.Wednesday, March 31, 2010 ' 11:25 PM
Woke up late today and was late for school like for an hour :]
Super power-ranger right? No choice, preparing things super slowly.
Reached there, teacher asked for reason. Bestie anyhow say traffic jam. Tsk, nonsense.
And I have decided to drop Maths and Science le, and quit school.
But end of the year I'm still taking O level, Chinese; English & Poa.
Self study only, and hunting for jobs soon already. I need job urgently uh.
I'm so getting my Nokia E71 or either 72 tomorrow le :] Awaiting my phone.
Super bored uh, shopped in orchard today. Went to boyfriend's workplace.
She kept hiding and smiling to me. Like dumb one, hahaa my cute boyfriend.
Had Japanese rice with bestie at staircase like so pathetic one. Tsk!
Daddy drove us back from Orchard, Poineer mall to buy dinner and home after that.
Living room's two television broke down on the same time, smoke coming out somemore.
Television nearly explode, what the hell. Made my house damn smelly one irritated.
Text and msn whole day with my babe, she uh. Super act cute one =x
She is coming to scold me if she sees this. Oh yea, I so want to go to Universal at Sentosa.
One person 66 bucks, super expensive cannot stand it.
How I wish any kind soul will treat me go lehs, awaiting hopes to come :]
Now how I wish she will damn change her own attitude, for nothing give people attitude.
Whad the hell she wants I don't even damn know. What is that attitude for?
Did I even touch you or disturb you in the first place?
Now I realised why you have so little friends, seems like losing friends slowly.
It's all because of attitude, but it's your own problem already.
I won't care so much anymore. Although You are my blood sister.
All I can do is shout and scold back you, perhaps everything have changed.
I believe it's hard for you to change. Same goes to me, my attitude sux to the core too :]
Helpless, nothing will change the facts. Nothing what so ever.
Just sit here and wait, that's that. Dust will collect and rest forever.
There's been no hope, faith, peace or mind.
Only an unwinnable war. Hatred fills those who were kind.
I'm losing grip, i'm helpless and I can't take it anymore.
Should I be a star, to lighting up your way.
Should I be the sun, to be with your all the day.
Should I be the rain, for touching your skin.
Or should I be the same what I always had been?
Super power-ranger right? No choice, preparing things super slowly.
Reached there, teacher asked for reason. Bestie anyhow say traffic jam. Tsk, nonsense.
And I have decided to drop Maths and Science le, and quit school.
But end of the year I'm still taking O level, Chinese; English & Poa.
Self study only, and hunting for jobs soon already. I need job urgently uh.
I'm so getting my Nokia E71 or either 72 tomorrow le :] Awaiting my phone.
Super bored uh, shopped in orchard today. Went to boyfriend's workplace.
She kept hiding and smiling to me. Like dumb one, hahaa my cute boyfriend.
Had Japanese rice with bestie at staircase like so pathetic one. Tsk!
Daddy drove us back from Orchard, Poineer mall to buy dinner and home after that.
Living room's two television broke down on the same time, smoke coming out somemore.
Television nearly explode, what the hell. Made my house damn smelly one irritated.
Text and msn whole day with my babe, she uh. Super act cute one =x
She is coming to scold me if she sees this. Oh yea, I so want to go to Universal at Sentosa.
One person 66 bucks, super expensive cannot stand it.
How I wish any kind soul will treat me go lehs, awaiting hopes to come :]
Now how I wish she will damn change her own attitude, for nothing give people attitude.
Whad the hell she wants I don't even damn know. What is that attitude for?
Did I even touch you or disturb you in the first place?
Now I realised why you have so little friends, seems like losing friends slowly.
It's all because of attitude, but it's your own problem already.
I won't care so much anymore. Although You are my blood sister.
All I can do is shout and scold back you, perhaps everything have changed.
I believe it's hard for you to change. Same goes to me, my attitude sux to the core too :]
Helpless, nothing will change the facts. Nothing what so ever.
Just sit here and wait, that's that. Dust will collect and rest forever.
There's been no hope, faith, peace or mind.
Only an unwinnable war. Hatred fills those who were kind.
I'm losing grip, i'm helpless and I can't take it anymore.
Should I be a star, to lighting up your way.
Should I be the sun, to be with your all the day.
Should I be the rain, for touching your skin.
Or should I be the same what I always had been?
.Tuesday, March 30, 2010 ' 11:30 PM
This morning slept till 10am plus then wake up :] Super shiok one.
Schooling at 1.15pm today, trained down thought im gonna be late.
Ended up class was started late. While I used bestie iphone to watch the taiwan drama.
Wow, I was seriously in love with the movie. Eyes cannot seems to get off from computer.
After blogging I will continue to watch until i'm sleepy and then going to bed :]
Wanted to change phone so ended up went to the handphone shop to ask for price and so.
