.Saturday, August 28, 2010 ' 9:43 PM
Be strong in who You are ;
In life, it seems that i need to face the pain ahead.
bones & brain, i fucking hate You! Stop giving me problem.
i need a rest please! Don't ache anymore, im really tired.
if by taking me away,
the pain will be gone.
You may.
bones & brain, i fucking hate You! Stop giving me problem.
i need a rest please! Don't ache anymore, im really tired.
if by taking me away,
the pain will be gone.
You may.
.Thursday, August 26, 2010 ' 10:50 PM
You'll always be my favourite ;
it should be our one year eleven month today, but now we're just five month.
it means we still have years or so to walk on, this path is getting even harder.
you once say, im not auto at all. Now i do hold your hand myself, call your randomly.
text You randomly. I did, i changed. Yeah my temper & attitude didnt changed i know.
at least it's better than last time i supposed. Hard touch hard wouldn't solve.
sometime i would be the one giving in, because i do cherish this tough relationship.
no matter how tough is it, how hard to walk. I will still choose to walk it, because i love You.
the photo ontop, it should be during our secondary two life, outside my stairs.
that hand that fit my hand, and that hand was tight enough for me to hold on.
just wanting to say that i do love You & well You know it well too.
but if things are really uncontrollable, it's better to let go.
but, You'll never be replaced. You left scar on my hands & legs huh. Thanks to You.
as for those friend whom i have drifted with, im still gonna love your like last time.
miss your like last time, my darling once say. Once a friend always a friend right?
i will never forget all of your, all are just important like my life (:
gonna love your with my whole heartly, it might seems quite lame but well
your will still be remembered well hard in my heart and mind.
with a person whom doesn't love You,
that's not love but force ;
it means we still have years or so to walk on, this path is getting even harder.
you once say, im not auto at all. Now i do hold your hand myself, call your randomly.
text You randomly. I did, i changed. Yeah my temper & attitude didnt changed i know.
at least it's better than last time i supposed. Hard touch hard wouldn't solve.
sometime i would be the one giving in, because i do cherish this tough relationship.
no matter how tough is it, how hard to walk. I will still choose to walk it, because i love You.
the photo ontop, it should be during our secondary two life, outside my stairs.
that hand that fit my hand, and that hand was tight enough for me to hold on.
just wanting to say that i do love You & well You know it well too.
but if things are really uncontrollable, it's better to let go.
but, You'll never be replaced. You left scar on my hands & legs huh. Thanks to You.
as for those friend whom i have drifted with, im still gonna love your like last time.
miss your like last time, my darling once say. Once a friend always a friend right?
i will never forget all of your, all are just important like my life (:
gonna love your with my whole heartly, it might seems quite lame but well
your will still be remembered well hard in my heart and mind.
with a person whom doesn't love You,
that's not love but force ;
.Saturday, August 21, 2010 ' 11:59 PM
What's wrong with Love?
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letting You go even if it hurts, doesn't mean You have to let go everything.
You just have to let go of the person and your feeling for the person
but the memories will always be there whether it's good or bad.
because everytime You remember those memories, it will put a smile into your heart.
and be glad that once in your life this person made You happy and
put colors into your life even if it's just for a while.
baby sandwich You know wad? I feel like writing everything out from my heart.
i used to be flirt but i changed, i used to be very bossy but i changed.
why did i changed? because i don't want to have the feeling of losing You anymore.
i called You, You didnt answer my call or never call back.
i texted You, your reason was always the same never see.
did i mention that if that's the way we don't contact for days?
after seeing this text, i was outside crying like nobody business.
im not a crybaby, i cried so much so hard just because im hurt by your words.
You do so many things that i hate, did i forgive You automatic?
did i ask for more? I just need little more concern, & Love.
i don't need too much, im just a very simple girl which needed a simple Love.
i thought we would never parted with each other again, never ever.
how much i cherish, how much i love You i think You know more than anyone else;
after so many things happened, i still choose to be with You. why?
just wanna let You know, if You wanna go. I won't hold back anymore.
how many time i hold back? No matter how many time i pull You back, You'll still go.
memories will stay, this is my blog link's name.
i do hope memories don't stay.
because i won't be able to take it, & it's a big blow for me.
i just wanna a simple life will do, please god.
grant my wish.
years to build.
yet seconds to shatter.
