.Thursday, January 28, 2010 ' 7:33 AM
Today's Tittle: Self Love.
Happy Birthday To My Jastine Darling (;
And Of Course, I Miss And Love her Lahhs!
And Of Course, I Miss And Love her Lahhs!
People are so weird, so scare to tell me the real story mehs?
Have girlfriend say got girlfriend lah, I already know everything le.
Yet act as if You and her nothing happen. Perhaps this let You made me feel better.
But too bad, it isn't. It made me feel more disappointed in You.
Because imagine a person knew everything already, yet another person not telling a truth.
To me, I still think You are a flirt. Even though You said You are not.
Love a person feeling will fade so fast? I'm not gonna trust You okay.
Do whatever fuck things You want, disappointed. What a typical man.
With a unresponsibility action, childish mind. Everything have changed.
You can changed, I can change even worst than You (; Years later, when You see me.
I'll never be the past me anymore, like a pathetic dog crying for a guy. Hahaa.
You love bitch so much? I can learn to be a bitch (; But I'll never like You again.
Last entry writing about a guy which doesn't worth, after walking years with.
It seems like I done so much for this guy, but it doesn't move him at all.
Because his not matured, so nevermind. I'll let other girls have him, since he loved it.
Sentence goes like this, truly love a person. Feeling won't fade after days for not contacting
Or meeting, if love is like that. It's not love, it's just playing. Now I understand.
Nothing but a typical man, there's much more better guy outside. It rings my mind.
Thanks to a boy, he standby me whenever I needed him. His been with me since morning.
Although he did emo and his own wounds haven even heal.
But his trying to cheer me up everyday, telling me fairy tales.
And wants me to stand up on my feet to be proud of myself.
His special, his not a normal boy like other people (;
But definitely we sure can be best friends, his the best of all among all of my boy - friend.
I don't know what more to explain about his character, his damn good until speechless.
And thanks god for letting me know him as a friend.
Maybe this is a return from god that he had took something important from me.
I'm waiting for this boy to message me after he finish his show.
Some bitches, don't worry that I'll snatch him from You.
Go ahead and love him and cherish him as You like okay?
A coward man, I won't want him back. Don't need quarrel with him one.
And remember this sentence, You are not his who don't try to jealous lahhs okay.
Such a shit noob, I won't contact him alright (; Carry on with your sweetness with him.
It's none of my fucking business okay. Jealous, You're just nothing lahhs dude.
Hate feeling getting more and more.
Made me ended a pathetic life,
I will never forgive a person in this way.
Not worth for me to respect at all, bunch of flirters.
J & S, You both will never have a good ending (; Trust me both dude.
.Wednesday, January 27, 2010 ' 8:27 AM
Thanks Selyn and Kevin for telling me so many things that are so meaningful.
Selyn gave me a sentence that really cheer me up, it goes like that.
God is very fair when You lose something You will always gain something back.
Currently it's good example, though You will feel better if You're still with him,
God will make way when it seems to be no way, he work in way that we cannot see.
He will make a way for me, never give up! We will all success in life.
As for Kevin, he said millions thousands of things to woke me up from my dreams.
I never expect this two person will be there for me when I'm so down.
To me, friends is everything now. Having boyfriend a not, it doesn't really matter (;
And of course to those friends who said alot things to me. I'll remember whatever your said.
Don't worry ;D Hmm, this few days some irritating guys kept smsing me and what the fuck.
So damn disgusting lah. Want hug me? Go hug your mother better, zz.
Don't said You love me, because I don't fucking love You at all. (;
Don't blame me for so straightforward okay, because I'm always like this.
Meet boyfriend to chat, yongwei came down with his dog. I love that dog (;
Pulled it and walk with me all the way. So cute, I feel like keeping a dog.
And my mum confirm don't allow, Sian one D; Next time when I've a own house.
I'll definitely keep a dog to accompany me when I'm bored (;
A dog to talk with when I'm sad, A dog to hug when I'm really super down.
