous so many time to change, answer me truthly.
did Yous?

stress, stress and stress.
what i want was just a peaceful life?
why can't Yous fulfill what i want!

.Saturday, May 16, 2009 ' 7:57 AM

went out @ 2 plus.
mac for dinner ((; spent $10 on it.
blame on the dumbass right, the people who are
reading my post Yous should know who are Yous!
slacked and chatted.
reached home @ 8plus.

dumbass baby.
stupid baby.
idiotic baby.
noisy baby.
act cute baby.
i ~~hate~~ love Yous.

after exam,
it's time to play like mad ((;
wee woo wee, but where to go?!

.Friday, May 15, 2009 ' 9:04 AM

Happy Birthday Chua Zhen Yuan ((;

physic exam was like shyt can,
haish, failed for sure. Next exam i must do better already D:
went slack with jubellina awhile and went home.
ate and bathe, prepared.
meet jubellina under my void deck and slacked again.
just for awhile and i went off to look for meiling, leelim and baby.
watched ghost movie at leelim's house, and i proceed home again.
changed it into dress instead.

bus down to arena, was full of people inside can.
bored to death, 6pm bus down to jurong point for toilet break.
gathered about 16 to 17 people after that and train down to bugis.
seesha man ((; cool, had chicken and chips for dinner.
all boys went for pool at boon lay, girls all went home.
home with leelim, pearlyn, peiwen & pearlyn.
had so much fun together with them ;D
scared ourself with ghost and had alot of silly nonsense jokes.
loved hanging out with them ((; iloveyour.

♥♥♥

dumbass baby.
made me so angry in the afternoon?
promised to change each other?
will we? time given to change ourself (;
i heart Yous ;D

big gathering like today ((;
cool cool cool.

.Thursday, May 14, 2009 ' 6:44 AM

wow, maths and geography exam was terribly ' good ',
laughs, i totally don't know anything.
finished 2 pages and i just slept through for the whole examination ((;
the teacher who took our class was damn good can,
chatted during examination and wasn't punished by them.
cool ya ? tomorrow's physic?
i guess my result slip will be all underlined ;D
i better go take a bathe now.

dumbass baby,
kept disturbing people,
thanks for your butt jokes ((;
i love Yous.

tomorrow will be a happy day!

.Wednesday, May 13, 2009 ' 6:32 AM

Speechless.

how much i loved Yous, Yous should know?
why i got so angry?
because i loved Yous.
i want your eyes to just keep looking at me,
not other girls, Yous understand?
tears flowing out from my eyes non-stop.
as long as Yous are happy, i'm fine with everything.
takecare baby, we had walked through so much.
i don't want quarrel, i don't anything.
i just wanted Yous fullstop.

what causes so much things to happen?
i want the whole world to be peace.
i wanted to last with the guy i loved,
is it possible?

.Tuesday, May 12, 2009 ' 4:44 AM

lucky i wasn't late for school,
mother tongue paper 1 was quite kay larhhs.
paper 2 was much different, it was so freaking difficult,
i still managed to finished it before time's up.
after school went leelim's house again, and off to jurong point.
shopped around, and yesh.
baby agreed to buy me a bonia wallet for my birthday ;x
went pizza hut, i didn't eat as much as them because i hate cheese!
bus back to my house, baby fall asleep at the void deck seat.
i went home to get coin for him and acc him to wait for bus.
off he went, had dinner @ home with mummy and sister.
bathe and i'm studying right now, eyes feeling damn tired D;
sleeping soon i guess, jiaYous Christine!

♥♥♥

dumbass baby,
people exam Yous can still busy with your pool uh?
anyway, goodluck for your Mid-Year Exam ((;

any idea what to buy for guys for their b'day?
i'm preparing to buy one for friends,
but i'm confusing of what to buy!

.Monday, May 11, 2009 ' 7:41 AM

woke up @ about 9.05am, prepared.
meet pearlyn under my void deck and bus down to leelim's house.
slacked, baby and manvir came then peiwen and zhenyuan.
set off to arena to have our pool session again ((:
wonderful match today, i super loved it.
slacked everywhere, reached home @ 9.20pm.
tomorrow having chinese paper, bored can.
i hate exam and studies, but i don't have any choices.

♥♥♥

Yous choose to accompany computer,
don't blame me for being heartless,
Yous made me feel lost in Yous.
promise me to send me a goodnight text before Yous sleep?
what the freak that Yous promise?
it's nothing but only empty promises and rubbish!

my attitude is definitely hard for changing towards Yous,
Yous force me to do it, i hate Yous.