Chatted with him like we are so close, kept disturbing that guy too =x
Bestie was just laughing and his and my conversation, tsk. Bad bestie.
Kept asking a lot question about this phone that phone, but he don't feel that i'm annoying.
Chatted until like 7pm plus and trained back home uh. Straight away youtube for show.
9pm plus met boyfriend under my void deck, sweet talk awhile and she went home le.
Currently discussing with parents about my studies, ended up quarreling zz.
Don't even understand my feeling at all. Damn disappointed, really. Damn it.
Currently on msn with my babe, hehe. She sure shy if she sees this =x
Sleep early my dearest babe :] Christine is drinking bird's nest now. Nice! Yummy.
I wonder why guys are a weird creatures, seeing girls hurt they feel happy izzit?
Got a girlfriend le, still going round texting with other girls or on call with other girls -.-
What the hack is wrong with guys? Did they forget they have a girlfriend.
Damn disappointed in guys sometimes, therefore relationship are really scary.
Wanting to find a tiongxim guy is really hard thing to do le.
I wonder where are all those tiongxim man, disappear or forever there's no more?
Hope they really wake themself up and make a real decision soon.
I woner if there is a wonderland, I want love, I am sadness.
I pretend I am loved. I feel everyone's emotions.
I touched people's heart. I worry that I will be alone forever.
I understand nothing, I say everything against my real feeling.
I dream of a happy place and try to keep my feeling pessimistic.
Is loving a person hard?
If so, I would choose to stop loving.
Schooling at 1.15pm today, trained down thought im gonna be late.
Ended up class was started late. While I used bestie iphone to watch the taiwan drama.
Wow, I was seriously in love with the movie. Eyes cannot seems to get off from computer.
After blogging I will continue to watch until i'm sleepy and then going to bed :]
Wanted to change phone so ended up went to the handphone shop to ask for price and so.
Chatted with him like we are so close, kept disturbing that guy too =x
Bestie was just laughing and his and my conversation, tsk. Bad bestie.
Kept asking a lot question about this phone that phone, but he don't feel that i'm annoying.
Chatted until like 7pm plus and trained back home uh. Straight away youtube for show.
9pm plus met boyfriend under my void deck, sweet talk awhile and she went home le.
Currently discussing with parents about my studies, ended up quarreling zz.
Don't even understand my feeling at all. Damn disappointed, really. Damn it.
Currently on msn with my babe, hehe. She sure shy if she sees this =x
Sleep early my dearest babe :] Christine is drinking bird's nest now. Nice! Yummy.
I wonder why guys are a weird creatures, seeing girls hurt they feel happy izzit?
Got a girlfriend le, still going round texting with other girls or on call with other girls -.-
What the hack is wrong with guys? Did they forget they have a girlfriend.
Damn disappointed in guys sometimes, therefore relationship are really scary.
Wanting to find a tiongxim guy is really hard thing to do le.
I wonder where are all those tiongxim man, disappear or forever there's no more?
Hope they really wake themself up and make a real decision soon.
I woner if there is a wonderland, I want love, I am sadness.
I pretend I am loved. I feel everyone's emotions.
I touched people's heart. I worry that I will be alone forever.
I understand nothing, I say everything against my real feeling.
I dream of a happy place and try to keep my feeling pessimistic.
Is loving a person hard?
If so, I would choose to stop loving.
.Monday, March 29, 2010 ' 10:30 PM
Every morning dragged a reluctant mood to school.
Reached school, lesson per normal. I still cannot understand at all.
Parents simply don't understand me. Everytime I cannot solve those sums.
I will just got very frustrated and face turned black. But do my parents even understand me?
Time being I feel like quitting school and earn my own money and pay my school fee next year.
At least if I don't get a O level cert, I won't waste my parent's money.
I just hope they can understand me a bit more. I'll continue study if I have enough money.
I tried to talk out with them, things are still unsolve. They wouldn't agree with it.
Sigh, everyday brought headache back home. School stressing me up, I really give up.
I hate school, I hate studying. I hate everything regarding to school, it really sux.
Actually there's no need to apologise because it's no use to apologise.
What's gone is gone, the harm has been done.
By apologising won't turn back the time and it won't let what has happened to go away.
If only I could choose my own path how I want it to be.
Understanding is often lost to me. There is so much I don't know.
How can I possible progress in life when you need it to move forward?
As far as I have walked and the trail that I have left I don't question life any less.
What makes me different from others, sometimes I can't explain.
Maybe I had to know that too. Granted understand.
Life should continue.
Old face would be gone.
It's something even those most naive knew.
Reached school, lesson per normal. I still cannot understand at all.
Parents simply don't understand me. Everytime I cannot solve those sums.
I will just got very frustrated and face turned black. But do my parents even understand me?
Time being I feel like quitting school and earn my own money and pay my school fee next year.
At least if I don't get a O level cert, I won't waste my parent's money.
