.Monday, May 31, 2010 ' 7:16 PM
i want to be remembered just like how you want to be forgotten.
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i kept dozing off in the bus, no matter is on the way to work or on the way home.
super duper tired yawn. Now i realised that although have friends,
not everyone is true enough ; some sux to like to the max one -.-
and this kind of friend i don't need it, just kindly get out from my life :]
and for some unnecessary person, just kindly roll off too.
when i need you, hahaa. I don't really know where are you Lahs.
always seems like calling a wall when i need some listeners ear, no answers one.
but nevermind. You have your life too i suppose, past is forever not going back.
as for Saturday and Sunday use to hangout with my boyfriend and dar.
dar have started to work, and boyfriend few more days she is starting too le.
they will be working for weekends, i dont know who can i still find.
i confirm rot at home one, haish. Any kind soul wanna go out with me?
i dont want to stay home at rot, because that's not my life.
i hope from the three of us wont have me missing from both of your life.
my life is definitely changing, everyone is disppearing and missing soon.
goodbye to those who are ready to leave, i don't send your off le.
you didnt change at all,
but your heart did.
so am i.
super duper tired yawn. Now i realised that although have friends,
not everyone is true enough ; some sux to like to the max one -.-
and this kind of friend i don't need it, just kindly get out from my life :]
and for some unnecessary person, just kindly roll off too.
when i need you, hahaa. I don't really know where are you Lahs.
always seems like calling a wall when i need some listeners ear, no answers one.
but nevermind. You have your life too i suppose, past is forever not going back.
as for Saturday and Sunday use to hangout with my boyfriend and dar.
dar have started to work, and boyfriend few more days she is starting too le.
they will be working for weekends, i dont know who can i still find.
i confirm rot at home one, haish. Any kind soul wanna go out with me?
i dont want to stay home at rot, because that's not my life.
i hope from the three of us wont have me missing from both of your life.
my life is definitely changing, everyone is disppearing and missing soon.
goodbye to those who are ready to leave, i don't send your off le.
you didnt change at all,
but your heart did.
so am i.
.Sunday, May 30, 2010 ' 6:50 PM
In the end, we will eventually pass each other.
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my bones aching, muscle aching, stomach aching ):
finally meet bestie yesterday, she is veh cute with her perm hair hahaa.
shopped with her at Jurong Point for like hours and she went for her work.
while i meet boyfriend and dar, shopped until bored and decided to leave there.
went to get our bicycle and we suggest we cycle to bird park instead in the night.
cycle everywhere, went to take away mac for brother and sister.
had cup noodles for dinner and left house with dar and boyfriend.
our night cycling starts :] so many internet as in ' interneh ' means those bangalahs.
this is our words for mentioning them if we saw them, asking each other to be more careful.
i swear the trip there kill my both legs -.- i can't even walk properly now.
guess it's because of muscle aching i suppose, previous day we been there also.
it means we cycle to bird park for like 2 days already, the slope down super cool!
sit onto our bicycle and we release from the highest slope, and zoom !
the wind was like oh my god, so damn marvellous. Enjoyed myself with both of them alots.
both are my joker bottle :] made me laugh so so much.
currently was waiting for celebrating advance birthday with all sisters
and our coming girl's gathering (: i have no choice but to take leave.
because i might not have the chance to meet up with them often already.
and oh yeah few days ago dar, boyfriend and i went to meet Jubellina like finally.
oh my god our conversation was like so fun like how we use to chat in the past.
shall meet up with her for our wild wild wet soon. Let's crazy together!
i love all of my girlfriends ( hearts ) they rocks my day, i swear.
finally meet bestie yesterday, she is veh cute with her perm hair hahaa.
shopped with her at Jurong Point for like hours and she went for her work.
while i meet boyfriend and dar, shopped until bored and decided to leave there.
went to get our bicycle and we suggest we cycle to bird park instead in the night.
cycle everywhere, went to take away mac for brother and sister.
had cup noodles for dinner and left house with dar and boyfriend.
our night cycling starts :] so many internet as in ' interneh ' means those bangalahs.
this is our words for mentioning them if we saw them, asking each other to be more careful.
i swear the trip there kill my both legs -.- i can't even walk properly now.
guess it's because of muscle aching i suppose, previous day we been there also.
it means we cycle to bird park for like 2 days already, the slope down super cool!
sit onto our bicycle and we release from the highest slope, and zoom !
the wind was like oh my god, so damn marvellous. Enjoyed myself with both of them alots.
both are my joker bottle :] made me laugh so so much.
currently was waiting for celebrating advance birthday with all sisters
and our coming girl's gathering (: i have no choice but to take leave.
because i might not have the chance to meet up with them often already.
and oh yeah few days ago dar, boyfriend and i went to meet Jubellina like finally.
oh my god our conversation was like so fun like how we use to chat in the past.
shall meet up with her for our wild wild wet soon. Let's crazy together!
i love all of my girlfriends ( hearts ) they rocks my day, i swear.
Imagine leaving those memories to forget each other,
holding onto the pain that your love had left me.
how will i be able to to endure my grief? everyday the bitter thoughts comes in,
falling in love with you was like dying, but i do not regret it.
whenever im missing you, i can't take it anymore.
just this once i'll cry like nobody is around. Please don't forget, Please don't forget me ;
i am by your side, i love you. Are you listening now?
even though you couldn't be by my side, this isn't goodbye
because the path you choose i believe will make us meet again.
even if you have forgotten me i don't mind.
because of love, i will love you. My tears my loneliness, i will take them with me.
perhaps your life partner someone shall take over me. Seeing you happy, i'm fine with it.
i remembered who you used to be,
someone that i can really trust
someone that once love me veh deep.
but now i dontknow where's the person
and i guess he had left long ago.
holding onto the pain that your love had left me.
how will i be able to to endure my grief? everyday the bitter thoughts comes in,
falling in love with you was like dying, but i do not regret it.
whenever im missing you, i can't take it anymore.
just this once i'll cry like nobody is around. Please don't forget, Please don't forget me ;
i am by your side, i love you. Are you listening now?
even though you couldn't be by my side, this isn't goodbye
because the path you choose i believe will make us meet again.
even if you have forgotten me i don't mind.
because of love, i will love you. My tears my loneliness, i will take them with me.
perhaps your life partner someone shall take over me. Seeing you happy, i'm fine with it.
i remembered who you used to be,
someone that i can really trust
someone that once love me veh deep.
but now i dontknow where's the person
and i guess he had left long ago.
.Thursday, May 27, 2010 ' 7:46 PM
Made my damn mood fucked upside down -'-
changed my blogsong into Jay Chou songs ' 说了再见 '
the song represents my lifes. It's changing.
for some little things wanna quarrel dontknow for wad fuck.
morever quarrel because of other people's stuff.
i never see couples like us before, kpo other people's stuff and quarrel -.-
yeah wad a funny fucking joke that i have ever seen.
im just acting that im angry, and your laolan attitude forget it.
relax Christine, it's all past. Just fuck it upside down.
1st ; wanna be tiongxim dont flirt with other people.
2nd ; wanna love your girlf/boyf dont play with their feeling.
3rd ; wanna cherish and treasure them dont cheat their feeling.
4th ; wanna love them give them all your love but not only half.
lastly 5th ; dont love, then just leave.
people in my work place suddenly become so good again.
dontknow wad's their motive, but i feel veh happy uh.
and manager talked to me a lot today for just like random chatting.
she's so fierce that no one feel like talking to her but turn out that she talked to me.
was feeling scare at first, but just chatted with her like normal friends :]
was glad to know that 3 of my boss also studied in Juying Primary School eh, lol.
this stupid noob school :x sorry but simply no offence uh.
starting to like the people inside in office again, but i know it wont stay long. Laughs!
world is changing,
whole world is changing.
everybody beside me are changing.
morever quarrel because of other people's stuff.
i never see couples like us before, kpo other people's stuff and quarrel -.-
yeah wad a funny fucking joke that i have ever seen.
im just acting that im angry, and your laolan attitude forget it.
relax Christine, it's all past. Just fuck it upside down.
1st ; wanna be tiongxim dont flirt with other people.