Pearlyn came afterwards, she brought my XXL chicken back to me (;
Months that I last eaten this chicken, so damn shiok when the first piece enters my mouth.
Alright, I'm going to watch television programme now. Life's sibei bored uh.
2 weeks.
I'm improving already!
Yesh, I thought It was hard.
But actually it isn't (;
.Tuesday, January 26, 2010 ' 4:42 AM
Yesterday meet JunChi. Alright, entertaining me (; well, not bad.
And your armpit jokes was really funny lah, make me laughed.
Thanks for your ice cream, and thanks to you lah. Made me so full.
Talked, talked, talked and back to find Leelim' dar and Boyfriend to chat.
Enjoying talking cock and all that, fool around (; So cool.
Kfc for dinner, eat until very very full lah. But still enjoyed alots.
Yesh, I realised this is my life. There are sure friends around me.
And I forget what happened afterwards lah, forget it then.
Today, met up with Felicia like finally after years (; Chatting happily.
Talked about our past and all that, glad to know that we're still in contact ba.
Chatted for hours, and bus down for that Xuanwei. Sad? And went lend him my ears lah.
Thrown me aside, and he went arcade that's how cool is it. (; Best.
Made me come out, and dinner with me. I was so fucking fucking hungry.
And thanks for your dinner lah. And his getting more laolan already.
Very good (; Well done, and I fucking like it okay. -'-
I'm finding things to do everyday (; Cool one. Won't be bored already.
And think of some useless things, somethings that are so freakless.
To someone, stop sticking to me when I fucking hate You can.
I never even say want stead with You, call me until so close for?
Lol, disgusting. Really, please lah freak off from me, very sickening leh.
I don't straightforward tell You already very good le, please lah.
Fuck off from my life, Irritating. Can get far, then go far alright.
Damn sickening one, zz. Don't make me really pekche.
Today used to be a date which is very important, but no longer already.
Using people, Heartless, Selfish, Hack caring, Bastard people I won't entertain.
Want bastard? I'll bastard with You (; If that made You feel so happy lah dude.
Rumors all around me, listen until bored lah. And that's his life.
I won't really fucking care anymore, he said we've our own life marhhs.
Said we're friends? Yea, friends as in no contact de friends lorhs.
That's so super cool lah, Tired of bothering so much things.
Enjoy is all I want, friends is all I needs ;D When I need them, they'll sure be there.
Alright, blog another time ba. Now feel that blogger is getting even boring uh.
Be strong guys,
Everything can be heal.
It takes only time okay (;
Jiayou to those who are suffering now.
Believe in yourself, I've overcome. I don't see why your can't.
.Thursday, January 21, 2010 ' 8:18 PM
If a guy get number from a girl after we break not long, perhaps it's just few days.
What kind of guys is this? When I first know, heart was jumping very fast.
Heart was bleeding like nobody's business, there's a sentence goes like that.
If You really love that person, let them go and find the next partner they want.
Seeing them finding their own happiness You will be happy for them too.
Okay, this sentence is so right. So now a days my heart never really jumped fast.
The blood is stopping too, after he moved house. We may not contact anymore.
And hopefully I won't contact him too. Knowing they chatting in real life face to face.
Messaging each other in class, Yup. To him is he should be very happy.
So as well as I will be happy for You, Boy listen that. I've forget You quite alot after 9 days.
So I believed after few more days, I'll forget You totally.
You can be so heartless, I don't see why can't I? Haha.
I never think of having You back anymore, You should be happy.
I've fulfill your dream, I'll find a better guy soon (;
Christine here, wishing Jianwei have a wonderful relationship with that girl ;D
Well, having a bad sore throat now. Voice seems to changed a little.
Meeting Leelim later (; Wants to play with hamster, memories? I may have a little.
And and, Jun Chi wants me to write in my post that I'm meeting him next monday!
So Jun Chi saw it already? I did write out okay! (; Thanks You for standing with me all this while.