I just hope they can understand me a bit more. I'll continue study if I have enough money.
I tried to talk out with them, things are still unsolve. They wouldn't agree with it.
Sigh, everyday brought headache back home. School stressing me up, I really give up.
I hate school, I hate studying. I hate everything regarding to school, it really sux.
Actually there's no need to apologise because it's no use to apologise.
What's gone is gone, the harm has been done.
By apologising won't turn back the time and it won't let what has happened to go away.
If only I could choose my own path how I want it to be.
Understanding is often lost to me. There is so much I don't know.
How can I possible progress in life when you need it to move forward?
As far as I have walked and the trail that I have left I don't question life any less.
What makes me different from others, sometimes I can't explain.
Maybe I had to know that too. Granted understand.
Life should continue.
Old face would be gone.
It's something even those most naive knew.
.Sunday, March 28, 2010 ' 10:42 PM
At the year of 2012, everything will disappear and gone forever.
Perhaps before 2012 i'm leaving le, who knows yeah? Lifes is always unpredictable.
Wasted trip down to almost town for interview, ended up talked cock with me -.-
Made me top up for my ez-link card and I have no more money left for dinner.
Anyway, I'm not hungry uh. Angry until full le :] But nevermind, on diet bahs.
Went Bugis afterwards. Boyfriend bought her jacket, expensive uh. I'm envy!
I simply don't have money to buy although I loved it a lot too, maybe next time if have chance.
Home after that, today's trip was a super boring one. Mouth hardly open, sigh.
I don't know things will end up like this. But I cannot stop it for happening too.
I'm gonna buckup for studies and finding job work like cow soon, I'm in need of money.
Sorry that I don't suits you, my temper; my attitude. You can no longer endure.
I'm not beautiful enough for you, I'm too fat for you & I'm too short for you.
But I'm born like this, can't expect me to do surgery yeah?
The way you looked at other girls, their figure, their looks are so presentable.
Sorry to tell you I cannot be like them so don't envy, just walk away from me then.
I'll still be me. I won't let people pull my nose and walk, and I'm not past me anymore.
I won't be soft hearted like how I used to be in the past. As I'm really too tired.
Everything seems to be my fault, it's okay. I'm willing to take all the blames.
In order to let this matter rest and solve. I believed I have matured :]
I don't want to be in this way, but I am.
Maybe I'll change someday when I almost leaving.
From now on, all I can said is only apologise.
I'm sorry for the words I spoke, sorry for the way I treated you.
Sorry for all that I broke, sorry for being distant.
Sorry for the way I look, sorry for the way I think.
I hate being neglected. I hate waiting for people, I have no patience.
I hate all those feeling, but it all happened.
It's the way of fate that brought us into this road.
The pain hits right.
My punishment, I deem to serve.
Perhaps before 2012 i'm leaving le, who knows yeah? Lifes is always unpredictable.
Wasted trip down to almost town for interview, ended up talked cock with me -.-
Made me top up for my ez-link card and I have no more money left for dinner.
Anyway, I'm not hungry uh. Angry until full le :] But nevermind, on diet bahs.
Went Bugis afterwards. Boyfriend bought her jacket, expensive uh. I'm envy!
I simply don't have money to buy although I loved it a lot too, maybe next time if have chance.
Home after that, today's trip was a super boring one. Mouth hardly open, sigh.
I don't know things will end up like this. But I cannot stop it for happening too.
I'm gonna buckup for studies and finding job work like cow soon, I'm in need of money.
Sorry that I don't suits you, my temper; my attitude. You can no longer endure.
I'm not beautiful enough for you, I'm too fat for you & I'm too short for you.
But I'm born like this, can't expect me to do surgery yeah?
The way you looked at other girls, their figure, their looks are so presentable.
Sorry to tell you I cannot be like them so don't envy, just walk away from me then.
I'll still be me. I won't let people pull my nose and walk, and I'm not past me anymore.
I won't be soft hearted like how I used to be in the past. As I'm really too tired.
Everything seems to be my fault, it's okay. I'm willing to take all the blames.
In order to let this matter rest and solve. I believed I have matured :]
I don't want to be in this way, but I am.
Maybe I'll change someday when I almost leaving.
From now on, all I can said is only apologise.
I'm sorry for the words I spoke, sorry for the way I treated you.
Sorry for all that I broke, sorry for being distant.
Sorry for the way I look, sorry for the way I think.
I hate being neglected. I hate waiting for people, I have no patience.
I hate all those feeling, but it all happened.
It's the way of fate that brought us into this road.
The pain hits right.
My punishment, I deem to serve.
.Saturday, March 27, 2010 ' 8:05 PM
Well I'm craving for ice cream for the whole afternoon, yet no one bought it for me!
I was rottening throughout the whole day at home doing nothing.
Dar came my house outside to get back the phone she lent me earlier on.