2nd ; wanna love your girlf/boyf dont play with their feeling.
3rd ; wanna cherish and treasure them dont cheat their feeling.
4th ; wanna love them give them all your love but not only half.
lastly 5th ; dont love, then just leave.
people in my work place suddenly become so good again.
dontknow wad's their motive, but i feel veh happy uh.
and manager talked to me a lot today for just like random chatting.
she's so fierce that no one feel like talking to her but turn out that she talked to me.
was feeling scare at first, but just chatted with her like normal friends :]
was glad to know that 3 of my boss also studied in Juying Primary School eh, lol.
this stupid noob school :x sorry but simply no offence uh.
starting to like the people inside in office again, but i know it wont stay long. Laughs!
world is changing,
whole world is changing.
everybody beside me are changing.
.Tuesday, May 25, 2010 ' 9:15 PM
There is no such things as a failed experiment,
only experiment with unexpected outcomes.
Omg, saw that Ferrari over there. Im gonna get it when im older :]
gonna save lots lots money to owe a car by myself, dont look down on me.
im proving myself when im older, Jiayou in my life (: Work harder uh Christine!
im changing job in this coming July hopefully it will be a better one.
if it's a better one, im going to attend it everyday and give all the best i can.
my laogong is so damn cute uh :] wanted to kiss me in msn lehs.
made me so super duper shy uh :x Hahaa. Miss her so much, as well as my darling.
gonna meet all of them up soon during June Holidays man. But i no holidays -.-
but im gonna leave lots lots of leave. Hahaa, made them dulan i suppose.
now a days everyone is finding jobs, everyone is so deeply broke.
wtf, included me. $400 fly to the stupid Singtel's pocket for nothing. nabei !@#$%^&*
what is true and pure in this world,
everything is made into a web of lies.
nothing is real, nothing is true,
nothing is pure and nothing is good.
gonna save lots lots money to owe a car by myself, dont look down on me.
im proving myself when im older, Jiayou in my life (: Work harder uh Christine!
im changing job in this coming July hopefully it will be a better one.
if it's a better one, im going to attend it everyday and give all the best i can.
my laogong is so damn cute uh :] wanted to kiss me in msn lehs.
made me so super duper shy uh :x Hahaa. Miss her so much, as well as my darling.
gonna meet all of them up soon during June Holidays man. But i no holidays -.-
but im gonna leave lots lots of leave. Hahaa, made them dulan i suppose.
now a days everyone is finding jobs, everyone is so deeply broke.
wtf, included me. $400 fly to the stupid Singtel's pocket for nothing. nabei !@#$%^&*
what is true and pure in this world,
everything is made into a web of lies.
nothing is real, nothing is true,
nothing is pure and nothing is good.
.Monday, May 24, 2010 ' 10:13 PM
my life was totally messed up, how i wish my life was as colourful as those stars in the bottle.
im gonna bloody change my current job, everyday made me dont feel like going work.
dontknow wad the fuck wrong with it. I think it lies on those people over there.
so unfriendly, love to talk people's badwords behind :] Marvellous Lahs.
im gonna fuck this job upside down soon. So damn reluctant to go work everyday.
gonna find a better job that can kill my boredom and made time pass faster.
i have a veh boring life now, lol. Having job = no job. Laughs, nevermind.
currently conferencing in phone with boyfriend and dar :] they rox my day Lahs.
baby yesterday behaved so cute :] love him to the max le, hehee.
made me laugh like no tomorrow, and he insisted i looked like tomato. Lol!
pretty and slim can make you look more confident, and im not.
that's why im not confident in myself at all. Slimming is one of my wish.
im gonna work hard from tomorrow onwards. perhaps 1 meal per day.
gonna slim down already, i dont wanna be the short and fat that a person mention.
anyone got any ideas where to buy hula hoops uh? :] gonna skip too.
hopefully everything is going to be a smooth one, gonna stop posting for today.
dontknow wad more to write bah. Goodnight readers, im going off now.
this is the wish im looking forward.
hope it isnt a empty words from you.
once again, i choose to trust you all over again.
im gonna bloody change my current job, everyday made me dont feel like going work.
dontknow wad the fuck wrong with it. I think it lies on those people over there.
so unfriendly, love to talk people's badwords behind :] Marvellous Lahs.
im gonna fuck this job upside down soon. So damn reluctant to go work everyday.
gonna find a better job that can kill my boredom and made time pass faster.
i have a veh boring life now, lol. Having job = no job. Laughs, nevermind.
currently conferencing in phone with boyfriend and dar :] they rox my day Lahs.
baby yesterday behaved so cute :] love him to the max le, hehee.
made me laugh like no tomorrow, and he insisted i looked like tomato. Lol!
pretty and slim can make you look more confident, and im not.
that's why im not confident in myself at all. Slimming is one of my wish.
im gonna work hard from tomorrow onwards. perhaps 1 meal per day.
gonna slim down already, i dont wanna be the short and fat that a person mention.
anyone got any ideas where to buy hula hoops uh? :] gonna skip too.
hopefully everything is going to be a smooth one, gonna stop posting for today.
dontknow wad more to write bah. Goodnight readers, im going off now.
this is the wish im looking forward.
hope it isnt a empty words from you.
once again, i choose to trust you all over again.
.Friday, May 21, 2010 ' 9:11 PM
woke up early in the morning, mum told me a bad news.
my phone bill cause me $400 plus, because of the internet i went in using my handphone.
ask me to pay myself, early in the morning still half awake and heart start to ache. Damn!
worked 1 month for nothing, money flew into Singtel's pocket. Thanks to them.
sucking people's hard earn money, Fuck them upside down.
imagine went work kena scold this and that. Yeah, my life is Fucking in a Chaos now.
my work is killing me now, getting harder and harder. I cannot take it further already.
i start to hate my life even more, just hope im able to back to my Secondary life which is
so damn impossible. Final wish is all i want, having a gathering before im oversea.
whether am i still in this world, it doesn't matter anymore ;
knew that you are sick, so better takecare of yourself.
just wanna let you know no matter are you sick or whad, i will be there.
but this time i couldn't. When you are sick, you didnt even bother to tell me.
if touch wood anything happened to you and i dontknow anything, will i feel happy?
perhaps to you it doesn't matter anyway whether i know or not, i cannot fly to your place
and takecare of you. But still at least tell me and let me feel better, just wanna concern you more.
just let me know the effort i put in isn't enough? Just let me know, coming to 5 years of knowing
you how much you mean to me guess you should know. But still, if your heart no longer
got a single space for me. Just leave, stop appearing infront of me.
anyway, soon im away from here :] it doesnt hurt long. It shall heal fast, i supposed.
but lastly still, my heart never changed. I swear, no one can replace you in my heart.
i just need you veh badly,
im feeling veh low this few days.
im going in coma soon.
my phone bill cause me $400 plus, because of the internet i went in using my handphone.
ask me to pay myself, early in the morning still half awake and heart start to ache. Damn!
worked 1 month for nothing, money flew into Singtel's pocket. Thanks to them.
sucking people's hard earn money, Fuck them upside down.
imagine went work kena scold this and that. Yeah, my life is Fucking in a Chaos now.
my work is killing me now, getting harder and harder. I cannot take it further already.
i start to hate my life even more, just hope im able to back to my Secondary life which is
so damn impossible. Final wish is all i want, having a gathering before im oversea.
whether am i still in this world, it doesn't matter anymore ;
knew that you are sick, so better takecare of yourself.
just wanna let you know no matter are you sick or whad, i will be there.
but this time i couldn't. When you are sick, you didnt even bother to tell me.
if touch wood anything happened to you and i dontknow anything, will i feel happy?
perhaps to you it doesn't matter anyway whether i know or not, i cannot fly to your place
and takecare of you. But still at least tell me and let me feel better, just wanna concern you more.
just let me know the effort i put in isn't enough? Just let me know, coming to 5 years of knowing
you how much you mean to me guess you should know. But still, if your heart no longer
got a single space for me. Just leave, stop appearing infront of me.
anyway, soon im away from here :] it doesnt hurt long. It shall heal fast, i supposed.
but lastly still, my heart never changed. I swear, no one can replace you in my heart.
i just need you veh badly,
im feeling veh low this few days.
im going in coma soon.
