♥ It doesn't last forever.

.Tuesday, March 31, 2009 ' 9:09 PM

Today will be the last post i'm posting.
after school thought could go home straight.
postpone until today again. Then postpone dunno until when again.
keep changing day uhs.
had quarrel this morning with two people.
is my fault kay? perhaps i liked to quarrel with yous guys.
i'm at all fault kay. Things are fine now.
but i'm sure will it happen again, i'll try to control bahs.
i hate my sister's 2 friends who came our house.
anyhow shoot my things to my mum.
wah, they done a good jobs.
i kept staring at them like nobody's business.

my sister too, baoto me ? now then i knew yous are part of it.

I'm totally disappointed towards my mum.
she don't even give me the trust, she wanted to believe them?
go ahead, i don't need your trust too.

Quiz asked to complete by elaine ;D
A. Angela.
B. Boon Chong.
C. Chingyen.
D. Dave.
E. Evon.
F. Febrin.
G. Guo Hao.
H. Hanhui.
I. Ice-Cream.
J. Jianwei.
K. Kaixin.
L. Leelim.
M. Meiling.
N. Nelson.
O. Ong Shi Yun.
P. Peiwen.
Q. Queen.
R. Regina.
S. Selina.
T. Tiancheng.
U. Uniform.
V. Violent.
W. Wenfa.
X. Xoxo.
Y. Yongwei.
Z. Zhihan.

Can R and S be together in BGR?
♥ Regina & Selina. ♥
- Nope, they're both girl.

How is L related to yous?
♥ Leelim ♥.
- She's my dar !

Does B know U?
♥ Boon Chong & Uniform ♥.
- Yup, if not he will be upper naked to school.

If F betrays yous, will yous kill him/her?
♥ Febrin ♥.
- I will ((;

If K steals your girlfriend, what will yous do?
♥ Kaixin ♥.
- i'll do nothing, she's my jie ley ;D

What if G tells yous he/she have a crush on yous?
♥ Guo hao ♥.
- i'll tell him that i already have a sweet boyfriend with me.

Will yous and M get into fight?
♥ Meiling ♥.
- we won't.

Who does S have a crush on?
♥ Selina ♥.
- she didn't have crush, infact she already have a boyfriend.

If W calls yous a bitch, what will yous do?
♥ Wenfa ♥.
- he wouldn't do that, so there won't be if ((;

What the relationship between yous & E?
♥ Evon ♥.
- she's my mummy.

What does D like?
♥ Dave ♥.
- i don't know, wasn't close to him.

What V's favorite band?
♥ Violent ♥.
- Lol, violent is not a human at all.

What does Y like?
♥ Yongwei ♥.
- how i know? I also not him.

Did yous and C have a fight before?
♥ Chingyen ♥.
- nope! We're good good friends.

Who is H's best friend?
♥ Hanhui ♥.
- Hmm, not sure.

What can yous say about Z?
♥ Zhihan ♥.
- She's my bestie ((;

What if J tells yous he/she has a crush on yous?
♥ Jianwei ♥.
- i will tell him i ♥ him, he's now my boyfriend. So i don't need to have
any crush on him larhs (;

Those who wanted to do this quiz, go ahead ;D

baby.

if im gone from this world.

remember this sentence.

no matter where am i with my soul, i'll still love yous.

find the girl who can really give yous happiness.

i'm not worth for yous at all.

my tears had dry & i had finished my words.

remember that yous are the man i'll love till the day i die.
我真的好累了, let me die in a peaceful place.

to trust or not trust?
up to yous larhs.
i am not fit to be your daughter.
i'll do what yous wished for.

.Monday, March 30, 2009 ' 5:02 AM

i will be mia-ing from blog lerhs.
my mood had been swing-ing almost everyday.
my heart is so fucking hurt, yet nobody understand me.
im hiding at a corner to cry, and i won't let anyone know.
because i just wanted to be alone for the time being.
i had so much things to say, yet suddenly i became speechless.
haish, people out there. Leave me alone bahs.
i don't know when will i be back again.
see my mood if it changes bahs.
buhbye readers.

i had nothing to say to yous anymore.
yous be yourself bahs.
since i'm no longer important to yous.
我不知道你到底要什么.
我也不知道你的心在想什么.

heart-broken.
things didn't changed.
yet it became even worst.