Willing to lend me your hugs, shoulder. Although I may not need it already.
But is the heart that counts (; I'm going to visit Jianwei's house the last time.
And after that, putting all the memories away. If my house's things supposed to throw, I will.
No point seeing things that irritates me, okay. I want to prepare already.
I can show that, without him. I can still live happily. Knowing more guys (;
Freedom, I should have it earlier. Alright got to go le bye readers.
I want to be a flirt,
That won't hurt myself anymore (;
And wants to understand his flirting feeling.
Is that really so cool!
.Wednesday, January 20, 2010 ' 4:09 AM
Christine is back (; She's finally not that sad anymore. At least she didn't cry for today!
She improved alot since yesterday incident, although she still think alot.
But she's definitely improving le. Alright, today I went reborning with my meimei at central.
And my hair sucks alot, as for my sister. Swear that hers is even better than mine.
Seat there for 4 hours, shivering and butt is stiffed. Damn irritating want.
Bought bubble tea for my meimei, and bought durian home (; Smelled nice!
Slacked with boyfriend under my void deck and home. Dinner, tv programme.
And back, messaging with Hwa keong and Evon. Staying at home is really damn boring.
Wondering tomorrow where should I go, shag leh! Who wants to pei wo?
And I know Jun Chi wants lah ;x Damn boring leh. Only one people chatting with me in msn.
And that's Christopher. All people gone, and Jianwei promised to login at 8pm.
He lied me, and forget it. I'm not waiting either. Nothing more to post also liaos D;
Christopher called me and chat, anyway I'm going out to meet friends le.
Well, went to meet Leelim. Heart talk with her, and talking nonsense lah ;x
She asked me to retake N level, but I have to study again for secondary 4 de.
I'm sure I cannot cope it, because I'm so lazy to study de.
Tomorrow meeting her again, because I want to see hamster.
Plead my mum to let me keep one, when I'm bored at least hamster will accompany me.
But she rejected me straight, walao D; nevermind ba.
Then I will go out everyday ba. That will made her more piss off ;x Haha.
Alright, I lazy to post le lah. I want go listen and find song le. Bye readers!
8 days,
And yeah I've overcome a little bit le.
Thanks for those who are standing beside me.
Not leaving and throwing me aside to face those sadness.
You guys, I'll love your ever and ever! ;D Thanks guys.
.Tuesday, January 19, 2010 ' 6:02 PM
Just now I nearly lost my life, facing a battle alone. I really cannot take it anymore.
Now then I know that there are so many people worrying about me.
Just now incident scared alot of your le, I'm sorry to You guys.
Just now that decision is being too selfish and never think about those people around me.
I'll try to stand up and face the reality. Although, till now my heart is still aching painfully.
No matter how, I've to go through all this de. This is the first time I feel that life is not worth.
I'll try to takecare of myself, thanks to those people who concerned me.
Thanks to : Pearlyn, Peiwen, Zhihan, Jubellina, Michelle, Selyn, Kaiting, Chingyen.
And lastly : To my dearest mother, dearest father and my dearest sister.
Battle is still coming on, no matter what I have to really face it.
I can say nothing more but try to stand up like how I used to be.
Time will heal the wounds down inside my heart, hopefully it won't take too long for me.
Finding job to make myself as busy as I can, accompany friends out and all that.
Soon, I will totally forget about You. Which You asked me to do so.
Since I promised You, And therefore I will do it.
And now I knew that, when I need listeners. Who will not be there for me.
For today, I can finally understand who cares for me and who doesn't.
Those who cared are appreciated by me, those who are not. Don't find me when You are down.
Alright, I'm going out soon to meet my dearest friends.
I'll be fine after some while, because it's not worth for me to shed anymore tears.
Dearest meimei, sorry that I have disappointed You. I'm home in one piece le.
Don't worry about me, I have read your blog. Half reading, half crying.
Yup, although we fight. You are still the only sister I have.