.Thursday, May 20, 2010 ' 10:00 PM
a veh best friend can even win your stead position :] That's love, hahaa.
all along i was just a backup or i dontknow whad. But i have overcome it.
just dontknow whad more to say to you, whadever i can said i already said it right
infront of your face le. World is veh unfair and have to face the reality.
gonna cut short for saying about you, cause it's meaningless afterall.
as for some bastard, hongster. Stop talking cock that you love me uh.
i will never fall for a hongster :] i love de person, he dont really love me le.
but still i still love him, give you chance? Provider the next day im gonna die.
then i will give you the chance, laughs. I dont hong like whad you do.
it shows that you forever cannot find a girlfriend Lahs, want scold vuglar? Welcome.
im willing to play, and im not revenging uh. Gone is gone never be back :]
you want a machine that can turn back to the past? me too, how i wish he never left me before.
all past Lahs, walk on man. Life's is just like that. You can just fcuk off, veh irritated by you.
g@y, bastard & lastly bloody hongster. Love crapping? Ask your mother cook crab for you.
the gap is getting bigger,
no longer to be mend.
.Tuesday, May 18, 2010 ' 8:02 PM
my knee is veh aching now, i hate my bones. Fcuking sickening irriating bones -.-
work was still fine, at least just for like that 15 mins im slacking but nevermind.
not that rotten like last time, just awaiting for the next paid again.
this few days, tears have been keep dropping down.
as for some people, stop waiting for me. I have given my heart to him, hard to get back.
other than him, no one can replaced him now. Gonna shower, and go Poineer Mall alone.
bye readers, im like so bored -.- what the hell.
this will be the last time holding.
no way to be mend, biggest gap in between.
work was still fine, at least just for like that 15 mins im slacking but nevermind.
not that rotten like last time, just awaiting for the next paid again.
this few days, tears have been keep dropping down.
as for some people, stop waiting for me. I have given my heart to him, hard to get back.
other than him, no one can replaced him now. Gonna shower, and go Poineer Mall alone.
bye readers, im like so bored -.- what the hell.
this will be the last time holding.
no way to be mend, biggest gap in between.
.Monday, May 17, 2010 ' 2:09 PM
Tittle: Thanks for all this while, dont worry i wont make you owe me anything.
cute tortoise is forever with me :]
in a relationship if only one parties is willing to put in effort, the relationship will still never last.
just like our hands, it takes 2 hands to claps. So wad if one parties is willing and another not.
if its so. This relationship is no longer gonna continue, it's a dying relationship.
just like how my heart had hurt and died in the past. It's totally in a chaos.
but as days goes by, the path i have walked through. it's a way to made me more mature.
im gonna train my heart to be hard and no longer soft, there is the only way by not making my
hurt and sad like how am i in the past, isn't it? i will follow my heart and mind.
failing, hurting, scolding, working, studying, everything is part of life although we don't like it.
but it's a must to continue walking throughout our whole life. The day when im 17 years old
im gonna put everything aside and forcus only on the things that is important to me.
as months goes by, i will slowly lost my energy. So wad if one day im gonna let people takecare
of me for my whole life? the life i didn't choose it this way either. Christine is giving up soon :]
i remember when you were who you used to be, someone i could trust.
someone i could tell anything to, someone who always be there for me.
he left a long time, the person now looked so horrible.
he seems hurtful, spiteful and uncaring.
how is it possible for such a good person to become this bad?
i miss the person he used to be, i miss those good time.
although he don't realised that he had changed, to me it doesn't matter.
no matter how much he changed, my heart never changed at all
since the day i decided to walk this relationships. No matter where he went,
whether his heart still have me inside. I still love him, no matter how much he hurt me.
i still love him, how much he made me cry. i still feel that the tears are worth.
but perhaps as months goes by, i shall see whether will he cry for me.
i might not have the chance to tears for so long. I promised the next cry will be the last.
i hope you realise what you have lost.
but you probably don't,
but i will remember.
just like our hands, it takes 2 hands to claps. So wad if one parties is willing and another not.
if its so. This relationship is no longer gonna continue, it's a dying relationship.
just like how my heart had hurt and died in the past. It's totally in a chaos.
but as days goes by, the path i have walked through. it's a way to made me more mature.
im gonna train my heart to be hard and no longer soft, there is the only way by not making my
hurt and sad like how am i in the past, isn't it? i will follow my heart and mind.
failing, hurting, scolding, working, studying, everything is part of life although we don't like it.
but it's a must to continue walking throughout our whole life. The day when im 17 years old
im gonna put everything aside and forcus only on the things that is important to me.
as months goes by, i will slowly lost my energy. So wad if one day im gonna let people takecare
of me for my whole life? the life i didn't choose it this way either. Christine is giving up soon :]
i remember when you were who you used to be, someone i could trust.
someone i could tell anything to, someone who always be there for me.
he left a long time, the person now looked so horrible.
he seems hurtful, spiteful and uncaring.
how is it possible for such a good person to become this bad?
i miss the person he used to be, i miss those good time.
although he don't realised that he had changed, to me it doesn't matter.
no matter how much he changed, my heart never changed at all
since the day i decided to walk this relationships. No matter where he went,
whether his heart still have me inside. I still love him, no matter how much he hurt me.
i still love him, how much he made me cry. i still feel that the tears are worth.
but perhaps as months goes by, i shall see whether will he cry for me.
i might not have the chance to tears for so long. I promised the next cry will be the last.
i hope you realise what you have lost.
but you probably don't,
but i will remember.
.Friday, May 14, 2010 ' 10:43 PM
Tittle: sorry, i simply choose to give up.
thanks dar for lobang-ing me around with your bicycle.
the beautiful and wonderful things is sea, and things arounds me.
friends cheer me up, thanks veh much. But im tired.
thanks dar for lobang-ing me around with your bicycle.
the beautiful and wonderful things is sea, and things arounds me.
friends cheer me up, thanks veh much. But im tired.
.Thursday, May 13, 2010 ' 8:56 PM
finally the day came :] im veh busy today, and the time passes super fast.
like so finally Lahs. And im veh happy with my current work as QC for temporarily.
running up and down at my workplace. Just love my current job (:
but when mates come back from malaysia, my life gonna be in a chaos again -.-
hope she dont come back so early, lol. Kinda hate her i suppose.
wanna live a peaceful life from now onwards, money keep coming in uh.
and want earn lots lots and enjoy myself in taiwan, want buy alot things back for all my beloved.
oh, im looking forward to end of the month to get my pay -.- lol.
hmm, like nothing more to post for blog eh. Getting more and more boring, shall rest anot?
oh yeah, saw those little baby in bus they are so damn cute. How i wish i have a baby too,
but of course not now. Maybe around in the 20s plus :] aww ): dream gonna success :X
true happiness is when your husband or wifes says ' i do '
when your baby is born, when she smiles at you.
you cant tell the exact moment, when happiness arrives.
but you will end up knowing when the smiles reaches your eyes.
happiness is the lovers embrace, beneath the sweetest tree.
and when the blossoms fall to Earth, they soon see true happiness flying free.
just wanna have this happiness when im with you, is that hard?
it's a yes, i find it veh difficult. Because i dont know wad's your heart is thinking.
used to be a veh sweet couples,
but they just ended up not even friends.
like so finally Lahs. And im veh happy with my current work as QC for temporarily.
running up and down at my workplace. Just love my current job (:
but when mates come back from malaysia, my life gonna be in a chaos again -.-
hope she dont come back so early, lol. Kinda hate her i suppose.
wanna live a peaceful life from now onwards, money keep coming in uh.
and want earn lots lots and enjoy myself in taiwan, want buy alot things back for all my beloved.
oh, im looking forward to end of the month to get my pay -.- lol.
hmm, like nothing more to post for blog eh. Getting more and more boring, shall rest anot?
oh yeah, saw those little baby in bus they are so damn cute. How i wish i have a baby too,
but of course not now. Maybe around in the 20s plus :] aww ): dream gonna success :X
true happiness is when your husband or wifes says ' i do '
when your baby is born, when she smiles at you.
you cant tell the exact moment, when happiness arrives.
but you will end up knowing when the smiles reaches your eyes.
happiness is the lovers embrace, beneath the sweetest tree.
and when the blossoms fall to Earth, they soon see true happiness flying free.
just wanna have this happiness when im with you, is that hard?
it's a yes, i find it veh difficult. Because i dont know wad's your heart is thinking.
used to be a veh sweet couples,
but they just ended up not even friends.