.Sunday, March 29, 2009 ' 10:08 PM

as usual wake up prepared to went for work.
chatted quite number of stuff with jubellina mummy.
reached home at about 12.30pm.
i was so bored, finding someone to chat with me.
in the end, i couldn't even find any.
i'll just end my post here.

yous say yous will call me.
i waited waited & waited.
where have yous been?
i feel that yous no longer love me like how yous used to.
i'm waiting for your action to prove to me.
till now, not even one.
i want to have a peaceful life with yous, is it hard?
now that yous had go back to your maple life.
i don't know what will happen to me again.

i want to have a good rest.
i'm so fucking stress and tired.
i've said this lines for a million of times.
my problem was still not solve yet.

.Saturday, March 28, 2009 ' 7:56 AM

woke up by alot of text today.
replied and woke up, prepared meet peiwenboyf.
bus down to central to meet leelim, cynthia, hanhui, evon, jeff,
chenfoo, boon chong & baby ((;
had a hard time waving for a taxi, cab down to arena to play pool.
when the boys are all playing, we girls went to burger king to have our lunch.
went back cynthia teaches leelim, peiwenboyf as well as me to play pool.
well, i'm still a beginner. I had so much fun in the pool can.
it was so challenging larhs ;D
after our pool, went to have lunch again. This time peiwenboyf & me
didn't eat kay, we were just waiting for them to finish their food.
bus down to poinneer mrt, peiwenboyf, baby & I alighted.
went mrt to top up our card, then bus down to gek poh again.
we meet evon there to rent VCD to watch at jeff's house.

start watching the movie, it was so fucking boring can.
waste my bloody money with that horrible movie.
i wasn't paying attention at all, playing with peiwenboyf nehs.
till around 7++ i felt so hungry, peiwenboyf & I walked to gek poh again.
went toilet, on the way we was so mad can.
playing like nobody's business ((; bought finish our stuff.
went back to jeff's house again, had our dinner while watching
another ghost movie, it belongs to jeff's family.
and this cd then i called it as a ghost movie marhs.
horrible and scary can, digusting ley. Digging kindey out ley. ~_~
peiwenboyf left to meet zhenyuan .
around 10.30pm baby and I left, chatting on the way and he send me home.
thanks baby ((;
bathe & blogging over here uhs.
tmr going to work lerhs, i've to sleep earlier uhs.
takecare readers ;D

baby thanks for sending me home ((;
i love yous.
missing yous every hours, min and second .
you'll never be replaced.
muacks!

no matter what.
think positive!

.Friday, March 27, 2009 ' 7:32 AM

the moment i woke up my brain was bursting uh .
fucking painful , i was so reluctant to go school .
but mum insisted that i should attend today as i was
having my Mother Tongue Oral today for re-test .
forced dragging myself to prepare and off to school .
luckily the floor was wet today , and we don't have any mass pe ;D
during social studies i fall asleep , teacher didnt punish me becase
i had medicine this morning. It's normal for human to fall asleep uhs .
lesson followed by physic , i can say it's so bloody sucks uh .
we had test today , when i recieved the paper .
i was like full of question mark inside my brain can .
do few question and pass up , chatting and off for our recess .
followed by maths lesson , i got only 8/24 marks for my maths .
Mr Ethan Tan said that actually i could scored 20 marks .
all was just my careless mistake , i'll score better for next test (;
reflection period , and off i chiong . Skipped netball ;x
slack slack slack , 8.50pm reached home .
might be mia-ing soon again.

* someone really important *
what more can i still say when yous had explained so clearly.
i didn't find yous unreasonable at all.
it's right to have temper what, what more yous wanted me to do?
if yous think that without yous i'm still happy.
i guess yous are definitely wrong. In fact, i needed yous alot.
soon yous are not going to be my listeners anymore.
when i needed yous, yous won't be there for me anymore.
i don't know why things turned out to be like that.
if yous had decided not to talk to me anymore so be it.
if yous insisted that i don't understand what yous mean so be it.
we looked fine sometimes, after something we've changed 360 degrees.
i'm tired. Fucking tired lerhs. Nevermind letting all of your go will make
your happier. Leave bahs , i wish to be alone too.

baby .
perhaps , i failed to be your girlfriend .
i don't worth your love at all ;D
yous no longer love me.
and i'm no longer important to yous.
yous no longer need me beside yous.

by leaving me will make yous happy .
go ahead , i wanted to see your smile .