Concerned me like how other people concerned treated me, I love You (;
And Im using my heart to say, don't worry about me le. *Hugs*
And to You, happy continue with the girl You are going for.
Wishing You all the best (;
Weird nahs, every couple breakup cannot be friends?
Sian de, alright nevermind. Gambateh with that girl of yours.
Relationship is a hard puzzle to be fixed.
Take a close look and solve it before it went missing.
All the best to those who are in a relationship ;D
.Monday, January 18, 2010 ' 11:43 PM
l forced myself not to think about You, I really can't.
I don't understand our 4 years of memories, You can let it go so quickly.
Is just because I'm too soft hearted? My heart really stopped, I cannot breathe.
6 days of crying, how much can I still say? How would my wound heal?
Yesterday I should bring more money to buy the night safari of our photo home.
I really regretted alot, can I stop thinking about You. 4 years leh?
Anyone who stepped into a relationship for 4 years, and just let it go so easily?
6 days, weight gone down 3 kg le. I don't want this to happen to me again.
I want to be like how I eat in the past, that's me. Not now de me.
Now, no longer have the mood to attitude and temper people? Why?
Because of him I want to change everything, but he will never be back anymore.
Why am I still writting about him, since I said I will not write about him again?
It's because, touch wood. If I really leave this world, at least this will be the memories too.
Christine will fall anytime, it's the matter of the time.
All people asked me to let go, move on my life.
Let me tell your, If I can forget him. I will choose to forget.
It's my heart and mind wouldn't let go of him. Not me.
If so easy, 3 years ago. I would have leave him and never go back with him.
It's not easy, I cannot stand up to be strong. Or Im just a loser, a useless freak.
That made people worry for me, he no longer love me, care me like in the past.
His heart never the same anymore, I don't know what to do for the time being.
Just let me cried until I step into the coffin. I still love him, and I really do.
Christine is different now, really different.
Your hands, hugs and kisses. I guess not even a guy can take over your place.
You will never be replaced in my heart, the lovely boy I ever had.
Losing You,
As well as losing me.
Without You,
As well as without me.
I know You would not come back again,
But I really wish You will and You would.
.Sunday, January 17, 2010 ' 9:03 AM
Meet Jianwei under my void deck @ 3pm plus, walked to boyfriend's bus stop.
He bus to arena, while I went to meet boyfriend at her house.
Damn shag one D; Went Jurong Point with boyfriend and parents.
So boring, Jianwei came to fine me. And we trained down to Choa Chu Kang.
He went mac to eat, waited and bus down to Night Safari.
Although It's quite dark over there, but I still mention to enjoy myself with Jianwei.
When we got onto the tram, the people there. Took photo of Jianwei and I.
Though photo can be redeem and bring home, but they said must buy for $20.
I wanted to buy de, Just that. I've not enough money, sigh.
My last memories of the photos D; Nevermind, let it go ba.
Thanks Jianwei for your warm hugs as well as warm hands.
You fulfill my last dream, thanks for keeping your promise.
And I promised, we should be friends. Since You don't want stead at the moment.
Meet up often alright? We shall be friends forever, and I believe love cannot last.
Our friendship sure can last ba? See You soon, takecare of your throat.
Hope that I'll be fine for all this while, only having one meal a day.
And it's quite light de, I try to force myself to eat more.
Thanks for those people who standby me for the 5 days, Your all loved.
Hope my gastric don't got hole. Lol, or my life will be worst.
Adding on to my stress, I will try to forget him. And don't want people to worry for me.
Lastly, I just want to say. I really love him, his my one and only since Secondary 1 ;D
Alright, got to go now. Will update again soon !
Boy, Thanks for the memories.
You never lied me (;
Sorry for the past how I treated You.
And thanks for your shoulder and everything.
.Saturday, January 16, 2010 ' 1:14 PM
All couple are separated, left peiwen and zhenyuan.
Last long, this photo is no longer important, He left me.
I hope I can, But I really cannot. Before sleep I will cry, first thing I woke up is cry.