.Wednesday, May 12, 2010 ' 8:15 PM
The reason i post this phone because, i lent it to some irresponsible person.
and now this phone is lost. I immediately cried when i know it.
my father gave me as my birthday present last year, how much i cherish it.
i trust you that's why i lend you. End up, you Fucking made me heartbroken.
no matter how many time the phone is dying, i still try to made it alive by saving.
yet now? i can lost everything, but not my family members and the things they gave me.
nothing can be replaced, not even money you heard that -'-
short post for today, sorry currently not in the Fucking mood to write anymore things.
sorry parents, i lost your phone. Dont buy things anymore, i feel veh guilty.
one day a couple broke up,
the boy said i will return everything if it's yours.
the girl said i wont accept till its completed.
the boy immediately said what's still missing i will just pay for it.
the girl cried and replied, i gave you my whole heart, how will you pay?
alright, this shall be the last one.
.Tuesday, May 11, 2010 ' 9:46 PM
went to work as usual, today work slightly better Lahs. Like entertaining myself over there -.-
but nevermind as long as im able to make myself happy :]
omgg office's people know i have a veh bad temper, they know my attitude sux.
scold people ask me scold, lol. How bad are they? But nevermind, can let be vent angers.
wow, a veh old woman over there damn laolan one. So many people hate her.
talk cock behind her back, wad a woman. She forgotten to take medicine in the morning.
talked to me like as if i owe her alot of things, in the afternoon then ask me want coffee anot.
lol, like just took her medicine and she is back to her normal person -.- a bitch like that.
i wont entertain too :] she is not my boss so she is not for me to respect and i wont respect her.
work is simply so boring, im not afraid of making phone calls anymore (:
can talk back to them eh, so good. Better than in school, cannot talk back to teacher.
but i must of course respect them too, cannot go too overbroad.
chatted with a lot of auntie, her conversation so funny one. So straight forward somemore.
now i truly understand, every guys have the same pattern.
one out of ten only got one tiongxim guy, infront of me there is 4 person that i seen.
can change heart veh fast, abandon everything behind and forget all the past.
marvellous one :] they done a veh good job. For wad i know, i never regret knowing the
boy i loved the most. Perhaps by meeting him is a fate, and let me understand what's real love.
it's veh hurting that when you care for someone and they break your heart.
do you think just because we are young, our love doesn't matter as much?
how much a small lies can kill people, somehow you will never feel it :]
you know how much you broke me,
but maybe you dont want to know
or maybe you just dont care but i do.
but nevermind as long as im able to make myself happy :]
omgg office's people know i have a veh bad temper, they know my attitude sux.
scold people ask me scold, lol. How bad are they? But nevermind, can let be vent angers.
wow, a veh old woman over there damn laolan one. So many people hate her.
talk cock behind her back, wad a woman. She forgotten to take medicine in the morning.
talked to me like as if i owe her alot of things, in the afternoon then ask me want coffee anot.
lol, like just took her medicine and she is back to her normal person -.- a bitch like that.
i wont entertain too :] she is not my boss so she is not for me to respect and i wont respect her.
work is simply so boring, im not afraid of making phone calls anymore (:
can talk back to them eh, so good. Better than in school, cannot talk back to teacher.
but i must of course respect them too, cannot go too overbroad.
chatted with a lot of auntie, her conversation so funny one. So straight forward somemore.
now i truly understand, every guys have the same pattern.
one out of ten only got one tiongxim guy, infront of me there is 4 person that i seen.
can change heart veh fast, abandon everything behind and forget all the past.
marvellous one :] they done a veh good job. For wad i know, i never regret knowing the
boy i loved the most. Perhaps by meeting him is a fate, and let me understand what's real love.
it's veh hurting that when you care for someone and they break your heart.
do you think just because we are young, our love doesn't matter as much?
how much a small lies can kill people, somehow you will never feel it :]
you know how much you broke me,
but maybe you dont want to know
or maybe you just dont care but i do.
.Monday, May 10, 2010 ' 8:23 PM
today's mood was still like a Fuck one, try to love my job try to adapt somemore.
but still it sux my day. Everyday go work sit on the chair doing nothing!
who can tolerate although it's veh slack. But still i rather busy to let the time pass.
swear if i find a better job, i will sure run away from my current job. Bored die me! ):
had funny conversation with Yuxia as well as Weihao :] His like so friendly too.
oh yeah, today came a new guy named William. Looked quite decent and good looking.
welcome him uh to join my company and rot with me -.- His rottening and im rotten LOL.
skipped, was chatting with Leelim' dar and Zhenyuan kor in msn. Conversation damn funny.
hahaa love the chatting with them. So fun (: Having them wont let my life continue to rot uh.
alright, enough of my nonsense. I wanna fly to taiwan soon lah, 4 more months! Woots.
currently chatting with Leelim' dar and Boyfriend in msn.
Leelim and i missed our past time, where we will always play basketball in school
until the school guard chase us out. From 8 people, now decrease and left we 3 girls.
everyone have separated and walked differents ways :] It's a sad things.
if time could reverts, we wont take things for so granted already.
we shall cherish every moment being with each other, but everything it's all too late to regret.
someone says when we both are crossing marina square's traffic light towards Esplanades.
' this road should be two pair of couples walking together now left one couple. '
and i added in, soon there will one people coming over here :] or no one crossing anymore.
this sentence is really true, but nevermind (: Go with friends, should be more than one!
to the one i love, the one i adore. My only goal in life, the one i live for.
though we may fight more than we get along. I hope this relationship never go wrong.
i love to be with you, i love you around. Though you may not see what you mean to me.
my love for you will always be, there's why i treasure the love we share.
my love will never change for the one i love veh veh much.
you will never be replaced,
although things are not the same.
but still it sux my day. Everyday go work sit on the chair doing nothing!
who can tolerate although it's veh slack. But still i rather busy to let the time pass.
swear if i find a better job, i will sure run away from my current job. Bored die me! ):
had funny conversation with Yuxia as well as Weihao :] His like so friendly too.
oh yeah, today came a new guy named William. Looked quite decent and good looking.
welcome him uh to join my company and rot with me -.- His rottening and im rotten LOL.
skipped, was chatting with Leelim' dar and Zhenyuan kor in msn. Conversation damn funny.
hahaa love the chatting with them. So fun (: Having them wont let my life continue to rot uh.
alright, enough of my nonsense. I wanna fly to taiwan soon lah, 4 more months! Woots.
currently chatting with Leelim' dar and Boyfriend in msn.
Leelim and i missed our past time, where we will always play basketball in school
until the school guard chase us out. From 8 people, now decrease and left we 3 girls.
everyone have separated and walked differents ways :] It's a sad things.
if time could reverts, we wont take things for so granted already.
we shall cherish every moment being with each other, but everything it's all too late to regret.
someone says when we both are crossing marina square's traffic light towards Esplanades.
' this road should be two pair of couples walking together now left one couple. '
and i added in, soon there will one people coming over here :] or no one crossing anymore.
this sentence is really true, but nevermind (: Go with friends, should be more than one!
to the one i love, the one i adore. My only goal in life, the one i live for.
though we may fight more than we get along. I hope this relationship never go wrong.
i love to be with you, i love you around. Though you may not see what you mean to me.
my love for you will always be, there's why i treasure the love we share.
my love will never change for the one i love veh veh much.
you will never be replaced,
although things are not the same.