.Thursday, March 26, 2009 ' 7:51 AM

Happy 6th month anniversary to baby & I ((;

doraemon and friends ((;

baby , thanks for giving me so much of love , care & of course hurt too D;
remember i once said , yous are the reason for me to breathe ?
without yous , i'm actually nothing like a empty nuts inside a peanut shell .
i won't move , i won't breathe. I won't move & breathe until yous finally
see that i belong to yous. We won't let things go for nothing.
even though we argued alot. I still love yous deeply without any changes.
sometimes your words might hurt like a knife stabbing through inside my heart.
during arguing without yous knowing, my tears just rolled down my cheeks.
i need yous to be with me and shared whatever unhappiness yous had.
i may not help yous in anything but i'm able to be your listeners and lent yous my
shoulder to lean on if yous needed it.
i'm not a perfect girlfriend to yous, i may not be the best.
but i will definitely try all my best to make yous the happiest boy.
even one day we might separated, i'll still remember your love, hug & kisses.
we had finally walked a long to way to our 6th month.
hope our love can continue without stopping half way.
baby thanks for drawing me the doraemon and his friends (;
it's such a pretty drawing ;D i loved it !
baby, nothing will bring me down when you're around.
yous mean everything to me.

Thanks to those people who wished me ((;

MissChristine ♥ MrJianwei .

everlasting love.
i'll be your guardian angel guiding everywhere yous goes.
i'll be supporting yous in the back ((;

.Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ' 10:49 PM

Didn't attend school today , was sick .
woke up 7am plus prepared , daddy drove mummy , meimei & i
to polyclinic to see doctor , not only me seeing can .
daddy & meimei also seeing ((;
waited for 3 bloody hours inside that stupid polyclinic .
almost fall asleep ley , so fucking tired lorhs .
while waiting for my turn i saw the number flash 1314 ((;
& i took that stupid photo down .
anyway i have two days mc ley ;D but i guess tomorrow i will still
attend school larhs , cannot miss too much lesson or else i'm prepared
to become meat ball liaos .
we had our lunch at 400 plus & went home straight .
bathe & i think i will have a nap later on bahs .

baby .
didn't get to see yous in school .
i miss yous alot alot D;
i hope to see yous soon ley .

eyes is to stare ?
laughs .
bloody bitch , yous don't get your lesson well enough .

.Tuesday, March 24, 2009 ' 9:43 PM

make a guess ! where am i now ?
lol , obviously i'm in the school lab if not i wouldn't ask where am i
if i'm posting this blog at home . Lol , i'm lame don't bother uhs !
didn't late for school & i was liked woah lucky larhs ;D
i'm lazy to run in the basketball court or field larhs , damn tiring .
worst part was to write 200 lines . My hand was so numb can .
kept coughing in school today , idiotic . Damn irritated by my throat .
tomorrow i'm having chinese oral after school , guess i won't be coming
to school bahs , i'm seeing doctor tmr .
i had sore throat , cough & flu since 1 week ago .
i'm tired of schools life , had to wake up early .
fuckfuckfuck , i wanted to have a long holiday ! D;
our class have a singer , he sings really so well well well kay !
i liked his voice so' much too , i'm off to listen to his song .

Ass baby .
i missed yous alot alot x3 .

in my heart ,
slowly yous no longer close to me anymore .
i don't care , as long as you're happy with
your loves one i'm fine with it .

.Monday, March 23, 2009 ' 7:01 AM

holiday ends , school reopen again !
bloody ass , first day of school . And i'm late already .
the stupid bus was so crowded can .
school's life was the same , slacking uh .
i only pay attention more on mathematics that's all .
because i'm seating in the front , as for other lesson .
i would seat at the back of the class & kept talking non - stop .
after school went to gek poh , slack till around 4 plus went home .
reached my house at about 5 bahs .
baby came over too , around 8 plus he left .
had my dinner , write my lines & half watching television .
bathe & so , prepare to sleep soon lerhs larhhs ((;
buhbye readers .

* specially for my part time boyfriend *
Maybe one day i failed to be your part - time girlfriend .
Don't worry, somehow there'll be people who replaced me .
That person will cheer yous up when you're sad .
Standby yous when yous need that person urgently .
Soon, we'll have our own world .
But it's kay, as long as we had spent almost 3 years plus together (;
I'm more than happy, those sadness & happiness we once had .
Sometimes i need yous, yous will appeared .
But when yous needed me, i didn't appeared .
And i had claim that i wasn't a good girlfriend , friend , stead & daughter .
It's kay, how much time we are left .
I'll start to cherish it lerhs, because when it's gone it's gone .
Lastly, i loved my boyfriend tons ;D

baby , your mouth sometime should close for some reason .
yours are the one saying , people are the one hearing .
people may not liked what yous say .
so un-necessary things shouldn't be say uhs ((;

perhaps one day our friendship will fade .