Chatted with her and finally like after 2 weeks and I saw her today, neglect me de.
Walao, then text half way she like went missing in action again. Stupid elephant! !@#$%^&*.
Life's was so boring man, think of studying for my homework.
But the moment I see the question I cannot solve, I gave up :]
Managed to change my blog song, edited things inside my blog too.
Was thinking whether to change blogskin a not, but I love this simple blogskin a lot ]:
Parents went out to buy dinner home and I'm waiting over here for food.
Kept stuffing everything into my mouth when I'm bored at home.
Growing fatter and fatter already -.- Tsk, don't care uh. Be myself will do le.
I'm a fat-ass, always kena insulted by someone saying me fat. Thanks uh :]
I'm working in the morning tomorrow, super happy. Our nonsense and craps coming up!
And lastly, my phone W995 sux to the core. Memory card kept losen, damn it -.-
Is life just a dream or a reality real? Is it just our mind or we can really feel it.
Are we trapped in someone elses world, willing to break free.
Or are we living in our own dream, laws made by you and me?
Is love a real thing, or is it just an illusion?
Is the taste of sugar sweet, and pure cinnamon bitter.
Are we being forcused on, or just somebody's little.
Does our world really hold answers, or only clues to such.
Does god really exist, or do we hope for so much?
Is life counted by the pulses, or the breaths we take.
Or possible the number of days that we wake.
Or is it something deeper , deeper from the start?
Is it in our minds or is it in our hearts?
So ask yourself this question before going to bed.
Do your trust your soul or do you trust your head?
Given up everything.
Failed in everything I do,
Damn it man, worthless life.
Dar came my house outside to get back the phone she lent me earlier on.
Chatted with her and finally like after 2 weeks and I saw her today, neglect me de.
Walao, then text half way she like went missing in action again. Stupid elephant! !@#$%^&*.
Life's was so boring man, think of studying for my homework.
But the moment I see the question I cannot solve, I gave up :]
Managed to change my blog song, edited things inside my blog too.
Was thinking whether to change blogskin a not, but I love this simple blogskin a lot ]:
Parents went out to buy dinner home and I'm waiting over here for food.
Kept stuffing everything into my mouth when I'm bored at home.
Growing fatter and fatter already -.- Tsk, don't care uh. Be myself will do le.
I'm a fat-ass, always kena insulted by someone saying me fat. Thanks uh :]
I'm working in the morning tomorrow, super happy. Our nonsense and craps coming up!
And lastly, my phone W995 sux to the core. Memory card kept losen, damn it -.-
Is life just a dream or a reality real? Is it just our mind or we can really feel it.
Are we trapped in someone elses world, willing to break free.
Or are we living in our own dream, laws made by you and me?
Is love a real thing, or is it just an illusion?
Is the taste of sugar sweet, and pure cinnamon bitter.
Are we being forcused on, or just somebody's little.
Does our world really hold answers, or only clues to such.
Does god really exist, or do we hope for so much?
Is life counted by the pulses, or the breaths we take.
Or possible the number of days that we wake.
Or is it something deeper , deeper from the start?
Is it in our minds or is it in our hearts?
So ask yourself this question before going to bed.
Do your trust your soul or do you trust your head?
Given up everything.
Failed in everything I do,
Damn it man, worthless life.
.Friday, March 26, 2010 ' 1:50 AM
My mood like so fucked up like above that angry face, fuck those 2 bitch upside down.
I will be revenging, ask them to wait me. I have my ways to do so :]
Working tiring but to me by serving customer make my mood really cheer up.
Now lehs, end up no money no job no everything. How to survive?
Anyway i'm going for another interview for this coming sunday, hope i'm able to pass.
Gonna damn speed and buck up for my studies, if not score good great for my result already -.-
Obviously it's the other way round, and I want my mummy to buy me shoes in Mitju.
And is the job I just quiited de -.- Like a dog place, sux place.
But the shoes was like heaven :] Hahaa simply love it so much. Considering to buy a not.
1.50 am now le, I haven bathe yet. Zz, going to sleep soon. I have a very deep eyebag, tsk!
I wonder where is my Leelim dar. She simply went gone case, long time not contacting already.
Dar, if you see this don't say that i treat our friendship very fragile.
No contact for 2 weeks, how can I still assume that our love is still strong?
I miss you, I seriously miss. And my darling, she did text me few days ago.
But still I missed her a lot too. Sigh, everything have changed. Simply changed.
Just hope you guys are very fine now, and take real cares. Withlove guys x3.
If it's meant to be break.
It will definitely will anytime.
It's the matter of time.
And I'm gonna screw the two bitch up soon (:
I will be revenging, ask them to wait me. I have my ways to do so :]
Working tiring but to me by serving customer make my mood really cheer up.
Now lehs, end up no money no job no everything. How to survive?
Anyway i'm going for another interview for this coming sunday, hope i'm able to pass.