Every 3 meals, I take only one meal. How long do I need to suffered?
It's hurting me, It's really hurting me alots.
This is the first relationship that made me lost everything
I cannot possible see him fall in love with another girl,
I cannot possible see him sweet with others.
If I don't even bear to see him with other girls, I won't even bear him to leave me.
Everyday life is making me even worst, I don't know how to face it for the rest of my life.
Everyone adviced me not to cry anymore, give up and so.
His the one I loved the most, how can your expect me not to think about him?
The moment I cried, my head really hurts. But my heart hurts the most.
Maybe this is the freedom he wants, but I like the way he called me baby.
It's missing, it's really missing. How am I able to hear him call me again?
I'm tired of crying, but I just cannot stopped. God, if can. Please bring me away from here.
I don't want to suffer anymore, I'm really very very tired.
Memories need to be erase? How hard is it, love getting deeper each day.
Even though You are not with me. How You expect me to forget You.
I dote You the most, Care You the most, Love the You the most. And even hurt You the most.
So many memories since Secondary 1. Bitter, sweet and whatever.
I miss the time I waited for You for your basketball training, see how cool are You to
Play with your basketball. It's all still inside my mind. No matter how much I cried.
Those memories won't be erased. I've enough of explaining so many things.
Maybe from tomorrow onwards I will stop writting things about You.
I don't want You to say that I'm irritating or what. We are best friend, hope best friends will last.
I long ago knew that one of us feeling will fade, but I don't know it's just so fast.
So suddenly, and it seems like I lost everything. No work, no school, no relationship.
And soon no friends. This is what my life is for? I'm just a dumb.
If You leave, You are hurting even more. Why don't You just stay with me.
Stay with me until You really have no more feeling for me.
Why leave me alone in this place, when I still loved You so much.
Abandon me, and tell me You don't want hurt me even more.
You already hurt me to the max le, if this is my life. I will accept it.
How many days of crying, then will stopped my pain?
I can only cry for missing your love for me,
And wondering where it had gone.
I can only cry for wondering where your love can be,
And to make it disappear, what I had done?
I will never stop loving You.
And I won't,
Because I still Love You alot.
That I even forgot how to forget You.
.Thursday, January 14, 2010 ' 12:00 PM
Haish, are You doing fine in your camp? Remember to eat?
Did You get trouble for yourself? I don't know why am I still concerning about You.
Although we are no longer together, but I cannot control myself to care about You.
But You don't worry, I won't message or call You de (; Never will I disturb your life.
Used to be so tiongxim. But now, just that we haven met up for 4 days, tell me feeling fade?
Sunday we are still alright, I just wonder why guys awhile can treat their girl very good.
Yet awhile changed, treated her cold and all that. Haish.
1 year and 3 months plus, You can choose to let go le. I don't see what can't I.
Just takecare of yourself ba, at least we are remained as friends.
Go find other girls who can give You happiness, because I never give You happiness at all.
Thanks for everything, I'm throwing everything away that You have gave me.
All those memories, I don't feel like seeing it again le. Always make me think of You.
You said when You become a chef, I'll be the first one to try your cooking skill.
Now, I bet not even a little chance, allow your next girlfriend to try it ba. All the best boy!
Do You remember the time You and I joke with each other?
And we really laughed a lot.
Do You remember I bang on the MacDonald's window?
And You laughed as though You are to going to lie on the floor.
Do You remember how I read the ' ichibang '?
And You laughed as if You are going to fall anytime.
There are alots alots more, I bet when Your feeling fade.
You won't think so much about those fun we had, I should let it go too.
But your smile, laughter is everything inside my brain kept on repeating.
When I walked into Cinema, You used to hold me. But today, hand was missing.
When I took bus, You used to sit beside me playing with me.
But now, I'm sitting all alone. My tears just kept dropping down.
XXL chicken, You used to buy for me whenever we walked pass. Now?
I don't even look at it, and just walked pass it. You break my fucking heart.