.Sunday, March 22, 2009 ' 2:55 AM

was supposed to go for work in the morning .
woke up head was feeling heavy & i was kept coughing .
text-ed jubellina mummy & asked her for permission for
not working today but i just prepared for in case .
watch 7am show , received her text . & i went to bed @ 8am .
woke up at 2.30 pm ((;
was rottening @ home today larhs , don't feel like going out too ;D
parents went out , & i felt so hungry . Thanks leelim'dar for helping me
buy mac & deliver to me under my house void deck ley (;
ate full full nehs . Watching cartoon & half texting with peiwenboyf .
i'm not childish to watch cartoon okay , it's because i was bored only !
okays larhs , lazy to post lerhs . Continue watching my cartoon =)

baby .
i miss you D;
aiyos , text me when i'm sleeping @ 4am plus .
see my stupid baby , haha . ((;
do this stupid stunt , but i loved yous !

everything will be okay after sometimes .
endure will bring yous to succeed .

.Saturday, March 21, 2009 ' 6:44 AM

tortoise bolster ;D

my darling ((;

my laogong ((;

my part - time boyfriend ((;

my mummy ((;

my good friend ((;

woke up by my cough , mum bought me duck noodles .
i couldn't even finish it at all , half coughing half eating .
it's really damn irritating can .
texting with evon , peiwenboyf & darling .
prepared , & meet pearlyn downstairs my house .
she wanted to change clothes so we went to her house .
evon & jeff waited us outside pearlyn's house .
jeff left after that , we walked to peiwenboyf's void deck to
meet her , jastine darling & cynthia laogong ((;
mood was actually happy ? but don't know why i found out that actually today's
girl's gathering wasn't fun at all . It's like haish , i don't wish to say too .
reached city hall , waited for leelim to arrived .
went to JUST NOODLE to have our half lunch & dinner ? lol .
had fun inside larhs , shared our food around ((; free ice - cream too ;D
went suntec arcade took neoprint larhs , the picture was so ugly ;x ?
nevermind , since it's like 1 year take 1 time . So be it !
went mini-toons to shop ((; saw a tortoise bolster . I simply loved it ));
went to buy chocolate , 3 and it cost me $8 . WTF ?
it is the last time i'm gonna buy because it was like centuries that i last ate .
took mrt & home , thanks pearlyn for buying shark fin for me ((; LOVE !
above are the pictures whom i went out with except leelim's dar picture ?
i don't have it ? Lol , that tortoise was not counted too .

* specially for someone * .
sometimes i might joke with yous , yous couldn't take it ?
how yous expect me to play with yous or joke around with yous ?
things yous say hurt me and yous told me yous was just joking .
and i didn't really put that in my heart , yous won't understand
how i feel alright ? i'm joking with yous and i even tells yous that .
but yous simply showed me your black face ?
the moment i went to meet your ? you're the one who showing me
black face ? i'm the only one yous didn't talked to ?
yous know how i feel a not ? yous don't okay .
yup , perhaps i failed to be as your friends and darling bahs .
sometimes i don't even know how to talked to yous when you're in a bad mood .
i'm useless okay ? forget it , so be it .
i think i better don't talked too much lerhs , but still thanks for being
my listeners when i needed yous the most ?
& from the start i don't find yous fan at all alright , up to yous to believe me .

baby, i didn't see yous today
and i really missed yous alot .
although i was outside with my friends
but you're the one i'm missing every moment and second .
no matter where yous are , takecare of yourself uh ((;
lastly , baby i love yous .

i'm so stress about my friends & relationship .
can please stop giving me stress & let me have some break ?
i'm fucking tired .

.Friday, March 20, 2009 ' 9:30 PM

8am i suddenly woke up feeling unwell .
went to the toilet to vomit , nothing came out but gastric juice .
after vomiting feeling better larhs , go back to have my nap .
around 8.40am i woke up again , the same routine went to
vomit , ohs those yellow gastric juice was so disgusting can ?
take my medicine & went back to rest on my bed with my cute tortoise .
& finally i manage to sleep until noon ((; i was feeling quite okay now .
but still my sore throat is really killing me ley );
maybe later will be going out with bestie larhs , don't want to bomb her nehs .
shall update later on then .

[ edited ]
sorry bestie , i didn't went out with yous worhs .
i was really feeling v' unwell today .
i promised the next time i won't bomb yous lerhs .
iloveyous , bestie !

baby , i will trust yous if yous wanted me to do so .
but i won't take your words for real unless yous prove it to me .
how much time do yous need ?
weeks or month ? there's no more years alright .
i love yous , & of course i do .
the hurts yous gave me seem like revenging how i treated yous in the past .
it's a double punishment towards me .
do yous actually realised that ?
i will love yous till the day i really cannot take it .
till now i still loved yous alot x3 .

will a person changed after knowing their own mistake ?
to me some will , some will not .
so will yous ?

