.Sunday, May 27, 2012 ' 7:00 PM
SINGLE
a drama free life.
on the friday night at prawning session with some beautiful girl, handsome hunk.
i managed to catch one prawn can, i happy like mad although it's just a small one.
they call him didi! ): cause it's super small compared to evon's sister prawn!
chilling, chatting, laughing, nonsense all the way. It's pretty cool enjoying myself there.
left at around 2plus am, decided to have supper at 651.
that handsome hunk ride me on bike! Wow wow wow, its my first time on the bike.
i swear its so cooling on that bike, and shiok! So wanna get a motor license.
but do your think my parents will approve? Definitely a NO!
as for yesterday slept until afternoon, nua here and there awhile went to preapre,
and meet my boyfriend, brought my sister along to have dinner at Taman Jurong.
as usual ordered stingray, veg and boyfriend ordered a plate of french fries.
we ate like a super full and went to pack for our family and cab home.
delivered food home and went to boyfriend's house, nua awhile and off to meet Evon.
slacked, talk cock. I realized only at the night we girls managed to heart to heart talk.
and knew a little things that 'he' hide from me, till now. But its okay, everything is over.
i don't know how people can forget those memories they once had like a used tissue.
just simply threw it away and its over, haha. I learnt a lot a lot for this few months.
as for today whole day nua-ing at home, stomach cramp. Lazy to go out also.
i met a lot of problems in life. Regarding about relationship, friendship, studies or work.
and i learnt a lot through all of these failure, studies failed, relationship failed,
work failed, left friendship. As for some friendship i already gave up.
cause i'm not gonna be the one who contact them to let them remember me.
if they've the heart, they should remember me themself.
work? i don't know why things ended up in this way, but i've made up my mind.
for not turning into a perm staff. I can't stand people like having two different faces.
people who understand me well knew what temper i've.
my temper really super bad, that no one can stand me. Even how a person say he/she
had a very high tolerance of a person, still i can get over that limit. Cool? Yesss.
as for today, i made up my mind of trying so hard to take a step forward to contact a person.
well, i don't know what the hell the person treating me as. But i no longer bother.
my text stated very clearly, and for just a normal text you couldn't reply. That's the end.
how many times i told myself that okay, its enough. But i still kept on trying.
till today i finally think and think it all over again, it should end here. today.
it sucks when you miss that person so much that you look through old photos,
old text messages, even old statuses. And it brings a smile to your face,
but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn't be looking back,
but you can't help it because they really meant something to you
and you thought it would be lasted.
why waste your time getting hurt by someone,
when there's someone else out there waiting to make you happy?
twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do
than by ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines.
sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.
Explore, Enjoy, Dream, Discover.
learn to enjoy every min of your life. Be happy now.
don't wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future.
think how really precious is the time you've to spend, whether it's at work or with your family.
every min should be enjoyed and savored.
i feel like now, i should come with a warning lable:
"if you don't want to stick around in my life then, don't even bother
introducing yourself. I can't get hurt anymore."
you and i, maybe one day.
the truth is,
if i could be with anyone.
it'd still be you.
.Wednesday, May 23, 2012 ' 5:30 AM
You can't choose what stays
and what fade away.
well, i'm back after 1 month of missing in action.
kinda busy for this one month. Almost everyday after work hang out till late then home.
probably this is what i want in my life too, to keep myself busy all the way.
didn't have enough sleep and that causes all my pimples to pops out! :<
i've been working in this company for 2 months plus, reaching 3 months.
i was looking forward to it from the very start, but now i don't know what made me lost interest.
maybe because i don't really talk to my colleagues. Sometime felt being left out.
everyday is a struggle to me. Just force myself to wake up and head down to work.
hopefully things will be better down the road, because i'm really sick and tired of it.
we aim to finally find that special someone who will see us through our imperfections,
through our shortcomings and yet accept us wholeheartly, without prejudice.
without doubts, just pure love.
sometime things don't last forever, but some things do.
like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory.
you can take out and unfold in your darkest times,
pressing down on the corners and peering in close,
hoping you still recognize the person you see there.
how do you know when you love someone?
when you wake up , and they're you're first thought and you're looking at your phone
to see if they've text or called you while you were asleep.
and when you go to bed, you fall asleep thinking about them.
when you miss them, even though it hasn't been more than a day or so since you've seen them.
but mostly, when you put yours needs before your own.
when their happiness is more important than your pain.
when you really love someone, you're willing to give it your all, and you'll know when you're.
the blue paragraph really represent my love, but it only applied on the two men that i really love.
one day cannot go without their calls, texts. I gave my all, and they returned me back the same.
full of bullshits, nonsense, craps. I accepted, it's my fate.
just because i laugh a lot doesn't mean my life is easy.
just because i've a smile on my face everyday,
doesn't mean that something is not bothering me.
it's just that i choose to move on with my life and keep my head up
instead of dwelling on the past.
i don't hate you actually, but because you told me we can be friends.
ended up what are we? Yes, we're strangers but with memories.
memories not with you but me. I've to admit that i already no longer love you.
probably yes, my love for you haven reached those max that i can't live without you.
and now i hate you to the super max. Not because you'd hurt me.
but i just can't forgive a person like you, broke up with me yet ashamed to face me.
worst part finding girls to be with, i don't know if you wrote those sweet things to other girls
just to let me read and get jealous, envy. To me it doesn't work at all.
because you made me stronger now, it doesn't hurt me that much.
and now, i got no feel towards it. if that makes you happy for changing girlf like clothes.
i really wish you would find the right girl, and she doesn't hurt you.
friend is just what i'm asking for, who like to hate people. It's a tiring job.
but it seems like i'm getting use to it, cause it doesn't matter to you dude.
people may not remember exactly what you did,
but they'll always remember how you made them feel.
