.Tuesday, February 28, 2012 ' 9:56 PM
What hurts the most,
was being too close.
had a small tiff with boyfriend, as usual he will text/call me first.
everything was back to normal after few hours.
well tomorrow will be my first day going school again, kinda scare.
lucky Leelim is attending this class with me or else i guess i'll be terribly dead there.
chatted with Terence in msn, ask him to help me look out for jobs.
and yes evening time he contacted me, telling me his friend looking for temp admin.
sent my resume to his friend already, hopefully this job will be a successful one.
then i won't headache about money issue, god bless me! I promise i'll work hard this time.
this few days don't even feel like stepping out of my house, there's 2 reason.
first one, i got no money to spend already! 2nd one, the sunny sun can melt me!
gonna start to work hard on everything, no more time to waste! old already.
hopefully my that boyfriend can just work hard for everything too! (:
i was the one who listened to your problems.
i was the one who actually cared about you.
i was the one who stuck around even when everyone told me to leave.
i was the one who loved you even you gave me reason not to.
i was the one who was there for you when you've no one to talk to.
i was the one who being used by you all the time, and never reject by saying no.
and i was the one who need to get my wound heal when you already start chasing other girls.
this is the lesson that i should learnt and never get history repeat.
i'm not angry, disappointed but just upset that this is the repay for everything i did.
think of something really hard you've to go through in the past.
well, you've survived it. You're alive, aren't you?
think about that the next time you're going through a really hard time
you'll pull through, you'll survive. You're strong!
your skin may tear, and your bones may break, but your soul?
your soul can never be irreversibly damaged.
have you ever felt like you were missing out on everyone and everything?
humanity around you lived and breathed in the moment,
while you were merely just a mass of matter, mainly existing like an invisible soul.
days tend to become a blurry, without anything that would separate one confusion
of chaotic thoughts from another. You consign into oblivion,
dismiss everything from your tired mind, and lose consciousness of precious memories.
you forget which day you lived in, while time simply passed by, and you didn't even noticed.
cause it's time to leave those feelings behind.
.Monday, February 27, 2012 ' 10:45 PM
Sometimes i wonder, why i even bother.
well, 2 more days which is Wednesday i'll be start schooling already.
wanted to upgrade myself but again feel boring while studying.
afraid that i might not be able to catch up, really need to work super hard this time.
not gonna waste any money again, finally learnt my lesson after influence by people.
drifted with some friends, by not meeting up for quite a long time & rejected some too.
now a days totally don't really have the mood to go out, probably no work and no money.
mood also turned off very easily, yes and lucky hunny is always there to cheer me up
with that irritating, sickening silly action. Really feel lucky to have this cute hunny with me.
no matter what attitude, temper i gave. Never gets angry with me, don't know his sohai or what.
but it shows that his really giving in to me a lot a lot, never failed to.
this silly boy never fail to send me anniversary text, even if his just beside me.
after all the broken hearts, i've finally figured out the problem.
i fall in love a little too late, i guard my heart like some kind of castle.
i don't let them in when they want, i wait until they're long gone,
then i realize they were the one i wanted all along.
being happy does not mean that everything is perfect.
it means you've decided to see life beyond the imperfections.
don't say you're happy because everything is alright,
but be happy because while everything's complicated.
you're still doing fine.
true friend will laugh at you when they find your flaws.
they will advice you when they know you are wrong.
they will feel happy for you when you are in the right way.
they will cry when you give away your life.
they understand you more than yourself.
they will be your everything when you think you are nothing.
if you have good friends, no matter how much life is sucking, they can make you laugh.
if you love someone,
you better be ready to prove it
because love is not a noun to be defined.
but a verb to be acted upon.
look in the mirror and tell yourself that you can be someone,
don't let anyone crush your dream, but most of all,
always remember that if you try hard and keep at it,
you will eventually reach your long life dream.
hold onto hope, and never for one second doubt yourself!
sometimes
you waste so much time fighting for what you had,
but you don't even realize its not worth having anymore.
.Sunday, February 19, 2012 ' 11:10 PM
That terrible moment.
well have been staying at home for total of 2 days.yes nobody believe, but i actually made it. Hurry up buy 4D guys, sure strike!
i didn't get to celebrate Valentine's day with my Hunny & instead i went out with other men.
why did i spell it as men, cause i went out with 2 different guys.
Hunny was really upset, and i'm really sorry. Picture above are the present given by Hunny.
i was touched to receive a super long text from him, i teared. But, i choose not to reply.
i don't know what's the reason too, probably his just too good & i don't know what to reply.
alright, on valentine's day lunch with Rayner at Bugis, arcade awhile and
went off to meet Stanwin. We went to Raffles City and Ion Orchard.
Had Ding Tai Feng for dinner, & Tcc for our supper/dessert.
Stanwin paid everything, he even brought me to Henderson Wave, taxi fare everything he paid.
and yeah he made my valentine's day a memorable one, haha enjoyed almost half day with him.
i really love Henderson Wave, the view really beautiful. And we manage to find a Mansion.
it's actually a cafe, restaurant, and very relaxed place for people. I rated 8/10!
i wanna bring my Hunny and friends to go someday to enjoy to scenery!
to forget the past: you must stop the communication, throw every piece of memory,
delete stupid pictures and every single text. You must forget the feeling.
it's not being bitter, it's just being fair enough to the next person who will try to be the one for you.
to couples: You're not gonna promise to each other that you will not disappoint one another,
because at some point you will. What is important is you don't go away,
you don't escape, you don't leave one another just because you were disappointed.
what could be nicer than seeing you loved one smiled at you so sweetly for no reason?
what could be more flattening than hearing that someone says you look good in
whatever you wear? what could be more heart warming that sharing with that someone
an umbrella under the cold rain? It is to hear that someone say, "i have fallen in love
with you more than i planned to and now i know for sure that there's no
way i will ever let you go."
to be honest, you're the only one
i've ever spent this much time and effort on.