Gonna damn speed and buck up for my studies, if not score good great for my result already -.-
Obviously it's the other way round, and I want my mummy to buy me shoes in Mitju.
And is the job I just quiited de -.- Like a dog place, sux place.
But the shoes was like heaven :] Hahaa simply love it so much. Considering to buy a not.
1.50 am now le, I haven bathe yet. Zz, going to sleep soon. I have a very deep eyebag, tsk!
I wonder where is my Leelim dar. She simply went gone case, long time not contacting already.
Dar, if you see this don't say that i treat our friendship very fragile.
No contact for 2 weeks, how can I still assume that our love is still strong?
I miss you, I seriously miss. And my darling, she did text me few days ago.
But still I missed her a lot too. Sigh, everything have changed. Simply changed.
Just hope you guys are very fine now, and take real cares. Withlove guys x3.
If it's meant to be break.
It will definitely will anytime.
It's the matter of time.
And I'm gonna screw the two bitch up soon (:
.Thursday, March 25, 2010 ' 10:26 PM
Dragged myself to prepare everything and went school with Bestie.
Studying feeling really super super sux and shag, I swear I'm falling asleep while studying.
Kept going to toilet and Bestie kept complaining again. She hor, cut her mouth away =x
Bugis with her, she kept holding tightly to me she afraid I might slipped because of my slippers.
So sweet of her, I shy shy liao lahhs. Hahaa, trained down to sembawang.
Damn boring over there -.- nothing to do. Ended up went to visit ham ham. Wow, super cute.
Baby wants to buy don't know for what. Lol, went library after that.
He reading don't know what stupid books, while I'm trying to concentrate on my homework.
But as usual nothing goes into my mind. Walao, buay tahan. What a brain of mine!
Skipped. Had otah and honey chicken, the chicken sux like oh my god!
Like shit smell eh therefore baby thrown away that chicken, he accompany me to Jurong East.
And he went home le, before his train departed. He kept pointing me middle finger :]
Thanks him uh, oh yea. So sorry kept slapping you today, but I have to regret for doing so!
Do anyone know hate this single word?
Have you ever let yourself go. Has the feeling ever taken over you?
Have you ever stared into the face of an enemy, did you see the rage expressed on his face?
Have you had to dig down deep inside? And purposely turn away from grace.
Was your hate enough to give you strength.
Did all those years of pain finally come through, were you able to overcome your fear.
Or did it take command from you, so who are we to judge
What path would you take. Sometimes our world is safe by those that use their hate.
I never seems to suits you,
Don't worry. I have things in mind already.
Everything will be solve soon.
.Wednesday, March 24, 2010 ' 1:11 AM
Ended up have to wake up super early for work. Kays nevermind.
Late for few minutes and have to deduct $5 -.- I was like what the fuck eh.
Worked like a horse and kena scolded like dog. What a fuck job is this.
If not because I need money, I wouldn't face a lady which she's not even a manager.
Just because her rank is definitely higher than me. Shit her, fuck her.
Kept throwing the shoe box to the ground using my whole energy.
Showed her my bad fucking attitude, I really buay tahan already -.-
I won't show a bitch like her for respect. She talked to me I just walked off without answering.
She want play with me, I've no problem with it :] I'll play with her till the end.
Shag, life's miserable, suffering. My homework haven done yet, tomorrow morning schooling le.
And now it's 1am already. My god man, haish. I want a peaceful life!
Pain is my anger, disappointment.
Lost hopes, shattered dreams.
Total failure, unsuccessfulness.
Unavailable skill, small achievements.
I'm tired of all those badlucks around me.
Causing me to have so much scolding, suffering.
What's my life up to? Only god understand and know everything.
Sorry to have a ugly ********** like me.
Don't worry, I'm going off soon :]
.Tuesday, March 23, 2010 ' 11:40 PM
Went to school per normal, with heavy rains :] Super cold and I loved the weather.
But the weather suitable for sleeping at home. Yet I'm schooling outside, sian.
School sux, really sux. Everything cannot go into my brain, whatever I do seems to fail.
Had so much fun with bestie today, I made the miss naughty face give her see.
She laughed so loud like no tomorrow. Tsk, throw my face huh.
Lazy to elaborate so much things le and thanks bestie for buying the favourite clothes for me.
I kept staring at the clothes everytime we walked pass. Then she said I'm cute =x
She said I'm like those small kids want sweet, cannot get and give those pathetic face.
Chatted with her all nonsense and craps. Hehe, home at 9.15 I supposed.
Jusf finshed dinner, going bathe watch television programme and sleep after that :]
I have planned everything. Hope it goes according what I have planned.
Life's is a miserable one for me, having hard time studying, hard time working.
I'm going totally mad soon. Brain damaging, brain storming for school work.