.Thursday, March 19, 2009 ' 5:54 PM

woke up early for that stupid fucking tuition of mine .
my sore throat making me mad .
kept coughing & coughing .
i wonder if now i'm sick will baby takecare of me ?
ohs , i don't wish to think that much too .
last night i didn't slept well because of my sore throat .
everytime i woke up my huge tortoise was in my arms
& i'm hugging so tightly , i really loved this tortoise alots .
same goes to the one who bought me this tortoise .
but do yous ? i wasn't even clear about your love to me .
anyway , later going out fishing uh ;x
& not sure if i'm going anot with my heath like this .
i'm preparing for my tuition so here i go ((;
buhbye readers , shall update if needed .

[ edited ]
went fishing with leelim'dar, peiwenboyf, zhenyuan & baby .
thanks leelim'dar for riding me for so long nahs (;
yous should be v' tired lerhs, overall we had fun today nahs .
the fish we catches was so many many many .
slack slack , baby ride on awhile & we took bus home lerhs .
immediately turn on my laptop & use lerhs , haha .
i'm busying chatting with my bestie, darling, dar , laogong & friends lerhs .
& texting with jubellina mummy & peiwen'boyfriend ((;
buhbye ! ;D

yous touched my shoulder & you whisper to me that
yous wouldn't treat me like that anymore .
don't use your mouth and say , show the action to me .
i'll give yous time to do so .

if i can die of being sick
god , please bring me away .
i'm so tired of living in this world .
everyday i'm just experiencing sadness .
where's the happiness i used to have it everyday ?

.Wednesday, March 18, 2009 ' 7:21 PM

Happy 18th Birthday To My Brother ((;

Going jurong point with leelim'dar later on .
shall edit later if i'm free enough to do so .

the moment i woke up , i simply do nothing but cry .
tears just flow down like water in the river .
i don't even know what had i done wrong ?
i didn't sleep tight at all , i kept woke up in different time .
wish to have your call , sms ?
yup , i recieved your sms .
& it's only 2 words ? what the .... !
it make me even more sad , i had replied you .
i bet you won't reply me derhs .
my blog ? i wonder when is the last time you came to tag me ?
you rather tag other people's blog than mine .
you used to told me my blog is your night storybook ?
but now , without my night storybook you can still went to bed .
everything had changed .
are you telling me now that you no longer need me ?
but tell you frankly in fact i needed you a lot .
i just hope that what had i done wrong you just tell me .
don't hide things from me .
i've nothing more to add on lerhs .

a knife had just stabbed through my heart .
& that's a deep hole in it ,
which i think it's hard to be heal .

My New Gan : Vanessa' Ah Mei .

.Tuesday, March 17, 2009 ' 5:45 AM

i feel like jumping out of this window .

met up with peiwenboyf @ about 12 plus
under my void deck , chatted a bit & went over to her house .
around 1pm i left her house to meet Pearlyn & baby .
bus down to jurong east , Pearlyn wanted to repair her phone .
after that we went IMM shop shop ((; had fun over there with them .
went long john to have our lunch , after that
baby & me was watching tom & jerry in public ? lol , childish right ?
but indeed is a very funny movie larhs ((; i simply loved it .
6 plus we left IMM , baby alighted at boon lay .
Pearlyn & me went to look for leelim' dar @ central .
chatted & fool around like small kids , bought food for my family &
accompany Pearlyn to 815 & she bought food for her family .
lol , we take turns to be ah soh sia .
back home , chatted in msn with leelim' dar .
called peiwenboyf for chat & my tears flow down .
because something really hurt my bloody heart deeply .
i'll end off here .

you don't know how to reply me ?
it's just an easy question .
you simply don't want to take time to think about it .
forget it , i won't force you .
i'm loss of words towards you .
you make me sad again & again .
i've decided not to bother about it again .
since this is what you gonna tell me .
i'll leave this things as the way you wish .
you'll never be you anymore , i will prefer past time you .
anyway , it's over .
so forget it ((;

you're really everything to me .
if you're looking for perfection, don't look at me, i'll only let you down .