.Monday, August 16, 2010 ' 11:19 PM
Fuck You,
Sorry doesn't make up for anything ;
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here are the twenty things i give myself permission for :
1. i give myself permission to rest
2. i give myself permission to laugh
3. i give myself permission to play
4. i give myself permission to make mistake
5. i give myself permission to say 'no' to demands on my time that are simply draining
6. i give myself permission to say 'yes' to what i want
7. i give myself permission to fulfill my lifelong dreams
8. i give myself permission to ask for what i want
9. i give myself permission to be who i am
10. i give myself permission to try again
11. i give myself permission to have fun
12. i give myself permission to design my own life
13. i give myself permission to love my baby
14. i give myself permission to stay focused on on what's important to me
15. i give myself permission to be whatever bodyshape i like
16. i give myself permission to be imperfect
17. i give myself permission to ask for help
18. i give myself permission to stop caring what others think of me
19. i give myself permission to write a lousy first draft
20. i give myself permission to create
loving you xu jianwei doesn't made me regret,
by leaving you made me regret the most.
i let go of a man who loved me deeply in the past,
and i no longer can find him back; but no matter what it is.
i will still love him like what i do in the past, pamper him like what i do.
cherish & treasure him like what i did, i might show attitude or temper to You.
it shows that how much i love and how much i care for You.
i wanna be the one to be there for You all the time, even if the world is turning upside down.
my love for You will never change but will be even deeper when each day passed.
i love You for who You are, but not loving You who You are not ;
sometimes You need a second chance,
because time wasn't ready for the first time.
if You look inside a girl's heart and see how much she cries.
You'll find secrets, promises and lies.
but what You'll see most is how hard she tries to stay strong.
when nothing is right and everything's wrong.
if i could turn back time, if i could find a way.
i had take back those words that hurt You, and You had stay.
do what makes You happy,
be with who makes You smile
laugh as much as You breathe
and love as long as You live.
1. i give myself permission to rest
2. i give myself permission to laugh
3. i give myself permission to play
4. i give myself permission to make mistake
5. i give myself permission to say 'no' to demands on my time that are simply draining
6. i give myself permission to say 'yes' to what i want
7. i give myself permission to fulfill my lifelong dreams
8. i give myself permission to ask for what i want
9. i give myself permission to be who i am
10. i give myself permission to try again
11. i give myself permission to have fun
12. i give myself permission to design my own life
13. i give myself permission to love my baby
14. i give myself permission to stay focused on on what's important to me
15. i give myself permission to be whatever bodyshape i like
16. i give myself permission to be imperfect
17. i give myself permission to ask for help
18. i give myself permission to stop caring what others think of me
19. i give myself permission to write a lousy first draft
20. i give myself permission to create
loving you xu jianwei doesn't made me regret,
by leaving you made me regret the most.
i let go of a man who loved me deeply in the past,
and i no longer can find him back; but no matter what it is.
i will still love him like what i do in the past, pamper him like what i do.
cherish & treasure him like what i did, i might show attitude or temper to You.
it shows that how much i love and how much i care for You.
i wanna be the one to be there for You all the time, even if the world is turning upside down.
my love for You will never change but will be even deeper when each day passed.
i love You for who You are, but not loving You who You are not ;
sometimes You need a second chance,
because time wasn't ready for the first time.
if You look inside a girl's heart and see how much she cries.
You'll find secrets, promises and lies.
but what You'll see most is how hard she tries to stay strong.
when nothing is right and everything's wrong.
if i could turn back time, if i could find a way.
i had take back those words that hurt You, and You had stay.
do what makes You happy,
be with who makes You smile
laugh as much as You breathe
and love as long as You live.