.Sunday, May 9, 2010 ' 8:00 PM
Happy 17th birthday to dearest boyfriend :]
We are crapping in the midnight and i fell asleep while she is painting my nails.
when i woke up it's already in the morning when we are preparing for our work.
my nails was like painted veh nice, but only one hand. Lol, another hand hard.
because i was sleeping like pig. She said hard to pull my hand :X
we are late for work, rushing like insane people are doing. Running here and there!
Boyfriend's fault, ask her to wake up she kept sleeping in her bed.
worked worked, aww. Was so damn tiring, so damn sleepy ]:
after work, back to Boyfriend's house for lunch and i rushed home for shower, prepared.
and went to Boyfriend's house again, waste a bit of time and bus down to Jurong Point to meet
Leelim' dar, we are supposing going to Marina ended up it was too late already.
Swensen ice cream :] Super nice, but too sweet. Boyfriend dont like her banana split ice cream
kept complaining non-stop, and Leelim' dar was enjoying her fish & chips.
her damn irritating face, and her sickening cute face. Made us laughed so much.
walked rounds and rounds and home after that, i love rainy days.
but it stopped after awhile -.- damn, im gonna sleep early tonight.
Fucking work is making my mood to be shag and mood-less. Fuck it uh!
she tried so hard to be like everyone else.
but when truth came to fact, she was just herself.
she followed their lead, now she is screwed up, fucked up.
barely able to breathe, how can someone so good.
with their head on the shoulders, standup, to fall down.
my hearts grow colder. Numb to the facts that she is dumb.
everything she has ever learned and was taught, she tossed it out of sight alone.
why does my heart aches, as i lay on my bed.
because he is is more important than he will ever know to me.
first meeting, under the tree.
shy looks, exchanging smile.
last meeting, memorable place.
no longer smile but disappointment.
when i woke up it's already in the morning when we are preparing for our work.
my nails was like painted veh nice, but only one hand. Lol, another hand hard.
because i was sleeping like pig. She said hard to pull my hand :X
we are late for work, rushing like insane people are doing. Running here and there!
Boyfriend's fault, ask her to wake up she kept sleeping in her bed.
worked worked, aww. Was so damn tiring, so damn sleepy ]:
after work, back to Boyfriend's house for lunch and i rushed home for shower, prepared.
and went to Boyfriend's house again, waste a bit of time and bus down to Jurong Point to meet
Leelim' dar, we are supposing going to Marina ended up it was too late already.
Swensen ice cream :] Super nice, but too sweet. Boyfriend dont like her banana split ice cream
kept complaining non-stop, and Leelim' dar was enjoying her fish & chips.
her damn irritating face, and her sickening cute face. Made us laughed so much.
walked rounds and rounds and home after that, i love rainy days.
but it stopped after awhile -.- damn, im gonna sleep early tonight.
Fucking work is making my mood to be shag and mood-less. Fuck it uh!
she tried so hard to be like everyone else.
but when truth came to fact, she was just herself.
she followed their lead, now she is screwed up, fucked up.
barely able to breathe, how can someone so good.
with their head on the shoulders, standup, to fall down.
my hearts grow colder. Numb to the facts that she is dumb.
everything she has ever learned and was taught, she tossed it out of sight alone.
why does my heart aches, as i lay on my bed.
because he is is more important than he will ever know to me.
first meeting, under the tree.
shy looks, exchanging smile.
last meeting, memorable place.
no longer smile but disappointment.
.Saturday, May 8, 2010 ' 11:59 PM
Happy 2nd month to baby and I.
went for a terribly Fucking sucking work, daddy came to fetch me.
central to buy lunch and home after that. Bathe, prepared and meet Boyfriend at her void deck.
walked to Poineer mrt together and meet Leelim' dar, loitered around the mrt.
board mrt trained down to Jurong Point, Pearlyn' dear meet us inside.
all the way down to Ochard and lastly meet baby at Ochard's hawker centre.
We saw so many branded bags, wallet, perfume.
Shit we are all craving for Louis Vuitton, Burberry, Gucci for example ;
we girls are trying to earn money and get it soon :] Although it might take years Lahs :x
walked round the Ochard for super long hours, our leg was so powerful lahs.
ache like as if we never stopped walking for like months.
we are like running everywhere for Boyfriend's birthday present.
managed to got her one clothes lahs, hope she like it. But i know she will. Hahaa.
and i realised that baby is getting veh big tummy now. His eating non - stop, my goodness.
and his feeding me too. My tummy is like gonna burst anytime, gonna kill him soon.
baby was acting cute yesterday, and i swear his really veh cute lahs!
shopped all the way till like 11.20pm. Chiong for the train, and home.
shower, do everything pack everything and went to Boyfriend's house for overnight.
so what if like everything was clarify, the facts is i dont think anything had changed.
even though it changed, it's just the sec and min itself. The next day, things was like repeated.
i choose not to care, i will stick to it. Im tired, im tired of repeating this word im tired.
at least i feel much better after pouring everything up, i choose not to know anything anymore.
the one hurting is never gonna be you but me, still sorry for the past
of bitch-ing me choose to let go of your hand. From then on, you are never you.
i said i regretted being with you, all are angers. I said before, if let me choose my life again.
i will still want you to be my baby, husband and till the world ends.
memories will stay (: slowly image will go, words will go, and everything are erased.
when i was trying veh hard to forget,
it doesn't go away.
when i was about to forget,
you came back.
central to buy lunch and home after that. Bathe, prepared and meet Boyfriend at her void deck.
walked to Poineer mrt together and meet Leelim' dar, loitered around the mrt.
board mrt trained down to Jurong Point, Pearlyn' dear meet us inside.
all the way down to Ochard and lastly meet baby at Ochard's hawker centre.
We saw so many branded bags, wallet, perfume.
Shit we are all craving for Louis Vuitton, Burberry, Gucci for example ;
we girls are trying to earn money and get it soon :] Although it might take years Lahs :x
walked round the Ochard for super long hours, our leg was so powerful lahs.
ache like as if we never stopped walking for like months.
we are like running everywhere for Boyfriend's birthday present.
managed to got her one clothes lahs, hope she like it. But i know she will. Hahaa.
and i realised that baby is getting veh big tummy now. His eating non - stop, my goodness.
and his feeding me too. My tummy is like gonna burst anytime, gonna kill him soon.
baby was acting cute yesterday, and i swear his really veh cute lahs!
shopped all the way till like 11.20pm. Chiong for the train, and home.
shower, do everything pack everything and went to Boyfriend's house for overnight.
so what if like everything was clarify, the facts is i dont think anything had changed.
even though it changed, it's just the sec and min itself. The next day, things was like repeated.
i choose not to care, i will stick to it. Im tired, im tired of repeating this word im tired.
at least i feel much better after pouring everything up, i choose not to know anything anymore.
the one hurting is never gonna be you but me, still sorry for the past
of bitch-ing me choose to let go of your hand. From then on, you are never you.
i said i regretted being with you, all are angers. I said before, if let me choose my life again.
i will still want you to be my baby, husband and till the world ends.
memories will stay (: slowly image will go, words will go, and everything are erased.
when i was trying veh hard to forget,
it doesn't go away.
when i was about to forget,
you came back.
.Friday, May 7, 2010 ' 7:51 PM
woke up early in the morning, but decided not to go for my work.
the fear is still all inside me. Even dream i also dreamt of them, sorry i couldnt make it.
rest at home, watched finish my taiwan's drama. Fated to love you :]
wow, the feeling staying at home not bad too. Rather than working outside facing bitches -.-
how i wish my boyfriend or husband will be like Ji Cun Xi, his like super powerful.
he should be girl's dream boy uh, so sweet and omgg. Don't mention, im so Jealous!
throughout so many taiwan's movie, i love autumn's concerto and fated to love you the most.
i want fly to taiwan soon, see their countries. Wanted to explore Taiwan (:
if im able to go with baby that will be even more wonderful, aww. But it's impossible.
suddenly missing all my beloved friends, when we was in seconday school.
we hope we faster finish my sec life. After finishing, everyone separated.
if can repeat sec life. i will cherish more time with them :] this will be the wonderful memories.
but still im manage to stay contact with some, it's like enough for me.
friends dont need too many, a few can last for life it's worth already.
and currently the few one is still by my side, hope to meet up with your soon.
life will be so beautiful with friends, jokes and conversation will never ends.