My head is going to explode soon. Why am I born so stupid -.-
I'm so super shag! This is life, life is full of suffering. This is what Mr Chong told us before :]
It shows that I still remember my ex teacher, miss him although I don't communicate with him.
Sometimes I want to scream but that's too childish.
When I want to laugh, I stop realizing there's nothing to laugh about.
And then I cry realizing the world is sad and dark place that just makes me miserable.
I wonder if I'm miserable enough today, I won't be miserable tomorrow?
My god. I know that's rubbish and craps, ended my post here. Buai (:
Every path walking is painful.
This hour seems longer than the past,
Thoughts are distorted, making this condition worse.
But the weather suitable for sleeping at home. Yet I'm schooling outside, sian.
School sux, really sux. Everything cannot go into my brain, whatever I do seems to fail.
Had so much fun with bestie today, I made the miss naughty face give her see.
She laughed so loud like no tomorrow. Tsk, throw my face huh.
Lazy to elaborate so much things le and thanks bestie for buying the favourite clothes for me.
I kept staring at the clothes everytime we walked pass. Then she said I'm cute =x
She said I'm like those small kids want sweet, cannot get and give those pathetic face.
Chatted with her all nonsense and craps. Hehe, home at 9.15 I supposed.
Jusf finshed dinner, going bathe watch television programme and sleep after that :]
I have planned everything. Hope it goes according what I have planned.
Life's is a miserable one for me, having hard time studying, hard time working.
I'm going totally mad soon. Brain damaging, brain storming for school work.
My head is going to explode soon. Why am I born so stupid -.-
I'm so super shag! This is life, life is full of suffering. This is what Mr Chong told us before :]
It shows that I still remember my ex teacher, miss him although I don't communicate with him.
Sometimes I want to scream but that's too childish.
When I want to laugh, I stop realizing there's nothing to laugh about.
And then I cry realizing the world is sad and dark place that just makes me miserable.
I wonder if I'm miserable enough today, I won't be miserable tomorrow?
My god. I know that's rubbish and craps, ended my post here. Buai (:
Every path walking is painful.
This hour seems longer than the past,
Thoughts are distorted, making this condition worse.
.Monday, March 22, 2010 ' 11:52 PM
Yesterday went Gek Poh to search for fruit cake, bought one and went to Jeff's house.
Went Jeff's house to celebrate his mum's advance birthday.
Central for dinner with Jeff, his mum, his sister and arron her boyfriend.
Stupid them kept insulting boyfriend and I for being so short -.- Tsk, nevermind.
Had delicious dinner treated by Jeff's and his sister. Back to their house, cut cake and craps.
Home at 10pm plus, sibei tired. Bathe and bomb went to bed le.
As for today, schooling was super bored -.- whole day in school I cannot absorb anything in.
Very pekche and keep struggling, end up I still gave up. I cannot make it for O level le ]:
Shouldn't had take O level in the first place, brain not working.
Everything I do also suay than others, why? Can god define it to me, haish.
Dismissed from school. Went Cathay to shop with bestie for awhile, she bought watches.
And I found a shirt I really really love, but it's just so expensive.
One piece of normal shirt causes $35, it's so terrible. And of course I didn't bought it.
Met baby and trained to Jurong Point. Bestie shopped with us for awhile and she went off.
Met boyfriend and Zhenyuan and went for our movie, watched Kidnappers.
Story was so touching, making me tears while watching half way ):
After movie loithered around in Jurong Point and everyone went home.
Had so much fun with baby, never failed to laugh and joke when we meet up.
Like you said, I have no right to bother because that is when we are just only friends.
Don't worry about me. Carry on with your lifes, I'm disappointed.
But still, it doesn't concern me that time. You have your right to do the things you like.
I never attitude you because it's the same reason, I don't have the right to do so.
It's all past like you said. It stunt me when I knew, but it's okay.
The times with you it's like making me super happy like I have no tomorrow.
But still, somehow we have to part when we are going home.
I don't know being with me what's the reason behind it, I hope it doesn't have any reason.
Thanks boyfriend, Zhenyuan and baby for fulfilling my wish. Thanks guys, withloves.
I'm waiting for your call now, but still there isn't any. Off to bed now, bye readers.
If i'm not suitable for you,
Like what you say girls cannot be fatter than boys.
You can leave, I won't hold you back anymore.
Just live a simple life of yours. If you are happy,
I will be happy too :]
Went Jeff's house to celebrate his mum's advance birthday.
Central for dinner with Jeff, his mum, his sister and arron her boyfriend.
Stupid them kept insulting boyfriend and I for being so short -.- Tsk, nevermind.
Had delicious dinner treated by Jeff's and his sister. Back to their house, cut cake and craps.
Home at 10pm plus, sibei tired. Bathe and bomb went to bed le.
As for today, schooling was super bored -.- whole day in school I cannot absorb anything in.
Very pekche and keep struggling, end up I still gave up. I cannot make it for O level le ]:
Shouldn't had take O level in the first place, brain not working.
