♥ It doesn't last forever.

.Thursday, April 30, 2009 ' 7:14 AM

Happy Birthday To Hanhui ((;

went school with pearlyn as usual, passed her the birthday
present which jastine, peiwen & i bought for her ((;
Mr Chong Kang Kang didn't come again, slept for long period.
disturbed by that ng xuanwei again, fine fine fine!
after school, celebrated hanhui's birthday in the canteen.
cynthia bought a cake and designed it herself ((; pretty can.
slacked in coffee shop, war started between baby & i.
forget it, dun wanna elaborate it further either.
went basketball talked and shared alot of our personal stuff.
went central with baby afterwards, he's hungry.
bought him sandwich to eat, see how good am i ((;
reached home at about 9 plus. Kena nag from mummy D;

i wanted to cherish all of my friend, do they have the time?
thanks to all of my friends who standby me when i needed your.
lent me a crying shoulder when i needed alot.
thanks for the advice, words & actions to cool me down.
especially for *********, Yous are so important in the past for me,
i treated Yous like my everything and a grown up sister.
but things had changed, i guess Yous will never be Yous anymore.
or perhaps i changed too, and i won't treat Yous like how i've treated
Yous in the past, example; joke with Yous around, chatted with Yous
like a never ending stuff. Disturbed each other and laughing loudly.
i don't know what more to do to save our friendship,
i shall let it pass one day and count one day bahs.
i don't asked for much between our friendship anymore,
since the day 04012009 things had completely changed.

♥♥♥

dumbass baby carried me and says i'm a trophy.
he carried me up high and says it with pride that.
i'm his baby, he loved me alots ((; haha.
i shy shy lerhs D; i love baby lots lots, muacks x3.

when can i put those hates behind me?
in my heart am i only finding for revenge?
no one understand how i feels towards friends.

.Wednesday, April 29, 2009 ' 4:53 AM

Happy Birthday To Pearlyn Ching Pei Ling ((;

School stuff i don't feel like elaborating at all.
after school, went jurong with zhenyuan, peiwen, leelim, pearlyn & baby.
jastine joined us afterwards.
didn't really had much fun today, freaking pekche instead.
bought a shirt that baby already had, so we can wear as couple shirt lerhs ((;
and a suspended too. Cost me a bomb, seriously i'm broke!
mood swinging now, dun feel like updating lerhs.
update tomorrow bahs, buais readers!

stupid baby.
kept lying to me, when will Yous stop lying?
how Yous expect me to trust Yous then?
haish, forget it.
mood wasn't good, i better keep it to myself.

a person like Yous,
do Yous think Yous earned my respect?
it's not the first tym, but it's the third tym.
when will Yous change? I believe Yous will never.

.Tuesday, April 28, 2009 ' 4:50 AM

Happy 4th Month To Jubellina' Mummy & Wenfa' Daddy.

the moment i woke up this morning,
both of my eyes was swallow and bloody red.
i still decided to go school because today's weather was cold ((;
heavy rain in the morning, super duper shiok larhhs.
today's lesson was super attentive and understanding as for maths,
i still have abit of confusing larhhs, overall today's lesson was alright.
after school meet all fellow friends in the canteen, ate our lunch and
went leelim' dar house to slack again, Jastine and Pearlyn left afterwards.
the rest of us bus down to jurong point, all of us feel super bored lorhhs.
before we are going home, snatch food with baby to eat.
& there is when our fun and interesting jokes came ((;
joke & fool around @ the basement, super funny lorhhs.
in the end mood was changing again D;
baby accompany me take 242 home & i accompany him to wait 99
opposite my bus stop ((; chatted with him and realised that actually
around 7 or 8 bus had passed by, haha. Told baby about my past.
shared number of stuff with him too, the number 9th or 10th bus came.
he went off, & i walked home and have dinner with mummy ((;
and now i'm blogging over here, feel like changing my blogsong.
what song should i changed? anyone got new song or nice song to introduce?

told baby alot of my things in the past ((;
it had been a long time that we last sitted down and chatted
for so long nehs, will we last? i kept asking myself with this question?
nevermind, we just follow our fate and see how god had arranged for us.

i don't wish to close my eyes,
i'm afraid i might not see Yous again,
because i miss Yous babe.