Miss my stupid Leelim dar as well as Bas (: Always create lame jokes and
disturbed me all the time. Damn sad uh, but she love me a lots too uh :X
i wont be thickskin because i knew she really love me :] Hehee .
glad that after few months of not contacting, we are still quite close now.
love her so so much, most likely meeting up tomorrow. See you tomorrow dude!
Miss my dumb boyfriend as well as lesbian (: Always do little things that made me laugh.
do stupid action and love to act cute huh, and that's the way why i love her so much too.
and and and she love me more than i love her :X im not being thickskin its the truth.
although we quarrel sometimes, but we are still as close as real blood sisters.
we will never throw each other aside. Love her super much, won't be meeting her tomorrow.
so see you on sunday then! :] Dude girl.
Miss my darling as well as listeners (: forever trying to cheer me up when im down.
but she always kept things to herself, i hope there is one day i can open your heart :]
allow me to listen to all your sad stuff, because i will be there for you too.
dont be stress of some little things. and dont think so much alright?
sometime the things you think might not be true. And love you million lahs.
meet up soon for our shopping alright, we promised to meet long ago.
but we still haven meet up for our dating yet! We often quarrel because we both
have bad temper, but still after awhile we will always be alright.
because darlings will never have hates yeah :] See you soon silly girl.
Miss my dear as well as adviser (: In the past, always treat me lunch for example.
whenever she have money, she will sure treat me this and that.
we are friends since primary 2. Although im much closer than others.
but still i love her too :] i promised her to treat her mac, and her mac is coming soon.
since years ago, this time is not gonna be lies anymore. Sorry for the past, how i treated you.
how much we always quarrels in the past, but still we manage to be friend till now.
and staying in contact. See you tomorrow too! :] Stupidest girl.
Miss my laogong as well as smelly girl (: The moment you saw me you will sure called me
smelly girl ! hahaa, same goes to you smelly girl. I miss you so much too,
and dont hide anything to yourself too uh. Although we never that close anymore.
but we sometime we still manage to talk to each other and so :]
dont too stress up for studies. You said there will still be girl's gathering, so im still waiting for it.
hope it wasn't a disappointing one uh. Meet up soon for our girl's gathering and
our shopping dates uh. Past is still really beautiful for us.
meet up and see you soon :] Smelly girl.
dont try to run away and hide because you are afraid,
dont miss it on the best arrangement that god had arranged for you.
somehow people would always forget to keep what you want to
say in your head but sometimes it helps.
remember everything and everyone in your life
i have not lived long, and yet i have learnt ;
that remembering is union, thanks them when you can.
regret when you cannot, light will survive in the darkest of times
no matter what the cost. The soft toy you hugged when times were tough,
the pillow you cried into at night, the room you called your own for so long.
lastly the desk where you wrote your first poem.
the fear is still all inside me. Even dream i also dreamt of them, sorry i couldnt make it.
rest at home, watched finish my taiwan's drama. Fated to love you :]
wow, the feeling staying at home not bad too. Rather than working outside facing bitches -.-
how i wish my boyfriend or husband will be like Ji Cun Xi, his like super powerful.
he should be girl's dream boy uh, so sweet and omgg. Don't mention, im so Jealous!
throughout so many taiwan's movie, i love autumn's concerto and fated to love you the most.
i want fly to taiwan soon, see their countries. Wanted to explore Taiwan (:
if im able to go with baby that will be even more wonderful, aww. But it's impossible.
suddenly missing all my beloved friends, when we was in seconday school.
we hope we faster finish my sec life. After finishing, everyone separated.
if can repeat sec life. i will cherish more time with them :] this will be the wonderful memories.
but still im manage to stay contact with some, it's like enough for me.
friends dont need too many, a few can last for life it's worth already.
and currently the few one is still by my side, hope to meet up with your soon.
life will be so beautiful with friends, jokes and conversation will never ends.
Miss my stupid Leelim dar as well as Bas (: Always create lame jokes and
disturbed me all the time. Damn sad uh, but she love me a lots too uh :X
i wont be thickskin because i knew she really love me :] Hehee .
glad that after few months of not contacting, we are still quite close now.
love her so so much, most likely meeting up tomorrow. See you tomorrow dude!
Miss my dumb boyfriend as well as lesbian (: Always do little things that made me laugh.
do stupid action and love to act cute huh, and that's the way why i love her so much too.
and and and she love me more than i love her :X im not being thickskin its the truth.
although we quarrel sometimes, but we are still as close as real blood sisters.
we will never throw each other aside. Love her super much, won't be meeting her tomorrow.
so see you on sunday then! :] Dude girl.
Miss my darling as well as listeners (: forever trying to cheer me up when im down.
but she always kept things to herself, i hope there is one day i can open your heart :]
allow me to listen to all your sad stuff, because i will be there for you too.
dont be stress of some little things. and dont think so much alright?
sometime the things you think might not be true. And love you million lahs.
meet up soon for our shopping alright, we promised to meet long ago.
but we still haven meet up for our dating yet! We often quarrel because we both
have bad temper, but still after awhile we will always be alright.
because darlings will never have hates yeah :] See you soon silly girl.
Miss my dear as well as adviser (: In the past, always treat me lunch for example.
whenever she have money, she will sure treat me this and that.
we are friends since primary 2. Although im much closer than others.
but still i love her too :] i promised her to treat her mac, and her mac is coming soon.
since years ago, this time is not gonna be lies anymore. Sorry for the past, how i treated you.
how much we always quarrels in the past, but still we manage to be friend till now.
and staying in contact. See you tomorrow too! :] Stupidest girl.
Miss my laogong as well as smelly girl (: The moment you saw me you will sure called me
smelly girl ! hahaa, same goes to you smelly girl. I miss you so much too,
and dont hide anything to yourself too uh. Although we never that close anymore.
but we sometime we still manage to talk to each other and so :]
dont too stress up for studies. You said there will still be girl's gathering, so im still waiting for it.
hope it wasn't a disappointing one uh. Meet up soon for our girl's gathering and
our shopping dates uh. Past is still really beautiful for us.
meet up and see you soon :] Smelly girl.
dont try to run away and hide because you are afraid,
dont miss it on the best arrangement that god had arranged for you.
somehow people would always forget to keep what you want to
say in your head but sometimes it helps.
remember everything and everyone in your life
i have not lived long, and yet i have learnt ;
that remembering is union, thanks them when you can.
regret when you cannot, light will survive in the darkest of times
no matter what the cost. The soft toy you hugged when times were tough,
the pillow you cried into at night, the room you called your own for so long.
lastly the desk where you wrote your first poem.
.Thursday, May 6, 2010 ' 9:13 PM
today is a veh sux day, i finally burst and cried everything out.
hiding at my office's kitchen, looking outside.
and nobody was there for me. It had been such a long time that i was stressed till like that.
the feeling came back again, the feeling being accused is so damn heartpain.
everything happened at once. Imagine, i have no one to talk to at the moment.
the moment i cried, i called you. But you are busy, this work i can no longer tolerate.
im quitting soon, finding other jobs i suppose. Who is willing to go through the pain with me?
standby me every moment, be my listeners everytime when i need.
thanks auntie for cooking me lunch today although i couldnt finished all
and being snatched by some beggar bitches -.- damn Fuck.
and thanks Yuxia for the comforting sentence :] You will always be there for me, i dote you.
auntie today disturbed me! she said my husband is a chef will cook delicious food for me.
i disagreed with her, never taste any of the food he cooked before ]: aww.
im prepare to hop job soon, im not happy in that place at all.
Really not happy -.- putting a black face everyday once i reached the office, oh yeah.
kena caught from using plurk today -.- 2nd warning, 3rd warning guess will out of the company. that will be better lahs :] no need find reason to quit also. What a Fuck company, damn it.
it's so simple to be wise. Just think of something stupid to say and then dont say it.
a lot of beautiful people are stupid, there's a tremendous amount of idioits
who looked good, it's frightening. a day without sunshine is like blindness right?
being stupid is its own reward, fiction writting is great. you can makeup almost everything.
i owe a lot to my parents, father and mother equally lots ]:
STUPID : Smart Talented Unique Person In Demand.
many wise words are spoken in jest, but they don't compare with the number
of stupid words spoken in earnest. i cannot tell how grateful i am
because im filled with humidity, Genius is like Norman Einstein.