Fuck up of myself, dumb. A real fucking stupid dumb.
lt hurts when You don't notice me, It hurts when You don't listen to me.
It hurts when You don't care about me. It hurts when You act too busy to me.
It hurts when I think about what I can't have. It hurts when I imagine bliss but have to wait for it.
It hurts when You don't know why I'm hurting. It hurts when You don't know that I'm hurting.
There is so much pain inside me, I need to release it.
Don't fix me anymore, because I no longer need it (; Thanks.
Crying everday,
Things won't changed.
Waiting for You? I guess I'm not.
.Wednesday, January 13, 2010 ' 12:16 PM
Today I'll be writing about my love story since Secondary 1.
I have started knowing a guy since July, his name was Xu Jianwei.
I knew him, thanks to Hanhui. I was playing Hanhui's maple account.
And got to know Jianwei from Hanhui's buddy list, that is how we get together.
Next day, those sweet emails from him. Next day in school, we was like hi bye friends.
And slowly, everday in msn chatting. And one day, he passed a watch to me.
And that is the first present I got it from him, I still have it now. I'll kept it throughout my life.
Remeber when we really stead, our 1 month we looked silly lah.
He pulled me to a school corner and secretly hold my hand, and was like maybe shy ba.
Slowly, I brought him to my house to know my parents. Accompany me to fetch my little sister
Almost everyday from school, and he will still also secretly holding my hand behind.
We were very very very sweet at first, and I forget about what incident we broke off.
And of course, he kept asking me back and of course I still love him.
Broke off with him, I guess I'm just too angry of the things he did.
Patched, and when I'm Secondary 2. I went to work in expo during November.
I got to know a guy from other place, sms-ed with this guys almost everyday.
And this is how, I ditched Jianwei away. That fucking stupid me chosen that way.
From then onwards, he kept on wanting me back and whatsoever.
I really chosen a very wrong path. After month, broke off with that guy.
And wanting to go back to Jianwei's side. But too bad, I was just too unlucky.
The moment I wanted to ask him for patch on that day, he stead with another girl.
I can still definitely remember the date, it's on 28 December 2007.
I cried for months? Half year, I guess so. I walked with another guy again.
And finally don't know why, I'm back to Jianwei's side.
And we contiune until now, but he had totally changed.
When we meet out, he will treat me like princess. What I want, he will never fail to get it for me.
But when we both are at home, not even a call, not even a sms.
And now his schooling yet I'm not, he longer find me. No longer, not even a sms.
I have been wanting to cry out everyday, but I told myself.
No matter I cry a not, the facts won't change. And he won't change back.
Between the time we separated he kept on sms-ing and contacting girls.
The moment we have patch in the 26 September 2008.
Contacting girls like nobody business, and made me really cried as if I've lost my family.
This guys over here, made me love him and made me disappointed alots.
But a things won't change it's my love, I still love him like before.
My feeling never fade, but I believe he did.
While writing this past story of mine, I'm really crying.
Dearest You are having camp tomorrow, goodluck. And I knew we won't contact anymore.
But still, takecare of yourself is all I can say. ;D All the best.
Moral of the story.
Don't let go of a guy which You cherish a lots.
In the end, You will be the one suffering (;
I'm the one showing example over here.
.Monday, January 11, 2010 ' 3:12 PM
Had been going out almost everyday, trying to look for jobs.
But still unable to find any. Haish, life's really boring lah.
Morning, watched 海派甜心 ep 11. Now waiting for the ep 12 on next monday.
It's still super long lah D; Going else where to find jobs from tomorrow onwards.
Cannot stay at home and be a rotten apple ;x Meeting Pearlyn later.
My last time seeing her was, the first day she went school ba? Last monday.
Until now (; Think should have a lot of things to chat with her later on.
Dearest is having his camp on the Thursday and Friday.
I think I am able to meet him only on this coming Saturday ba.
Hope his doing fine now, Dearest. I really missed You super much.