.Monday, April 27, 2009 ' 4:15 AM

i didn't late for school quite a long time but unfortunately,
today the history repeated again ;x
fine fine nevermind, the stupid jam @ central, hell man.
didn't get any punishment only needed to write 200 lines and
i didn't even intend to write it at all, after school Mr Turban called my name
for late comers for today and wanted me to write lines infront of him.
bo bian need stay until 4pm to pass up the lines, i was like what the freak can!
slacked in school library and went off to poineer mall as leelim' dar
wanted to have her mac for dinner, walked rounds in giant.
slacked at a block for awhile, & left with pearlyn lerhhs.
today was rather boring day larhhs, because baby was having basketball D;

freaking baby.
asshole baby.
dumbass baby.
cutie baby.
i love baby ((;

i need to buck up for studies,
i don't want to have a tedious life in this school.
because it suckx.

.Sunday, April 26, 2009 ' 5:43 AM

Happy 7th Month Anniversary With XuJianwei Baby ((;

baby, we had been through so much ups and downs,
hope our quarrel and nonsense will stop today.
Yous & i are so tired of quarreling isn't it?
Yous kept enduring my attitude and tons of nonsense from me,
are Yous tired? I bet Yous are, after this year will we still be contacting?
i think both of us won't know unless the days really came yarhs?
we'll trust each other as much as we could.
and never let other things affect our relationship.
no matter how much we quarreled? Baby, i still love Yous tons!
takecare of yourself my dumbass baby, muacks.

Below are our yesterdae pool's picture ((;

I'm addicted to pool already ;D
fun fun & fun.
it's a challenges for us.
after exam i'll visit pool often for sure!
my mid-year confirm will failed.
i'll still try my very best to get a better result.

.Saturday, April 25, 2009 ' 7:42 AM

woke up early in the morning ((;
text with leelim' dar & prepared.
i was a busy person can, so many people kept calling me.
i'm so super duper busy larhhs.
meet leelim' dar under my void deck and waited baby to come.
and walked to peiwen'boyf void deck and meet jeff' papa, evon' mama,
chengfoo, zhenhui & zhenyuan. Bus down to arena to play pool !
cool cool i loved pool tons starting to become my weekly hobby lerhs.
baby today joked loads and made us laugh like mad.
that adorable baby of mine ((; went jurong point & bought pearlyn's present.
shopped around with zhenyuan, peiwen'boyf, leelim' dar & baby.
baby created jokes again, oh my god. Today baby was so weird uhh.
behaving so childish and funny & weird.
but baby i loved that ((; hahas. Home @ 10.

i loved your joke.
i loved your adorable faces.
i loved your adorable actions.
i loved those funny faces Yous made.
i loved the way when Yous comfort me when i'm angry with Yous.
i hate when Yous pangseh me and accompany your computer.
i hate when i talked to Yous, Yous didn't react to me.
i hate when i text Yous, Yous didn't replied me.
i hate when Yous do those irritating stunts on me.
i hate when Yous made me angry Yous can still laughing away.
baby boyfriend, iloveYous.

i hate actors,
their actions suckx.

.Friday, April 24, 2009 ' 6:39 AM

peiwen'boyf and i misses this days alots D;
met baby inside bus, meet peiwen'boyf and leelim'dar outside school.
walked in, & we were just late for that 7.25am bell.
didn't attend the cca gathering with peiwen'boyf, infact we ran away.
hide in the toilet, & walked to a school corner to hide ((;
walked back to class when it's tym, had social studies test.
just pass, not bad uh ;D went hall for assembly.
and slacked outside school for awhile & central to have lunch,
went to rent the movie ' The Days ' to watched.
the story says about gang and stuff, it's so interesting larhs.
played mahjong & blackjack, fool around w leelim'dar ((;
went peiwen'boyf house to slack after that, had dinner over there.
watched movie in computers and so, leelim'dar came at about 7plus.
i reached home @ 9pm, watching channel U movie soon!
see yarhs, bored. Tomorrow i've no where to go, freaking bored!

baby.
i ~~love~~ Hate Yous.
stupid dumbass.
Yous made me dulan D;

I'm searching for my loves!