love, a silent language only understand by the heart .
you're a reason i can't help but draw a little heart on a piece of paper .
it takes 1 min to have a crush on someone .
an hour to like someone .
a day to love someone .
some girls want a happy ending, i just want a story .
when i see you it puts a smile to my face .
even though you don't know how i feel about you .
you still make me the happiest i have ever been .
eyes are the window to the soul because it is blind .
i will lie for you, i will cry for you, i will even die for you .
love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tears .
to love someone is nothing to be loved by someone is something but to loved by
the one you love is everything .
if you live to be hundred, i want to live to be ninety - nine so i'll never go to a day without your love .
love isn't finding the perfect person its finding the imperfect person you see perfectly .
now that you had steal my heart and i steal yours .
the first day i saw you is the day i found out what love truly is .
the hardest part of dreaming about you is to having to wake up .

hold on to someone if they're important to you .
once they left , even though your catches him/her back .
he/she will never be the way they used to be .
bear that in mind people ((;

.Monday, March 16, 2009 ' 11:08 PM

i shall come back & continue blogging uh .
regina asked me to come back larhhs , she missed me ? ohhs ;x
haha , alright today woke up early larhs .
prepare & off to work again , today's work was quite tiring .
but it's okay when i'm working with jubellina mummy ,
don't know how am i gonna work without her during wednesday ?
tmr i'm off (; & yesh ! finally can rest well yarhh .
& jubellina mummy was off on wednesday larhs .
maybe Saturday having girl's gathering , i bet it would be fun uh !
hmm , i've nothing more to post larhs , guess off i go then .
i'm tired & taking my nap soon ((;
goodbye readers , tag before you go ! ;D

[ Edited ]
this edited part is only for my bestie derhs .
although somethings happened recently .
no matter what , we'll still be bestie like how we are since
kindergarden , bestie not only you missed your childhood .
i missed it too , play play play is all we only know .
there's no stress like what i had now , trouble & nagging from parents .
bestie , like what you say . Fate brought us back again .
i will never let our friendship gone into the drain again alright ((;
i missed you & loved you super duper much .
march holiday i will find one day & jio you out for window shopping can .
but i must tell you , i don't have any money with me lerhs ));
totally broke like mad man , we see things we don't buy okays !
is the laughter & things we shared but not stuff we buy yarhs ?
takecare bestie (;

i'm tired of my life .
parent's nagging , & lots more .
quarreled with different people at different time .
ohh people , i'v fucking enough can .
life sucks , if only i'm still a little kid .
i wouldn't have so much trouble inside my mind .
i will be living in a childish life , but now i had grow up ?
why should people grow up , damn irritated by stupid idiotic stuffs .
or should be my mind not working in a right manner ?
study is the one i'm looking forward , yet my heart keeps wanting me to play
& fool around like nobody's business ?
my mum scolded me , because she cares for me or ?
ohhs , i have so many doubt inside my bloody brain .
what should i do ? i just couldn't be myself at all .
people please tag & tell me what should i do ? i'm totally insane & piss off .

Thanks Oh ( Zuyu )
for being the one who support me in the back (;
i will be happy & lastly last long with your boy alright .
cute couples ;D

i ♥ baby ((;

.Wednesday, March 11, 2009 ' 9:40 PM

now is the last post im gonna write before im leaving this
blog for sometimes , i'm super tired of so many nonsense .
today my mood was no good can ,
i came to school but i wasn't studying .
to me school is a place for me to sleep , talk & eat only .
i'm leaving my blog for time being , i'm so lazy to update
plus i'm not in the mood to do so .
see when im gonna come back to my blog again bahs .
goodbye readers ((;

♥To My Parents .
i know long ago your had given me up .
& i just heard from mummy's mouth 5 mins ago .
she say , ' i had already given you up ' .
i wasn't sad because what i promise you & i didn't do it .
mummy sorry i betrayed your trust so much .
i promised you i will do well for my exam , in the end ?
what did i get back ? all shit result .
i spent the most amount money in the whole family .
kept asking for money when i needed it , i never think of daddy
when he's working so hard while i'm enjoying myself playing
& anyhow spending his money .
and i wasn't studying in school .
last year , before i was leaving home i told your i will bring a good result
back to see your . In the end , coming to 6 month .
my result was even worst , i bring shame to this family .
i know , i know everything . i didn't bring your joy but sadness .
sometimes you do cry , i know too .
daddy & mummy i'm so deeply sorry .
million , thousand & hundreds of sorry .
i failed to even be your daughter .

♥To All My Friends , included those who hatred me .
i wasn't a good friends to your at all .
i always attitude your for nothing .
my mood changes , you all are my scolding bag .
i know sometimes when your needed me ,
i wasn't there to support your & give encouragement .
i had changed , i couldn't change back to the secondary 1
that innocent de me anymore . It's hard .
guys thanks for tolerating my attitude & letting me .
i failed to be your friend .