How I really wish You will appear infront of me.
Dearest, I think I prefer secondary life. At least I'm able to see You everyday in school.
Compared to now, maybe 1 week meet 2 to 3 times only? Sigh.
No matter how many days we meet per week, if our heart is still with each other.
I believe nothing would change (; Precious dearest, hope to see You soon.
Takecare of yourself, I love you. Muacks.
Boyfriend : Don't think too much about relationship, from the start when You step into it.
You should know there will be a lot of suffering, hurts that You will get.
Carry on with your life (; Lead a good life. Don't be too hard already.
Feel like contacting go ahead, don't be too hard.
You might be the one suffering and regretting? Just like what I do in the past.
No matter what happen, remember there's me beside You supporting You ;D
Meet up soon, withloves
Bestie : Don't be stress out, sound out to me at least You might feel better.
I'm willing to be your listeners, sound out everything, cry out.
It will definitely makes You feel better (; Everything can be solve.
Just don't give up alright! I promise to be with You 24 hours, it's not only saying.
It's a promise ;D See You tomorrow, withloves.
Don't ever regret if You let go of some important things.
Slapping and killing yourself, it's still useless.
Because the facts won't changed.
.Thursday, January 7, 2010 ' 6:56 AM
Hello readers, I am back after missing in action for few days.
Never manage to post my blog, because life was everyday the same.
Eat, drink, sleep, shit. And this just continue throughout this 4 days.
Rot & bored lah. People schooling, I am sleeping. People studying, I am eating ;x
People eating, I shitting. People dismiss from school, I am shopping.
See life's was just so different from other people lah. Alamarhhs * Faint *.
I should get myself a job soon, shouldn't doing nothing over here.
Probably next week I will start finding jobs to kill my boredom and earn some money (;
Maybe after few month, will be back to take some course for studying and so.
Nevermind, as days goes by. I will just see how it goes ba.
Walk one path, count one path. Lol, broken english. ( 走一步, 算一步 )
This few days manage to spent days with friends, and of course my dearest (;
Slack, talked and played like how we used to. Our childish acts ;D
Till now, I cannot imagine life without them. It's like we all had been together for 3 to 4 years.
Hard to be apart of course. Hope, we will still be united like how we are now.
No matter whether for some people who are working or studying will still have time for each other
Regretted for not studying well, but I am still not interested even though I had regretted.
Enough of my cock stories, I am going to offline soon (; Off to watch television programme!
Goodluck to all of my friends who are studying, goodluck and don't give up half way.
Goodluck to all of my friends who are working, Jiayou! Earn more money and maybe get a
Better course to carry on your future or what, just remember takecare everyone ((;
So your that bitch, that told that bitch, that I'm a bitch.
Well guess what bitch, it takes a bitch to know a bitch ;D
Wanna claim that people is a bitch?
Wake up and slap yourself to know whether
Is You yourself a bitch first, dude!
.Monday, January 4, 2010 ' 5:15 AM
I really cried a lot today, watched 海派甜心 it really touches my heart.
And in the night watched 8pm show at channel 8.
It's a story saying about a young boy having a illness and stopped walking at 8 years old.
From that day onwards, his mother kept on accompany him no matter where is he.
24 hour, keep taking care of him. Because the mother afraid that she might lose him one day. Doctor diagnosed that he can only live up to 15 years old, but now his already 19.
Cried while watching those show, actually this show teaches us a lot of things.
Cherish and treasure everyone around You, because You might not know when will they leave. After watching that show, I kept telling myself. Stop giving my friends and dearest burden.
Stop show attitude and temper, they seems like leaving me soon anytime as in contact.
I just want to cherish those time and treasure those love we have now.
While writting this blog, I am still crying really really lots. It's just the first day today.
And it seems like they have start schooling like for months. Haish.
Every moment passes, and they will never come back again.
But if You don't forget them, they will always leave.
Long life is not always granted, neither is love. Only pain.
So just pray that the moment You cherish, will always feel the same.