.Thursday, April 23, 2009 ' 5:01 AM

went to school alone ley )); pearlyn was sick again.
bus down to school, meet leelim outside school while
waiting for peiwen and zhenyuan to come too.
walked in to school do nothing in class.
skip everything and geography lesson i was sleeping and that
stupid silly xuanwei kept disturbing me by using pen to draw nonsense
on my hand ley, & that stupid hwa keong throw tissue paper on me.
laughs, chinese lesson? didnt thrown out by teacher although i didnt
bring my workbook with me uh? ((; cool cool, haha.
after school, went out of school with jastine, leelim, peiwen, zhenyuan & baby.
and walked towards to central kfc, the sun was melting us down lorhs.
the weather is so freaking freaking hot can, oh my god!
spent our time in kfc till 7pm + and went home lerhs.
i kept disturbing all of them ley, i wanted to eat this and that while they are
playing with their blackjacks, they wanted me to shutup and buy things fer me
to eat, but when i going to finish my food they asked me to eat slowly.
because after i finish my food i'll sure disturb them and ask for more ;x
they cannot tahan me uhs D; thanks baby & leelim'dar for the food ! Hahas.

dumbass baby.
i hate Yous uh, got pokercards im nothing to Yous lerhs horhs.
but still thanks for pampering me with food ;x
im growing fat for sure ((;

i need my last romance.

.Wednesday, April 22, 2009 ' 6:52 AM

Happy Birthday To Beloved Mummy ((;

Toscano Handbag.

Fish Head Steamboat.

Kang Kong.

Cereal Prawns Hot-Plate Tofu.

woke up super duper late uh, people went school already.
i was still lying on my bed sleeping soundly huh?
slept until 8.40am i woke up, prepared everything.
& went to school, saw Mr Ethan Tan.
he asked me what happen so late then come school,
told him that i was sick but i wanted to go for his
remedial lesson for today, and he suddenly say
sorry to me. I was like ohs nevermind,
he haven explained finish, it's because he had
postpone the date to next wednesday?
my face jitao changed very fast ((;
he asked me wanted to go home & rest and see
a doctor? He can see that my eyes was weird.
i told him no need, since i had already reached school.
they are having PE when i reached school, saw chingyen
so chatted with her & saw jubellina and people.
chit chat chit chat until PE was over larhhs ((;
physic? wasn't paying attention at all, in Tan Eng Kiat eyes
people sitting back of the class wasn't human to her.
haven even recess tym evon, jubellina & i secretly went out
from the back door and ran away for our recess (; she dun even know ley.
so guys should know what i mean by not humans huh?

recess with evon, jubellina, pearlyn, peiwen, shanting, leelim & zhenyuan.
half eating half searching for baby, & i realised baby didn't
come for his recess, i was wondering is he sleeping
in class again and missed his recess? Called him
no answer, i guess it's correct huh.
dun bother, went back to chinese lesson.
i brought textbooks with me, but today she wanted
workbook and i was kena thrown out of class again.
chit chat outside with evon, jubellina haha.
where's meiling? She's even better than us.
sitting downstair with chairs and table outside
the general office for suspension ;x
while we sitting outside the classroom floor uhh.
ITP, viewing blogs & wanting to sleep but
msg woke me up again & again, end up give up my
sleeping time lorhs ((; fool around.

after school, meet same ppl in canteen.
went to leelim's house she wanted to bathe.
zhenyuan, peiwen, leelim, baby & i went to IMM,
they accompany me go as i wanted to buy my mum's
birthday cake, around 5plus we went off.
as usual larhs, baby & my face was so freaking black.
everything was okay again, i really don't understand!
went home, bathe & chit chat awhile with zhenyuan, peiwen
& baby under my void deck then i went off with family to 400plus
to have our dinner there, daddy's treat ;D $53.50.
took some photo of what we ate, love family can!
weather was getting hot, guys drink more plain water alright ;D
it's time for me to end my post larhhs, longlong post today ohs!

i don't understand how are we going to continue?
quarrel and quarrel, Yous dun wanna quarrel that's why
Yous kept giving in to me.
I can tell Yous that, that isn't a need for Yous to do so.
Yous cannot tahan me, dun explain and kept giving in to me.
i won't appreciate and i guess this is what your heart thinking uh.
my attitude suckx towards Yous, even Jubellina' Mama says so.
ask yourself while touching your heart, why do Yous think i'll
treat Yous in this way, am i in the wrong or Yous.
i know it's both of us, so what? Whose hurting even more now?
start all over again? Can Yous confirm history won't come back again?
will Yous stop hurting me from today onwards?
will Yous stop contacting people which i don't liked?
will Yous stop those nonsense that i hatred?
will Yous stop the actions i don't liked and piss of?
ask yourself whether Yous can do it anot, i'm not demanding at all.
this is just little some request i wanted from Yous,
if it's hard, forget it Yous can no need to fufill it for me derhhs.
it's your life, carry on with the life that Yous want.