.Saturday, August 14, 2010 ' 8:08 AM
Let's forget all the past &
keep walking on ;
Oh alright, im here to update again. Hello my dearest blog :]
i won't be updating any pictures today because im lazy! It's a good reason huh.
gonna thanks babe for that beautiful necklance, i loved it super lots. Im serious;
this few days i've been thinking a lot a lot, i knew it's no longer able to go back.
i promise i'll let You have your way, do everything You like & want.
because im forever nothing anymore. I really do cherish, but You didnt.
alright. Don't wanna say those things to ruin my mood into super moody.
Suddenly think back, i missed the time that boyfriend always come to find me & play.
when we are seconday 1, imagine using stick to poke those poor worms.
use slippers to collect rainwater and play at the playgroud, fold paper boats &
place it in the drain full of water :] how childish & how lames we are?
i wish to go back, i wish to go back to the time that we won't quarrel, won't betray.
i wanna go back to our innocent us, simple mind. rather than now, it seems to be so complicated.
wanted to know what are You doing, is your life getting better? or wad.
but i knew never gonna go back to the past, let's move on together.
sometime i just wondered, just because all of us not studying together anymore & that drifted us?
in the past, we have so many girls surrounded. Example; where's meiling? where's evon?
where's jastine? where's cynthia? where's jubellina? where's pearlyn? where's shanting?
where leelim? & lastly where's my boyfriend? we used to have such a big group gathering.
steamboat in chinatown, enjoyed those lame jokes. Those crazy us, omgg.
i just hope god would fulfill my wish by bringing me back to see them.
they all have changed, i admit i changed too. Everyone changed, & im not gonna bother anymore.
what a shame,
we all became such fragile broken things;
.Thursday, August 12, 2010 ' 10:44 PM
When is the best time to tell someone
You love him?
Answer: Before someone else does.
I'll be there till the stars don't shine, till the heaven burst and the words don't rhyme.
i know when i die, You'll be in my mind. And i'll love You always ;
basically, i wish that You loved me. i wish that You needed me.
i wish that without me You'd been spending the rest of your nights awake.
i wish that without me You couldn't eat, i wish i was the last thing
on your mind before You went to sleep.
i miss texting You everyday, how close we were. Something changed,
and it scares me that we won't be able to go back to what we were.
i just want You to hold me in your arms, and tell me that everything will be okay,
and that You love me, because i miss You so much that it hurts.
i believe that everything happens for a reason.
people change so that You can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that You can appreciate them when they're right,
believe less so You eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
trust takes years to build, yet seconds to shatter.
Baby 是你变了吗?
Life is a bitch,
so learn to fuck it.
i know when i die, You'll be in my mind. And i'll love You always ;
basically, i wish that You loved me. i wish that You needed me.
i wish that without me You'd been spending the rest of your nights awake.
i wish that without me You couldn't eat, i wish i was the last thing
on your mind before You went to sleep.
i miss texting You everyday, how close we were. Something changed,
and it scares me that we won't be able to go back to what we were.
i just want You to hold me in your arms, and tell me that everything will be okay,
and that You love me, because i miss You so much that it hurts.
i believe that everything happens for a reason.
people change so that You can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that You can appreciate them when they're right,
believe less so You eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
trust takes years to build, yet seconds to shatter.
Baby 是你变了吗?
Life is a bitch,
so learn to fuck it.
.Tuesday, August 10, 2010 ' 12:13 PM
Even if the world is going to fall,
I'm still going to hold on tight to your hand.
throughout the 5 years, my first time received such a unforgettable message.
would You remember who i am? would You remember anything about the first
day we met 5 years from now? Would You remember me if i passed You on the street?
would You remember just how much i ever Love You?
You'll be my sandwich baby till ever, i believed no one is gonna take over your place.
i'll never forgive,
if history gonna repeat ;
.Thursday, August 5, 2010 ' 10:47 PM
Telling myself, if You really wanna cherish.
You' will.
National Museum :]
Thanks for accompany me.
You' will.
National Museum :]
Thanks for accompany me.
the best moment was when i am with You.
the saddest moment was when i couldn't see You.
i don't see the love.
that was like the past.
the saddest moment was when i couldn't see You.
i don't see the love.
that was like the past.