♥To Baby .
i wasn't there for you when you needed me .
i wasn't there to takecare of you when you're sick .
i wasn't there to support you when you need it .
i wasn't good enough to even fit to be your girlfriend .
i showed you attitude for so many things .
you gave in to me , perhaps you're right .
i didn't give in to you before .
thanks for tolerating me when i was cold to you .
in fact i wasn't cold to you , just that i had alot of things hid
inside my heart & mind .
sorry , i failed to be your stead .
i will never be that past bitch anymore .
i had regretted for what i had done .
lastly , baby trust me .
i really really really love you alot ((; mwaucks .

believe me anot .
when writing this last post .
my tears was flowing down .

.Tuesday, March 10, 2009 ' 9:17 PM

now i'm having ITP lesson .
today i wasn't late for school ((;
during english reading period
was discussing with friends about where & when to have our steamboat ?
chinese lesson as usual kena thrown out ;D
i purposely don't want to take my workbook out , & so out i go .
crapping with jubellina mummiie & evon outside the class .
i was totally no interest in chinese lesson alright .
because the teacher was so fucking sucks .
recess bell rang , all jitao run down liaos .
went back class social studies lesson , was quite attentive larhs .
& having 3 period of ITP lesson now ((;
very shiok de okays , best ! @@
wondering after school where should i go nehs ));

baby .
i miss you ,
& loving you tons .

i don't understand you at all .
sometime i really feel like walking away &
never turn back again but when i saw you .
i don't bear to walk too far , because i was afraid
that i couldn't get close to you again .
do you understand how i feel ? you never ,
perhaps i won't be blogging this blog for few days .
currently i'm so tired of so many things lerhs .
all those stupid stuff -'- off please .

i'm not caring enough either as a friend or a girlfriend .
i'm not good to your too .
give me up if your choose to ,
i'd let your down .

.Monday, March 9, 2009 ' 4:31 AM

bastard kindly -'- off asshole .
i don't liked you at all alright .
you're the one saying i'm the one hearing .
i don't know what the -'- had i done to came into this class .
kanasai , fucking hate you to the core .

remember this ;
you've changed .
you're not the one i first known .

.Sunday, March 8, 2009 ' 10:48 PM

woke up early as usual , today jubellina mummiie & me were
suppose to go our work place ourself , meet her inside bus with
wenfa daddy oh (; haha , he's quite friendly larhs not as fierce as i thought .
bus down to jurong point & take 174 to our work place , wenfa daddy left .
mummiie & me started working , today special uh ? haha , we finished our work
earlier then before nahs while slacking we shared alot of things .
i loved sunday the most , mummiie & me would shared out all of stuff .
11am her mother drive us to her ahma house to get things & back to
jubellina's house , had lunch in her house & watched tv .
2 plus she send me to bus stop , back home immdiately bathe .
the weather was so hot larhs , aiiyos like burning chicken uh ;x
think i was about to sleep lerhs bahs , tired !

baby .
i have nothing more to say .
i miss you .

soon i'm nothing to you anymore .
believe me .

.Saturday, March 7, 2009 ' 7:36 PM

after reading your blog , i guess i'm the one that you mentioning ba .
& i simply don't care how you said me alright .
what you promised me in the past ?
you promised you will changed your attitude , so now what are all this ?
you're my kindergarden friend , remember how good & best we are .
everyday end of our class we will run until a mama shop to buy things .
played around , i really missed our past ? now that we had grown up .
things are different lehs ? i saw your attitude really scared me .
where is the ______ that i once know ? oh ya , i'm bloodybitch ?
yarhs i am , my attitude sucks yarhhs ? & i didn't really given you any attitude
i just told you no need to buy for me lerhs & i wasn't angry about you what .
it's up to you to believe it larhs alright girl , decision is yours .
wanna continue to scold me ? go ahead , i have no more things to explained .
wanna end our friendship now ? it's up to you .
perhaps im really that bloodybitchyfuckface alright ?
if you're really mentioning about me ? i can tell you down deep inside my
heart , my heart had broke into million of pieces .

too all people whom i attitude to ,
sometime i wasn't purposely derhs .
people don't attitude me i seldom attitude him/her .
but to those people who wanted to hate me ? go ahead alright .
i promised if you hatred me , i won't step inside your life .
it's meaningless too , to me now i know who hatred me & who don't .
i'm not as stupid as 3 years old kids larhs can .
if you think that seeing me will affect your life .
come to school & close your eyes or can pretend not to look at me .
my mother ?
laughs , nag nag & nag .
guys i had enough , this is not my home .
neither my life , all better fuck off from me too .
hatred to see all this things repeated again & again .
hatred me ? throw me out then .
everyday i'm having headache , people are adding more to make
me feel fucking pekche .