You're some kind of posionous drug in me.

.Tuesday, April 21, 2009 ' 6:02 AM

wasn't in a good mood just now,
quarreled & quarreled, & simply i had enough.
what i wanted to burst out i had,
what baby wanted to burst out, he did too.
so whether as long as our relationship and stable or continue?
it depends of both of us bahs, i dun wish to elaborate so much.
my heart was hurting, feeling sick & terrible.
i was like a dead person now, your words really hurted me tons.
i'll just end off here, tired !

i dunno what more to say.
what i dun liked i had told Yous just now,
and really hope Yous do change alright.

step into a relationship,
we had to endure and give in to each other.
if both are stubborn,
there goes the relationship.

.Monday, April 20, 2009 ' 5:30 AM

I'm Definitely Crazy About Louis Vuitton Stuffs!

during english reading period, i was enjoying di-siaoing my friends ;D
chit chatting all the way until end of the reading period.
went class, test only done 3 qns and blank all,
chemistry teacher didn't come, and so the paper she asked us to complete?
i just do the first page & i just hand up without doing finish.
without writting my name too D; haha.
maths period, freaking bored can. Don't understand at all!
after school, meet jastine'darling, peiwen'boyf, leelim'dar & baby.
we went to leelim'dar house, zhenyuan came too & we watched movie.
off we went to jurong point, shopped around. Ate at long john silver.
walked in to the harris to see some storybooks.
NTUC to buy my egg tofu ((; simply freaking nice can, i loved it!
off to central that temple basketball court, play black jack and
we paid by maple mesos ((; home after that.
sneezing all the way, coughing, sore throat & eyes was freaking itchy!
medicine medicine medicine D;

i wasn't a good girlfriend.
i wasn't a good friend.
attitude & temper fucking suckx to baby.
what had happened to me?
i don't know, my mood just swing 360 degree fast.
a little stuff can make me fucking hot like nobody's business.
i did changed but why did i changed back?
and my temper mostly just goes to only baby.
little stuff Yous do can made me so unhappy for the whole day.
Yous are the one should change or i'm the one?
i guess both parties had to changed.
step into this relationship, both of us should endure with each other.
and i know Yous cannot tahan me anymore.
Yous did mention it to me about it, & i'm so sorry.

i cannot stop giving Yous temper when Yous do things made me unhappy.
or izzit when Yous start to leave me then i'll know how to cherish Yous?
i don't wanna give Yous another chances to leave me again.
Yous had leave me once, i believed there will be twice.
if the second time Yous gonna leave me again,
Christine here will swear that i'll never wait for Yous anymore.
i'll never ask for your forgiveness anymore.
i don't need Yous anymore.
i would give Yous the chance to looked for the girls who really can
cared for Yous, love Yous with all her heart.
don't give Yous attitude & temper liked i do.
baby, how many months left for us? how many solid days left for us?
i'll take note and count ='(

♥♥♥

where's my hot milo D;
bad baby larhhs.
laopo dun love Yous lerhs ((;
hahas, joking. Laopo loved hubby forever kay?
muacks!

if love is the answer,
can Yous rephrase the question?

.Sunday, April 19, 2009 ' 7:08 AM

went orchard in the afternoon with parents & small sister.
went in to the Louis Vuitton shop, saw those bag.
oh my god, my hand feel so damn itchy. I went to touch here and there.
actually buying for my mum's birthday, too bad it's too expensive.
went to OG and i saw the Toscano side bag it cost about $199 .
and i bought it for my mum's birthday ((;
i saw a smaller handbag it also cost $199, i'm aiming for it now!
shop around and view those branded bag, super duper nice lorhhs.
my heart was feeling so itchy, one of this days im gonna aim fer my
Louis Vuitton wallet ;D
i'm so tired, i shall end off here larhhs.

dumbass baby.
in the afternoon dun even know where Yous went to.
running here and there uhs (;
just hope that Yous are safe and fine kay?
goodnight, sweetdream.
i won't control Yous anymore, it's your decision to do anything.

don't give up when Yous are just moments away from victory.
your blessing may be just on the other side of your problem.