Everything I do also suay than others, why? Can god define it to me, haish.
Dismissed from school. Went Cathay to shop with bestie for awhile, she bought watches.
And I found a shirt I really really love, but it's just so expensive.
One piece of normal shirt causes $35, it's so terrible. And of course I didn't bought it.
Met baby and trained to Jurong Point. Bestie shopped with us for awhile and she went off.
Met boyfriend and Zhenyuan and went for our movie, watched Kidnappers.
Story was so touching, making me tears while watching half way ):
After movie loithered around in Jurong Point and everyone went home.
Had so much fun with baby, never failed to laugh and joke when we meet up.
Like you said, I have no right to bother because that is when we are just only friends.
Don't worry about me. Carry on with your lifes, I'm disappointed.
But still, it doesn't concern me that time. You have your right to do the things you like.
I never attitude you because it's the same reason, I don't have the right to do so.
It's all past like you said. It stunt me when I knew, but it's okay.
The times with you it's like making me super happy like I have no tomorrow.
But still, somehow we have to part when we are going home.
I don't know being with me what's the reason behind it, I hope it doesn't have any reason.
Thanks boyfriend, Zhenyuan and baby for fulfilling my wish. Thanks guys, withloves.
I'm waiting for your call now, but still there isn't any. Off to bed now, bye readers.
If i'm not suitable for you,
Like what you say girls cannot be fatter than boys.
You can leave, I won't hold you back anymore.
Just live a simple life of yours. If you are happy,
I will be happy too :]
.Sunday, March 21, 2010 ' 2:50 PM
Once I woke up, my leg; arms; butt and neck all super duper pain -.-
Because of yesterday that stupid job, climbed like monkey yesterday and now aching all over.
Thanks to that best job I ever had :] Made me suffering now. Lol!
Worked with Jubellina, boyfriend and one more new girl. We kept crapping nonsense.
That girl kept laughing at us, first day met her. My ugly pattern all out sibei paiseh.
Anyway, all girls marhs nothing to hide too. Super fun, laughing non - stop while slacking.
Boyfriend like dumb dumb one, cute uh. I love her a lots, love talking nonsense with me.
Slept in Jubellina's father car. Buay tahan liao, like any position I can just doze off.
Eyes getting smaller, eye bag getting bigger -.- plus my stupid nose, sensitive.
Home after that, went to bathe and now sitting infront of the computer day dreaming :]
Love comes unexpectedly, It's never to be forseen.
So when it hides inside you. It leaps beyond your dreams.
Love never dies, through most seems to forget.
It leaves you when not able to heal where it was kept.
Love you is the reason why im always sad. Our love goes from good to bad.
It's like a love story gone mad, Why can't it be like what we had?
One little incident changes it all to wrong.
It's funny how our relationship is described by these breakup/ make up songs.
I can't tell whether or not you have my heart.
Your lies and deceitfulness is what tears us apart.
I want to believe in what you say is true, because your second chances is running blue.
A relationship is not a switch. You cannot flick between yes and no.
Easily wanted,
Difficult to keep going
Once lost never found.
.Saturday, March 20, 2010 ' 12:55 AM
Just wanna talk to you in phone and msn so hard? -.- if so, forget it!
Woke up damn early today, prepared to meet boyfriend and trained down to town.I alighted at Somerset 313 awhile boyfriend alighted at Orchard :]
Both working at the same time at the same outlet but different location.
This job to me is quite good uh, one of my college sibei xialan. Buay tahan her -.-
See her older than me only, if not I confirm say back her. I'm first comer, what she expect.
Skipped, today customer was really super much and they bought so much pair.
Lol, this month is buying shoe month uh? People really terrible until tsk.
Climbing here and there to find those shoes, I give up. The number of the shoe code I can't rmb.
Kept asking them for help. Sian one, tiring. My leg is breaking down, knee cap damn pain.
Just reaches home half an hour ago, 12am. Damn it, tomorrow morning still working.
My head is spinning spinning and spinning, I'm going to shower and sleep liaos.
Goodnights readers, and remember to leave a tag down uh :]
I miss you, I really miss. But did you, I just don't know what am I to you.
Anyway, I won't bother so much already. I'm tired of every single things.
Continue doing your stuff and I will do my stuff. Things have really changed.
The coversation with you in phone is really :] a happy one. Laughter all the way.
Just wanna ask if you will still remember me when you are with your games?
I know love is unpredictable, is hard to maintain a everlasting relationship.
if ever one day you turn your back and go with another who you think suits you better.
I give you my blessing and I promise you that, no worries.
As for those things I wanna battle, I won't give up. Want be proud? I'll play with you till the end.
Empty promises everwhere, everyday.
Tomorrow actually we are meeting, but you have already forgotten.
Stay home and play your games bahs. Enjoy yourself with your dota :]
Take lots of cares, fuck man.