baby .
i'm sure i wasn't a good girlfriend to you too .
you gave in to me .
i did nothing to our relationship .
thanks for enduring me so much .
it's so hard on you right ?
if one day you cannot take it anymore .
tell me , i'll let you decide on everything .
if one day i left this world , i can't walk the path with you anymore .
find the girl which loved you & don't give you any attitude .
baby , i love you mwuacks x3 .

everything had changed .
life wasn't good for me .
if only im no longer living in this world .
guys , i'm an eye sore .
i'm really so tired of my life now .

go ahead if you choose to hatred me .
if i'm the one ?
millions of sorry to you .

.Friday, March 6, 2009 ' 1:39 AM

today everyone looked so funny .
all face so black uh ?! i wonder what happened ?
LOL , cheerup guys !
i shall fuck off myself , don't wanna see you all derhs attitude .
kanasai !

you feel hopeless for me lerhs ,
perhaps it's true bahs .
i'm no good in anything , go ahead .
i'm feeling so so so depressed .

.Thursday, March 5, 2009 ' 6:07 AM

what the -'- i was late for school again .
this time is 7.25am derhhs , standing right infront of the gate .
& was ordered to run round the whole basketball court .
i'm so fucking tiring alright , after running listen to those craps he wanted to said .
went back to class , i was so fucking tired .
english period we went library to do our own stuff & miss nada
wanted one by one to read a story she wanted to test our oral .
back class , physic ! i was talking & sleeping (; recess ,
i was broke today alright , only bring $0.50 to school );
baby bought bread for me to eat , that crab meat bread sucks ;x
i don't even liked to eat crab meat can , baby forced me to eat finish .
whole chair & floor was in a mess , all baby's fault uh !
feed me until so violent , i did study alright (; i'm a guai student nehs .
after school we all were having lunch in canteen , baby treated me eat ley .
went to pass up those lines & baby accompany me home .
i changed clothes & accompany baby to stadium for his house practice &
meet zhenyuan , peiwenboyf , jastine darling & leelim dar ((;

4pm plus we all went off lerhs , went to played basketball ;D
i was team up with jastine darling , our group won alright hahas .
11 vs 10 . 7.30pm rushed back home eat & quickly bathe .
8.35pm started my tuition till 10pm . i'm so bloody tired now ,
guess now i'm going to sleep till tomorrow lerhs larhs !
hope tomorrow morning rain even heavier , then won't have mass run .
because i was so lazy to even run can , ass .

baby .
hope you are even better now uh (;
takecare uh , saw you finally drink mineral water .
my good baby nahs (; don't drink too much sweet stuff .
bad for your health uh ,
thanks for treating me for my lunch .
lastly , baby i love you lots mwuacks x3 .

there's no free lunch in this world .

.Wednesday, March 4, 2009 ' 8:20 PM

was late for school again .

baby was sick , kena send home .
the saddest part is when he was asked to go to general office .
he didn't even bid goodbye to me .
hais , nevermind .
chinese class punished outside class again .
didn't bring textbook again .
today's mood was obviously sux like hell .
having ITP lesson now .
to me , each day pass my life getting more sux .
was suppose to watch movie with zhenyuan , peiwenboyf & baby derhhs .
guess we won't be watcing today liaos );

[ Editied ]
nono i was wrong larhs , baby actually waited me outside school (;
went out with peiwenboyf & friends , baby & zhenyuan was waiting outside
for both of us nahs (; then we accompany zhenyuan to polyclinic .
he wanted to see doctor & get a mc .
when reaches , peiwenboyf suddenly said her wallet lost ?
we then took cab & follow that 99 bus .
in the end get it back ;D peiwenboyf smile until so happy uhs .
cab back to the polyclinic , that doctor which zhenyuan consult ?
was the doctor which i consult before , his attitude -'- like hell .
he refused to give zhenyuan mc , last month when i took mc .
he also refused to give me , i remembered his name hard .
Mr Chong Soon Thai , a very fucker name ((; suits you man ass .
bus down to jurong point & we catch the show ' Kunfu Chef ' .
overall it's a nice show larhs , after that went to have our dinner at ' lai lai ' .
shop around & went home lerhs .

baby .
2nd movie with you lerhs (;
takecare of yourself especially when you're sick nehs .
drink more water & get well soon yarhs ?
remember to take medicine if you're feeling giddy (;
get well soon , i treat you eat french fries .
above pictures , i love you x3 !

each day passes , things seem to change .