.Saturday, April 18, 2009 ' 8:04 AM

woke up and prepared, text with leelim and pearlyn.
went out at about 12.10pm, meet pearlyn under my void deck.
walked to peiwen's house while walking we're chatting happily.
peiwen wore the same clothes & shorts with me, even our slippers!
watched campus superstar repeated @ channel U while waiting for
hanhui & zhenyuan to arrived. 1 pm then they reach aiyos.
went to wait for bus & thunderstorm something happened.
dun wanna elaborated it further, baby & i was having rainfalls.
reached arena, played played played ((; expensive can!
cynthia came after that, chatted with her.
slacked slacked and bid goodbye to them.
we went off lerhhs ((; pearlyn & leelim went off at about 5plus pm.
tomorrow still need to work nehs D; i'll end off here quite sleepy lerhs.

i've thousands of questions to ask Yous.
yet Yous told me it's over dun take it out and ask.
i just wish to clear the doubts in my mind, Yous don't allowed.
so i couldn't say anything more.
sorry that i hurted Yous tons tons tons.
Yous told me Yous cannot tahan me anymore,
in fact if Yous cannot tolerate my attitude anymore.
Yous can leave me by all means, i dun wish to force Yous to stay by my side.
i don't wished to see Yous cried anymore,
i can tell Yous no matter how i tried, my temper won't changed derhhs.
there are lots of girls outside waiting for Yous, i might not be the one that
Yous wished for and can last long with Yous.
in order for me not to hurted Yous further, adviced to Yous.
leave me as soon as possible, i rather Yous hurt me by leaving me.

when it looks like that's no way forward for Yous.
don't stop short of the prize.
the greater the conflict,
the greater the conquest.
the stronger the batte,
the sweeter the victory.

.Friday, April 17, 2009 ' 1:47 AM

finally meet Pearlyn for school today ((;
meet precious baby inside bus, lent baby's hp to play a prank on
小 boyfriend-in-law, went in school together.
chit chat as usual but today is rather special.
we used to chase by teacher during mass PE.
but today, we just walked all the way larhhs, it was so shiok.
crapping on our way and sang song too, 小 boyfriend and me
sang a song to Jastine' darling and friends. It goes like this:
* Yous amercian fool,
你没有穿底库
你屁裤 ourhs lulu ;D *
what a nice song huh, we kept singing all the way.
making them laugh too ((; cute song larhhs.
friends around me was being loved by me!

was rather boring in class today larhhs,
social studies teacher didn't come, physic teacher too.
maths lesson having test, i saw the question i immediately going to faint.
do only the first page, and i stunt tio for the rest of the page.
i just slept through out )); couldn't think of the better method already.
reflection period, chatted and not doing our reflection at all.
i wonder what's wrong with mr chong, it had been 3rd days that
he absent for school already, we missed him tons as well as his jokes ((;
after school slacked in canteen and joke huh.
all kena scolded by hanhui becus of baby, dun wanna mention what happen.
it was just rather funny larhhs, went home straight and accompany
mummy to gek poh, reached home at about 4.15pm.
about to fetch my sister from her friends house with my mummy again ((;
i was feeling rather tiring uhs, come home later bathe and i'll immediately sleep.
i'll end of here!

Yous this asshole,
say wanted to cook for me to eat uhs.
i'll lent Yous my house kitchen and wait for my food
to be serve by Yous.
Yous say Yous understand me after being together for 3 years plus.
but i can tell Yous, it's all not true.
we had separated for half years, Yous and i had changed.
i don't understand Yous therefore i don't expect Yous to understand me too.
lastly, disappointed & speechless.

we can be joyful and happy at the same tme.
but more importantly,
when life's circumstances deal us a hard blow we can
be joyful through unhappy.

.Thursday, April 16, 2009 ' 4:55 AM

woke up much earlier than normal days.
meet 小 boyfriend under my void deck ((;
slacked at another block stairs and she told me alot of things.
was supposed to wait fer baby's bus to reach my bus stop.
guess what, the bus didnt stopped.
it's too late to wait for another bus, so we decided to walked to school.
wasn't late for school, while walking we are still crapping happily.
i loved the times with 小 boyfriend.
reached school outside, baby was waiting for me while slack with friends.
crap outside school and walked in ((; cool, my class getting lesser people.
only 14 people attended school, i was like what the crap.
when teacher teaches our class, all got shiok.
lesson as usual, skip skip. Funny, i was so attentive during geography lesson.
doing what mr lau asked us to do, had recess with evon only );
how pathetic are we? Last lesson was our mother tongue.
i didn't bring chinese textbook and i straight walked out of class.
followed by evon' mama, jastine' darling and more people coming out.
class left 3 person inside, miss teow got so fed up.
and she asked us to followed her down to the general office.
and she started kaobei kaobu ((; cool, had a enjoyable time downstairs.
boon chong was making fool of himself, as well as samuel, he's cool can!
miss teow made us stay back ley, what the craps!