Cherish every moment that You have left, because You will never know when this life will end,
Cherish everything that You do and lastly cherish everyone that cherishes You.
A smile, a love, a laugh, a hug, a sigh, a cry. So might as well people live with a smile?
If You cherish everything, You will then know how wonderful it could be (;
Treasure him as well as treasuring a gold, his so important to me.
Without him, as well as without me.
He walked away with his back facing me, I just feel that my life was missing something.
I want him to stay by my side everytime, everyday, every hour, every min and every sec.
I want to love him with my whole heart, treasure and cherish him with my whole soul.
I won't want to let him down again, dearest. I love You.
Im moving away soon.
To a place where I think,
It's hard to meet up with precious people.
.Sunday, January 3, 2010 ' 8:45 AM
Everyone is starting school tomorrow, dated with dearest, boyfriend and bestie.
Dearest and boyfriend I will sure miss them a lots, don't know when will I meet them again.
As for bestie, we can meet anytime when You are free ;D
Couldn't bear to let go of dearest's hand, kept holding onto it and kept hugging him too D;
Life was really short, cherish and treasure whatever You all have now.
To Dearest : You must really takecare of yourself, sleep early. Wake up on time,
Don't be late for school. Don't find trouble, drink more water. Don't fall sick.
If not baby over here will be really very worry about You.
Alright? Okay, Study hard. Cook something for me to eat when You have learn.
Love my lovely sandwich, muacks!
To Boyfriend : You dumb pig! Better work hard for studies okay? I'm here 24/7 for You.
Feeling sad, trouble, angry? Find me. I will definitely be there for You.
Because I had promised You (; Last long with Chua Zhenyuan.
Meet up soon okay? Takecare of yourself. Withloves.
To Darling : We might not go out often like last time, sms like last time, chat in phone
Like last time. But I believe We will never forget each other.
Once a darling, always a darling. Jiayou studying school (;
Don't piss off because of some small matter, let it go okay?
Hope we are able to meet up soon, with much much loves.
To Dar : Ala, I think I can meet You almost everyday lah. But still, You better buck up
For your studies. Stop slacking around le, pass your O level with flying colours.
Takecare uh, no matter what (; Be happy! Withloves.
If one day, I have separated with one of your. Please remember we are once close.
And, I really really cherish and love Your sibei sibei lots (;
See your soon, new life! Carry on.
Hope everything are fine,
Because I need Your very much.
Without all of your, I'm actually nothing.
.Friday, January 1, 2010 ' 2:35 AM
Bus down to Clementi ITE. Accompany boyfriend to pay her school fees, bought her
School uniform and everything, cabbed down to Jurong East.
Was supposed to return our work pass and get reciept from them. End up,
The office was closed. Wasted our trip down, what the hell.
Trained back to Jurong Point, meet Jianwei over there. Shopped awhile and went home.
Prepared, and went to boyfriend's house. Zhenyuan was there too. All wasted so much time leh.
Went out at 7pm plus, ended up 4 of us quarrel? All separated.
End up, called Leelim' Dar to come out and join us. Zhenyuan went off le.
Four of us went central to have our dinner, and cab down to Jurong Bird Park hill.
Watched the firewords, it's not so nice lah. It's so far away from our place.
Finished, walked all the way down from the hill and went prawn finishing (;
Spent 2 to 3 hours over there, was really very bored okay.
I nearly fall sleep, Dar's brother came to fetch us. Home sweet home @ 3am plus.
My prawn is still alive (; I am going to rear this prawn until it die.
But, I don't know what to feed on leh? Seems like dying anytime ;x No food for it.
While for today, whole day stayed at home leh.
Eat, eat and eat. Shag lah D; Haish.
Everyone is so busy busy busy, while I am so free free and free.
I am off to watch my 7pm show, got to go now.
Bye readers, tomorrow should be going out with Jianwei ba.
Okay, takecare all !
2 more days,
Counting down.
I don't want to leave with tears.
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