Life to many is something to cherish forever, like a gift from someone.
but who is this someone, this could be your god, a person you love,
or someone that's with you always, reminding you, giving you advice.
parents gave birth to you. they dont expect to see their children to hurt themself
they took 9 month plus to gave birth to you, because of some childish worthless relationship
yet you are hurting yourself like as if you don't have any parents?
be mature, think for the better ways. The past have completely changed me.
i used to be a person who take die veh easily, wanted to commit sucide for relationship too.
at least now im growing up, relationship wont cause me to give up life.
life is really veh important to cherish and treasure. Imagine those who wanted to live,
they don't even have the chance to do so. Don't be silly, it's worthless.
Im supporting those who failed to have a relationship, or just broke off.
I have been through everything, thanks to parents and friends to standby me.
your are able to do it too (: buck up humans, all the best oie ~
dont cherish if its not worth,
let it go to lighten your pain.
dont stick to it, seriously there will be no future.
hiding at my office's kitchen, looking outside.
and nobody was there for me. It had been such a long time that i was stressed till like that.
the feeling came back again, the feeling being accused is so damn heartpain.
everything happened at once. Imagine, i have no one to talk to at the moment.
the moment i cried, i called you. But you are busy, this work i can no longer tolerate.
im quitting soon, finding other jobs i suppose. Who is willing to go through the pain with me?
standby me every moment, be my listeners everytime when i need.
thanks auntie for cooking me lunch today although i couldnt finished all
and being snatched by some beggar bitches -.- damn Fuck.
and thanks Yuxia for the comforting sentence :] You will always be there for me, i dote you.
auntie today disturbed me! she said my husband is a chef will cook delicious food for me.
i disagreed with her, never taste any of the food he cooked before ]: aww.
im prepare to hop job soon, im not happy in that place at all.
Really not happy -.- putting a black face everyday once i reached the office, oh yeah.
kena caught from using plurk today -.- 2nd warning, 3rd warning guess will out of the company. that will be better lahs :] no need find reason to quit also. What a Fuck company, damn it.
it's so simple to be wise. Just think of something stupid to say and then dont say it.
a lot of beautiful people are stupid, there's a tremendous amount of idioits
who looked good, it's frightening. a day without sunshine is like blindness right?
being stupid is its own reward, fiction writting is great. you can makeup almost everything.
i owe a lot to my parents, father and mother equally lots ]:
STUPID : Smart Talented Unique Person In Demand.
many wise words are spoken in jest, but they don't compare with the number
of stupid words spoken in earnest. i cannot tell how grateful i am
because im filled with humidity, Genius is like Norman Einstein.
Life to many is something to cherish forever, like a gift from someone.
but who is this someone, this could be your god, a person you love,
or someone that's with you always, reminding you, giving you advice.
parents gave birth to you. they dont expect to see their children to hurt themself
they took 9 month plus to gave birth to you, because of some childish worthless relationship
yet you are hurting yourself like as if you don't have any parents?
be mature, think for the better ways. The past have completely changed me.
i used to be a person who take die veh easily, wanted to commit sucide for relationship too.
at least now im growing up, relationship wont cause me to give up life.
life is really veh important to cherish and treasure. Imagine those who wanted to live,
they don't even have the chance to do so. Don't be silly, it's worthless.
Im supporting those who failed to have a relationship, or just broke off.
I have been through everything, thanks to parents and friends to standby me.
your are able to do it too (: buck up humans, all the best oie ~
dont cherish if its not worth,
let it go to lighten your pain.
dont stick to it, seriously there will be no future.
.Wednesday, May 5, 2010 ' 9:47 PM
my workplace damn Fucking sux, everyone changed.
i attituded them by all i mean, i dont Fucking bother whether i step on their tail a not -.-
they dont treat me as human. I dont think they earn my respect too :]
im a person who will take revenge but veh likely to forgive too, im soft hearted.
but that's past, now im not anymore. Soft hearted? Only to those people which i really cherish.
recieved my paid slip, fucking sux. The paid -.- not enough for me to buy the things i love.
what a Fuck job, wonder to hop job to somewhere else anot.
but seriously i dont bear some of my colleague over here, some earned my respect.
brain now currently thinking and wondering a lot of things, shall get over soon.
so what if im close to you, nothing will still change.
the next second you can changed like nobody's business.
i dont expect you to really stay long by my side :]
freedom is for everyone, my heart is not as weak as past.
wanna play, i will play along. What's friends for? Cherish or to use them?
i dont expect those who are close to me will still be tiongxim to me.
world have changed, completely Fucking change.
you can hackcare, i will play this game with you once and for all.
so what if i cherish.
you aren't serious at all.
i dont give a damn towards everything now.
i attituded them by all i mean, i dont Fucking bother whether i step on their tail a not -.-
they dont treat me as human. I dont think they earn my respect too :]
im a person who will take revenge but veh likely to forgive too, im soft hearted.
but that's past, now im not anymore. Soft hearted? Only to those people which i really cherish.
recieved my paid slip, fucking sux. The paid -.- not enough for me to buy the things i love.
what a Fuck job, wonder to hop job to somewhere else anot.
but seriously i dont bear some of my colleague over here, some earned my respect.
brain now currently thinking and wondering a lot of things, shall get over soon.
so what if im close to you, nothing will still change.
the next second you can changed like nobody's business.
i dont expect you to really stay long by my side :]
freedom is for everyone, my heart is not as weak as past.
wanna play, i will play along. What's friends for? Cherish or to use them?
i dont expect those who are close to me will still be tiongxim to me.
world have changed, completely Fucking change.
you can hackcare, i will play this game with you once and for all.
so what if i cherish.
you aren't serious at all.
i dont give a damn towards everything now.
.Tuesday, May 4, 2010 ' 8:38 PM
so reluctant to go for work, dragging myself to go.
today is the first time i went work whereby the bus is really packed with people.
so many people until they machiam dont have eyes, although im short
but they kept pushing me around, banging me. Wad the hell, nvm i relax.
when working, i did a veh big mistake -.- my collegue was like veh angry.
but i hackcare, that's nothing i can do mahs. Mistake not as if people won't make.
i hate work, i hate everything. And slowly i hate everyone over there.
all from angels become devil again, now knew them almost one month.
their attitude everything temper also come out, then i think my turn to come out too :]
i secretly went to my blog, and i recieved a email that im given the first warning of
entering my own website during work time. Lol, i wonder how they caught me -.-
totally no freedom, and they really sux. So people, dont stress me. Im going mad soon.
went poineer mall alone just now, brought myself a dress.
and bubble tea for meimei and my dearest mum :] im tired, showering soon.
you know how you broke me, but maybe you want to know.
or maybe you just don't care, But i really do.
you have been a mirage to me for these few years.
and i know what i have done seems veh stupid.
and now im finally close enough to realise that you are not there.
the place that you never really been there before.
i keep on finding myself in these different situations with my heart.
even when i know that at the end of this road taveled im going to be broken.
if im born a man, i wouldnt be so stupid with my heart anymore :]
today is the first time i went work whereby the bus is really packed with people.
so many people until they machiam dont have eyes, although im short
but they kept pushing me around, banging me. Wad the hell, nvm i relax.
when working, i did a veh big mistake -.- my collegue was like veh angry.
but i hackcare, that's nothing i can do mahs. Mistake not as if people won't make.
i hate work, i hate everything. And slowly i hate everyone over there.
all from angels become devil again, now knew them almost one month.
their attitude everything temper also come out, then i think my turn to come out too :]
i secretly went to my blog, and i recieved a email that im given the first warning of
entering my own website during work time. Lol, i wonder how they caught me -.-
totally no freedom, and they really sux. So people, dont stress me. Im going mad soon.
went poineer mall alone just now, brought myself a dress.
and bubble tea for meimei and my dearest mum :] im tired, showering soon.