immediately walked out of school when she relased me, slack outside
school for awhile and went off to central as baby wanted to buy cake ingredients.
bought nothing because 小 boyfriend's house have everything.
bus to 小 boyfriend's house, when baby wanted to prepare for his things.
we found out that the flour was already expired, oh my god.
so baby decided not to bake anymore, maybe postpone to another day bahs.
watched tv and so, went home at about 7plus pm.
had dinner, mum confronted me asking me whether im still smoking anot.
i insisted that i didnt, i dunno why suddenly she would asked me stuff like this.
something was not right now, bored bored.
didn't went to orchard today, jastine' darling was busy nehs.
perhaps postpone till monday bahs. I shall end off here larhhs.
ohh yarhs wait, that stupid 小 boyfriend-in-law stop disturbing me ;x

We kept quarreling this few days,
and seriously i'm so bored of it kay.
Yous gave me attitude when i wanted to woke Yous up.
if one day when Yous are sleeping and i was in a danger,
i guess even i had died Yous won't even know that.
am i wrong to do all this? what is a relationship for?
to vent out all of our angers? if what this is, i rather don't want it.
if i didn't have Yous back last year @ 26 septemper 2008.
Yous might have stead with others who is even better,
she wouldn't quarrel with Yous but i'm always quarreling with Yous.
do Yous regret? Don't bother to answer my question.
perhaps right from the start, Yous had chosen the wrong person
and walked the wrong path with me.
I couldn't give Yous what Yous want, if Yous wanted to go.
go ahead, boy i promised that i won't hold Yous back.
i admitted i'm the one who don't know how to cherish and love Yous.

an hour's solitude enables
Yous to think more clearly and creatively,
it's a sure path to comfort.

.Wednesday, April 15, 2009 ' 5:09 AM

went school alone ley ='( That pearlyn was sick larhs.
reached school was suppose to meet leelim'dar
and thanks to her that i waited and waited and saw no one lol.
almost reaching 7.20am then she walked into school, ass her!
chit chat during english reading period again, mouth couldn't close ;x
2 free period of english, as miss nada was absent.
skip skip, slept through out physic lesson.
last 2 period was also our free period as mr chong was absent too ;D
was enjoying alot of jokes, laughs during school times.
i love school with only friends but not studies alright ((;
my studies simply suckx suckx suckx.

after school went leelim'dar block to slack.
3pm walked back to school and have tuition with miss wong.
after that played basketball in school until 7pm.
then accompany leelim'dar to central as she wanted to buy bubble tea.
baby & me left after that to take bus.
reached sweet home ((; had my dinner.
tomorrow dunno whether im able to go orchard road anot ));

indeed my attitude suckx,
and i dunno why suddenly i become this petty larhs.
perhaps everything had changed bahs.
it's not Yous who changed, but me alright.
sometime your actions really made me feel so irritated.
but i dun wanted to say much or scold vulgar towards Yous.
i wanted to endure it because i love Yous.

when was the last time Yous flew a kite,
took a long walk in the beach,
peddled a bike,
or just watched the sun set?

.Tuesday, April 14, 2009 ' 6:35 AM

went school, wasn't late ((;
laughing at pearlyn's hair, it was so fucking funny larhs ;x
reached school, chit chat while people are reading newspaper.
joking around like nobody's business.
schooling was really very sucks man, i hate school and i mean it.
first 2 period miss nada didn't come and so we had our free period.
evon, jubellina & i was sharing our boyfriend stuff and things as in
how we know each other & slowly stead and so.
after school fooled around in the canteen
and went out school with cynthia, hanhui, evon, jastine & baby.
hanhui went home, rest of us accompany evon to cut her hair,
damn kuku larhs, but when she tied it up it doesn't make any differents.
went home after that with baby, and to me he was like a renter in my house.
he do his stuff and i do mine, fucking dulan and i wun go on.

don't blame me attituding Yous.
Yous told me Yous would change and stop mapling.
Yous didnt do it, in fact Yous kept going on and on.
Yous liked maple so much? Go ahead.
if i let Yous make a choice between maple and me?
which one will Yous choose, go ahead and do those decision.
friends are busy for me, i thought Yous are there for me.
i was totally wrong, games to Yous are still as important.
and now i totally understand what Yous wants.
i'm prepared to give up everything which i'm holding tight now.
Yous don't cherish me, i don't see a need for me to hold on anymore.

to be joyful is a principal.
it doesn't change with emotions.
joys is the inner contentment despite all the cirumstance.