.Sunday, May 10, 2009 ' 10:33 PM

Happy Mother's Day.

went raffles city to shop shop ((;
bought nothing, all shopping centre are so boring can.
went clementi after that, had long john for dinner.
cool man, then sweet corn and durian tutu.
oh my god, see my big stomach can contains so many of rubbish.
if i don't grow fat i'm lying to myself for sure kay ;x
reached home @ about 8, went out again.
to poineer mall to meet Peiwen' boyfriend, bought flower for my mum ((;
haha, i don't have much money so a flower for mother's day will do ;x
reached home @ about 9.30pm, bathing soon.

2 days without seeing Yous,
i missed Yous super duper much kay.
baby, maybe Yous are right.
i didn't think for Yous, i'm a selfish girlfriend.
i'm a bad girlfriend towards Yous, i'm so sorry.

i want more more money,
please drop from heaven D;

.Saturday, May 9, 2009 ' 8:17 AM

Happy 16th Birthday To My Boyfriend,
Grow Up Okay? Stop Behaving Like Kids ((;

today i woke up super late uhs, 1.30pm Yous know?
drag myself to prepared everything and went to bugis ((;
shopped at the new mall which just opened not long ago.
i thought i would buy many many things back, in the end.
like shit can, the shopping mall was just damn boring.
had lunch nearby the mall and went bugis street to take a walk.
bought myself two dresses & a belt, i super liked it kay.
asked daddy bring me to orchard road as i wanted to take a look at
Louis Vuitton handbag and wallet, reached there.
only little things to see somemore it didn't put prices at all.
i kept complaining to my parents this and that, laughs!
went Isetan to shopped, woah! Parents bought me the Toscano handbag
which i've been waiting for so long, it's for my birthday present in advance.

i guess i had to give up on Louis Vuitton handbag and wallet,
it's so super duper expensive ley D; but i really loved it alot.
went redhill to have our dinner, ate alot uh.
even baby says i'm heavy already, i guess i looked like a pig now.
it's time for me to jian fei lerhs, wait baby don't want me anymore.

baby,
i missed Yous alot.
when can i see Yous again?
without your voice and image.
i can gone mad uhh.

should i give up on the things i'm waiting for?

.Friday, May 8, 2009 ' 8:56 AM

didn't attend school today because i wasn't sure if there's
lesson going as normal, slept till 8 plus am & woke up.
prepared meet evon' mummy @ central bus stop,
we were supposed to have our lunch in central but leelim' dar called up.
asked us not to eat anything as we are heading for our buffet later.
so we walked to the school mama shop, meet baby.
and headed to leelim's dar house ((; watched tv.
crap alot with leelim' dar and evon' mummy. They kept disturbing me can!
around 2pm we bus down to jurong stadium and went for our sushi buffet
in 日本春, did not have any appetite to eat. Ate wasn't much and paid $20
for it D; heart pain kay? But nevermind larhhs.
it would be the first and the last time, crap finish everything.
oh yarhhs, i'm supposed to write who were in the sushi gang today ((;
Leelim' Dar, Jastine' Darling, Pearlyn, Jeff' Daddy, Evon' Mummy,
Peiwen' Boyfriend, Zhenyuan' In' Law & lastly Baby!

all people decided to play pool.
so bus down to arena, place was full and there's no more
pool table left for us lorhs D;
after a short while slowly people left and of course we took all
the table which are available, money fly away with wings can.
all left the place at around 8pm plus.
Zhenyuan' In' Law, Peiwen' Boyfriend & Baby slacked under my void deck,
while i went home to get someone birthday present horhs.
slacked awhile Pearlyn came then Evon' Mummy and Jeff' Daddy came too.
talked sibei lots, Zhenyuan' In' Law and Peiwen' Boyfriend went
poineer mall to buy a small cake back,
Peiwen finished the mango part and the rest of the cake Zhenyuan
smashed on her face, it was like so freaking funny lorhs ;x
they talked about those horny and scary things, oh my god.
tears suddenly swelled in my eyes.
saw Wenfa' Daddy & Jubellina' Mummy, home @ about 11.20pm.
bid goodbye to all of the human there ((;

♥♥♥

Baby, i grow heavier already.
Yous carry me sure made Yous tired uhs ;x
i will jian fei derhs kay D;
loves Yous baby, muacks .

forget, too tired?
aren't this sentence a lousy excuse already?
is it an excuses or truth, Yous yourself
understand more than i do.