you know how you broke me, but maybe you want to know.
or maybe you just don't care, But i really do.
you have been a mirage to me for these few years.
and i know what i have done seems veh stupid.
and now im finally close enough to realise that you are not there.
the place that you never really been there before.
i keep on finding myself in these different situations with my heart.
even when i know that at the end of this road taveled im going to be broken.
if im born a man, i wouldnt be so stupid with my heart anymore :]
.Monday, May 3, 2010 ' 8:10 PM
i have a veh serious sickness, i dont even know when am i going bid this world goodbye.
but i promise i will cherish whatever i have for time being, time left isn't much.
no one knows what happen :] even my close friend doesn't know anything.
everything will be kept inside my heart, it's not for sharing.
the day i pass away will be the day im forgiving all those who hurted me.
because no point bringing hates into a coffin, and bury with it.
i used it to exchange your love, but did you cherish it?
im fat, im short, im ugly. This is the facts, i know. But stop repeating.
it will hurt me. Im the one taking in the words but not you.
but i promise i will cherish whatever i have for time being, time left isn't much.
no one knows what happen :] even my close friend doesn't know anything.
everything will be kept inside my heart, it's not for sharing.
the day i pass away will be the day im forgiving all those who hurted me.
because no point bringing hates into a coffin, and bury with it.
i used it to exchange your love, but did you cherish it?
im fat, im short, im ugly. This is the facts, i know. But stop repeating.
it will hurt me. Im the one taking in the words but not you.
went for work with a Fucking shag mood, because i knew there's nothing for me to do.
and yeah im right, from 10.20am onwards im free all the way till 1pm plus.
i Fucking detest them all, treated me as invisible uh.
people should jealous im veh free right, but i dont like.
because i have the feeling that i will doze off anytime, and i dont want.
and Fucking throw temper everywhere, but they dont know im angry uh.
dont want make things difficult for them too, controlled everything.
watch people walking in and out of the office -.- my eyes veh tired, lol.
alright, end off here. Days for me is really getting harder.
no one understands me, even you!
and yeah im right, from 10.20am onwards im free all the way till 1pm plus.
i Fucking detest them all, treated me as invisible uh.
people should jealous im veh free right, but i dont like.
because i have the feeling that i will doze off anytime, and i dont want.
and Fucking throw temper everywhere, but they dont know im angry uh.
dont want make things difficult for them too, controlled everything.
watch people walking in and out of the office -.- my eyes veh tired, lol.
alright, end off here. Days for me is really getting harder.
no one understands me, even you!
now i finally understand that, no matter how much you wanna trust that person.
he/she will sure doing something wrong to make you lost trust again.
and that's me now :] Thanks uh, and veh powerful lahs.
thought by keeping you all the time by my side, you will slightly change just for me.
but you never, and the history repeated again. This time, the pain isn't veh deep.
just let me know how can i give my trust to you again.
and you wouldnt be understanding than i thought, wanna quarrel with me just for little stuff.
kkays. i dont want find trouble anymore, freedom it's all yours now (:
every little things you did,
will cheer me up.
but you never, you added more injuries into it.
he/she will sure doing something wrong to make you lost trust again.
and that's me now :] Thanks uh, and veh powerful lahs.
thought by keeping you all the time by my side, you will slightly change just for me.
but you never, and the history repeated again. This time, the pain isn't veh deep.
just let me know how can i give my trust to you again.
and you wouldnt be understanding than i thought, wanna quarrel with me just for little stuff.
kkays. i dont want find trouble anymore, freedom it's all yours now (:
every little things you did,
will cheer me up.
but you never, you added more injuries into it.
.Sunday, May 2, 2010 ' 10:37 PM
somehow i love this photo :]
woke up early in the morning, night at boyfriend's house was a awesome one.
hehee. we washed up, and mee Leelim and mac for our early breakfast.
and waited Jubellina's mother to drive us to work. Aww, work was quite tiring.
and the time passes so slow, and stupid Leelim kept bullying me in carpark.
aww, nevermind i won't entertain a elephant :X played hide and seek with me somemore.
she is veh veh childish uh :] boyfriend separated from me today ):
she working at another place, but still will meet her in the late afternoon when we are going
to punch our card. In the late afternoon around 3pm, meet Leelim and boyfriend once again.
we went for our swimming activity. but sorry to say, i dontknow how to swim.
i just went there to play water (: so fun kkays. Suana after that, nearly lost our breathe lol.
dinner at boyfriend's house, crapped abit and home. Aww, tomorrow there is work -.-
and i Fucking hate working. totally no mood in it, damn. Who is willing to marry me Lol.
then i can no need to work, be a tai tai at home le. I must be well dreaming, nevermind.
got to go soon, Fucking work everyday. Im so damn shag, but who understands me.
it doesn't matter whether you have the important things beside you.
you rather use it on other people than me :]
well, i knew all this but it's kkays. We have our own life too.
freedom is what everyone wants, and i won't stop it for happening.
times right everything right, and automatically everything will go and come by itself.
if it's time to end.
no way to hold.
hehee. we washed up, and mee Leelim and mac for our early breakfast.
and waited Jubellina's mother to drive us to work. Aww, work was quite tiring.
and the time passes so slow, and stupid Leelim kept bullying me in carpark.
aww, nevermind i won't entertain a elephant :X played hide and seek with me somemore.
she is veh veh childish uh :] boyfriend separated from me today ):
she working at another place, but still will meet her in the late afternoon when we are going
to punch our card. In the late afternoon around 3pm, meet Leelim and boyfriend once again.
we went for our swimming activity. but sorry to say, i dontknow how to swim.
i just went there to play water (: so fun kkays. Suana after that, nearly lost our breathe lol.
dinner at boyfriend's house, crapped abit and home. Aww, tomorrow there is work -.-
and i Fucking hate working. totally no mood in it, damn. Who is willing to marry me Lol.
then i can no need to work, be a tai tai at home le. I must be well dreaming, nevermind.
got to go soon, Fucking work everyday. Im so damn shag, but who understands me.
it doesn't matter whether you have the important things beside you.
you rather use it on other people than me :]
well, i knew all this but it's kkays. We have our own life too.
freedom is what everyone wants, and i won't stop it for happening.
times right everything right, and automatically everything will go and come by itself.
if it's time to end.
no way to hold.
.Saturday, May 1, 2010 ' 11:59 PM
went for Hanhui's birthday party so once again, Happy Birthday to him :]
had little for dinner, didnt have much appetite.
slacked around the place, camwhore around. Loithering everywhere.
his house was like in a chaos, so damn lots people. Omgg, all strangers one.
sang his birthday song at around 9pm plus, after finishing cake and went off.
slacked with Jastine, Leelim and Peiwen at some stairs. Camwhored and crapping around.
Leelim went home, three of us walked home. And im staying at boyfriend's house tonight.
send Jastine home, and our turn to her home sweet home. Bathe, and went mac for fries.
chatted awhile and slept at 1.50am. Lol, midnight still take mac :] how fat are we.
have like clarified everything, but the things wouldnt work.
you claimed that effort was put in, but i dont see any changes.
i will just let you have everything you want. Because i no longer have the energy.
and lastly, im really veh veh tired already. Got to go, abit shag mood.
cherish is all i want you to have.
neglecting is all you can give.
had little for dinner, didnt have much appetite.
slacked around the place, camwhore around. Loithering everywhere.
his house was like in a chaos, so damn lots people. Omgg, all strangers one.
sang his birthday song at around 9pm plus, after finishing cake and went off.
slacked with Jastine, Leelim and Peiwen at some stairs. Camwhored and crapping around.
Leelim went home, three of us walked home. And im staying at boyfriend's house tonight.
send Jastine home, and our turn to her home sweet home. Bathe, and went mac for fries.
chatted awhile and slept at 1.50am. Lol, midnight still take mac :] how fat are we.
have like clarified everything, but the things wouldnt work.
you claimed that effort was put in, but i dont see any changes.
i will just let you have everything you want. Because i no longer have the energy.
and lastly, im really veh veh tired already. Got to go, abit shag mood.
cherish is all i want you to have.
neglecting is all you can give.