.Monday, April 13, 2009 ' 10:42 PM

woke up at 12.30pm it was so super duper late huh!
had my duck noodle which my daddy had bought ((;
today i'm not going out and i just feel like rotten-ing at home.
where are all my friends? Guess they're now enjoying their
badminton match now. Not even a single text or call from them D;
so disappointed, it's okay. I'll just hide everything inside my heart.
i've nothing to do now, after blogging i think i'll just finish my e-learning homework
and watch some movie in my computer bahs, and this is how i spent my day.

baby,
everytime Yous read the red post that i wrote for Yous,
Yous always didn't react anything.
do Yous get my meaning of what i want?
lesser call each day, i don't know why things all slowly turn out
this way. Yous have maple and Yous neglected me D;
baby baby baby. i don't want like that nehs!

what Yous are today was determined by the decision yesterdae,
if Yous want to change your future,
learn how to make a better decision today.

.Sunday, April 12, 2009 ' 9:51 PM

today woke up early and prepared.
daddy make me a bread and a cup of plain water, he left it on the table
and asked me remember to eat and drink before going for work.
he even left his ez-link on the table for me, is like everything he had prepared
for me, daddy i neglected Yous alots and thanks for your concern ;D
meet Jubellina and Wenfa, bus down to boon lay and change another bus
to our working place. Wenfa left after that.
Today we're rather tired larhs, lucky the tower today was
good. Not as dirty as normal days uhs ((; finished everything at 11am.
we slacked and chatted alot, laughing away too.
while waiting for Jubellina's father to drive us home, i fall asleep.
reached home immediately bathe, dunno whether going out with baby
afterwards anot. He wanted to re-make his ez-link card as he had lost it.

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went Jurong East with baby, he went to re-make his ez-link card.
went IMM to shop afterwards, accompany baby for his lunch @ mac.
shop around, he's hungry again? he bought old chang kee? i dunno spell.
and he's hungry again, sushi! then sweet, & kopitiam.
baby's appetite was so good uhs? Haha, we kept making each other laugh
like mad larhs, i really enjoyed alot when i'm out with baby.
he kept bullying me all the way lorhs D; sobs!
7plus we bus home, he accompany me one round((;
thanks beloved baby, muacks muacks x3.

baby,
i read all those text Yous had once send me.
those sweet text Yous will never send me now,
just now when i'm viewing i'm just smiling away
and telling myself in the past Yous will say this and that.
now Yous won't, example; * hubby sayang laopo ok?*
where are the sweet text now? Haish, i still love Yous.
no matter Yous had change a not.

anxiety paralyses Yous and take away everything good in your life.
don't let it take control,
otherwise Yous will end up immobilised.

.Saturday, April 11, 2009 ' 7:29 AM

Being woken up by my Leelim'dar.
bathe & prepared, meet baby and Pearlyn under my void deck.
walked to Peiwenboyf's void deck, meet Jeff and Evon.
while waiting for Leelim'dar and Peiwenboyf to come down.
Zhenyuan and Hanhui came ;D while waiting for 193 bus.
we joked around and laugh so happily, bus came we went up.
reached arena, accompany baby for his lunch at burger king.
and went up for our pool, Zhenhui came then Xuanwei then Chengfoo and
lastly Elaine came too ((; today i spent all my money nehs, what the fuck!
i kept di-siaoing people there, we went off at 5plus.
had our dinner, baby treated me nehs. Went off to Jurong Point with Peiwenboyf,
Zhenyuan and of course baby larhs ;D baby treated us sushi too.
shopped and fool around larhs! Today we really enjoyed alot among ourself.
daddy drove us back at around 9plus pm. Reached home at 10pm.

Baby,
thanks for treating me dinner and drinks.
Yous say Yous wanted to buy me a adidas watch ;x
i'll be waiting ley, must keep your promise uhs ;D
thanks baby, i love Yous super duper lots larhs!

it takes more than one colour to make a rainbow.
when Yous learn to appreciate the difference in people,
Yous will find it all contributes to the whole picture.