.Thursday, May 7, 2009 ' 4:18 AM

reached school slightly earlier than usual time,
slacked around in the canteen and went back to my class.
nobody was inside except myself, laughs lorhhs.
learn about the formal writing and was so confusing with the format.
finish exam paper and i slept through until the bell rang.
recess time, hard time buying food. Thanks leelim' dar .
paper 2 started again, this time i've totally no time for sleeping horhs.
managed to finish it before 5 min time's up.

after school, leelim's house to watch tv again.
went pool after that, reached home @ 6.30pm.
tomorrow should i go school? confusing uhh.
should i or should i not?

let's say the pledge.
we, the Bangladesh of india.
pledge ourself to eat prata everyday.
regardless of onions, cheese or egg.
to build a fat ass society based on nothing but curry.
so as to achieve fats, cholestol & sugar in our blood for our cancer.

♥♥♥

kill Yous baby!

temper temper temper,
down down down!

.Wednesday, May 6, 2009 ' 7:09 AM

[ Family ]
Since god had put me into this family,
i'll still be part of this family member even though
i came home late after school.
it doesn't mean that i don't liked and don't bother about this
family, in fact in my heart family are always the best.
teenagers like us love going out isn't weird.
we loved enjoying the fun and happy times with friends.
when we grew older those fun won't exist anymore.
i promise i won't do things that are illegal outside.

[ Friends & Baby ]
i don't want my friends and my stead to have any quarrels.
i'm just like a ham in the middle?
who should i side, both i should side.
both are so important to me, i just wanted my last year in
this school to be happy, i don't want any quarrels or fighting
going on. I just wanted a peaceful life that's all.
will friends and stead fulfill my dreams for me?
my attitude and temper is bad yarhhs, i'm so super duper sorry.
i'm born like this, wanted me to change. Perhaps years?
especially baby, i gave Yous super duper lots of attitude.
Yous endure me, give in to me.
haish, i made your life suckx. Perhaps one day i leave Yous,
your life would be better ((;

Family, Friends & Baby Rocks!

♥♥♥

one day i'll made Yous realise actually having me
was useless but trouble to Yous.
although i love Yous alot, i've left with no choice.
i don't wanna see Yous hurt inside your heart.
i rather i'm the one who is hurting because those stress
i see from your faces, it hurts deeply down in my heart.
mind your words coming out from your mouth,
it can be hurting yet Yous don't know.
it can be bad and good having Yous by my side.

If i'm the cause of the whole thing.
i'm willing to bid this world goodbye and leave this
bloody unfair world.

.Tuesday, May 5, 2009 ' 5:09 AM

Happy Belated 4th Month
To 小 boyfriend & 小 boyfriend -In -Law.

wasn't late for school, jubellina didn't come school.
today school lesson was damn boring ley, i'm damn sleepy for today.
evon took early leave and went off D; thrown me alone inside class.
lucky still got chingyen and meiling accompany me uh.
arbo i confirm take early leave wanted to go home too haha.
had health checkup, my eyes was just perfect larhhs ((;
from the biggest to the smallest words, bingo!
but my backbones? it was still not straight larhhs D;
nevermind, i'll try to seat straight whenever i can.

after school canteen slack and leelim's house.
actually was going to play pool derhhs, something happen.
and everything was cancel lerhs.
walked to the temple basketball court, sat under the sun for a long period.
baby accompany me too? Haish, who was in the wrong?
walked everywhere, everything was fine in the end.
slacked in the stadium and block, baby sent me home.
reached home @ about 7pm, had dinner and bathing soon.
i'm damn sleepy today, after bathing i guess i'll just fall asleep.

♥♥♥

baby,
thanks for accompany me although Yous are angry,
thanks for giving in to me even i gave Yous attitude,
thanks for not walking away when i needed Yous.
takecare of your hand, don't do foolish things again.

i have made your life so suckx,
so what if one day i have choose to leave Yous,
will your life become better?
i don't want to see Yous sad and cried,
my heart really ache.

.Monday, May 4, 2009 ' 6:13 AM

rainy day again ((; late for school, nothing happen.
had temperature taking and reading period in class.
chemistry went lap i simply do nothing but chatting all the way,
back class chinese period, sat outside classroom again.
after recess back class, had second time of temperature taking again.
my temperature was 37.6, mr chong asked me to get a chair and seat
outside the classroom D; chat with evon through the window and mr chong
smart uhs, go close the window and tell me germs will spread? lol.
mr kelvin teo bought selyn, hwa keong, shariha and i to the foiya,
to have another temperature taking by them, 37.2 safe asked to go back class.
maths boring lesson, attentive for awhile hall for assembly.
after school canteen slacked for awhile and went poineer mall mac.
walked to jeff's house after that, reached home @ about 8.50pm.

pangseh pangseh.
hate hate hate!
stupid dumbass baby lorhhs D;
box Yous box Yous! ((;

friendship was really hard to keep.
what's happening between us?
don't ask me why.