.Friday, March 19, 2010 ' 9:47 PM
Bang! Shot, alright enough of my laming part :] Had maths test today.
And it was like finally after years, I passed my test. Although it's just pass, I'm still happy.
I realised that my teacher is very disgusting lehs. He said last 3 lowest maths in the class
Have to serve punishment, 1st; Sing a song to the class, 2nd; Dance in class.
3rd; Eat worms -.- It's real fried worms not those sweet worms. Damn disgusting, hells.
One of my friend kena already, hahaa. He really ate it, I felt damn ~_~ yucks.
Had mathematics for such a long period, Cannot stand it. Eyes seriously closing down.
Today's maths really give up cannot understand one. Sigh, which kind soul is willing to help me?
Christine is gonna buckup if some kind soul is willing to help me :]
Schooling was a stressing part already, and something added on to my stress.
Having headache everyday. My white hair sure coming out soon -.-
Stress until I have no one to talk to liaos. May I know what's friend for?
Why friend treated me in this way, walk away as they like. Go as they like.
I'm a human, I need at least some little respect too.
You have attitude, me myself also have it. I need some peace.
Please, stopping adding stress to me. I cannot take it longer, I will just burst up soon.
Stress is a crap thing. It occurs in my life way more often that it should.
Small things make me think about it, small things that happen also make me think about it.
I don't like it at all, but it's something I have to deal with.
Sometimes I wish it all could stop. That I could stop the stress, stop the tears, stop the pain.
Of course it's never that easy that I thought.
This is life.
Which I am facing everyday,
I am suffering, and seriously I am very tired.
.Thursday, March 18, 2010 ' 11:33 PM
Happy 19th Birthday To My Brother :]
Almost late for school for an hour, due to the mrt track faults.
Reached class, studied all the way to 1.30pm, break for awhile and science after that.
All the way until 3.30pm, break for awhile and Poa until 6pm.
Christine feel super tired today. Having wonderful headache :] Super stress too.
Daddy came to drove bestie and me to Jurong Point, met boyfriend there.
Collected our dead phone from the hospital (: Like lol.
Now a days I realised women wore skirt and sit until very ' gentle ' in mrt.
Wearing mini skirt yet leg opened until so wide [ sorry abit disgusting ]
They don't feel shame, or they had forgot that they themself are wearing a skirt? -.-
Really very obscene to others lahhs, especially boys. Somehow like free show, tsk.
Girls whom are wearing skirt, please takecare of yourself. Close your leg tight :]
Once someone is in your heart, you will never forget.
All of the memories, but something you will regret.
True love is what you make it. But love isn't always true.
Even when you love someone, it doesn't mean that they love you.
Hold on to your relationship, be proud of who you are.
Forgive but don't forget,. Expand your horizons beyond too far.
Reflect of yourself, you will be able to wake up some days.
Be yourself.
Whatever I said it just seems to be shit to you.
I will stop talking and advicing you much,
As I know nothing will goes into your mind.
It's time for me to close my mouth, from now on.
Be yourself, things which is yours is gonna go back to you.
.Wednesday, March 17, 2010 ' 11:15 PM
Like finally understand what teacher is teaching but still some question mark inside my head.
And my so call form teacher love calling my name to answer his question -.- what the hell.
Dismissed at around 3+ then went Plaza Sing, bestie wants to buy her things.
Trained back to BoonLay, the journey was super long and I cannot stand it.
Everyday train there and train back. The journey I'm totally bored of it already, tsk.
And just topup my bus fare every 2 days, now poke like beggar le -.-
Seriously I needed a job as soon as possible eh. Hope the person will call me soon uh.
I prefer Seconday school's life whereby we sister all will gather together at one go.
Yet now, wanna meet them also need to take weeks to see them once. So terrible!
Hope to meet all of them up soon uh, my kaixin jie also :] but still texting with her.
As for myself, no matter how much I'm suffering in my life. I still have to go on.
Because I knew there will be my friends and family members there for me.
Soon, I'm going to a special hosptial to cure my sickness.
So I might be MIA for time being, and until my sickness is cure and I will be back.
To those who are reading my blog often, don't forget to come back (:
I cannot lost my readers huh, if not my blog is going to be rot forever.
But time being, still not off to MIA. So so, continue tag me whenever your pass by uh.
Can anyone define love and tell me what is it?
When a person cannot forget his or her ex, but went to sweet with other people.
Cannot forget does it still include the love inside, I'm so bewildered about what's love.
To me true love is not something that can be defined in a sentence,
It is as strapping as much as it is unconditional , comforting as it is ressuring,
Powerful as it is everlasting and anything but superficial.
This all is love, but currently for my situation is that love?
Cannot forget a person, wouldn't kiss and hug other girls like couples.
To me, I never intend to give my kiss to anyone which I'm not 100 percent in love with.
And seriously I hate hongster super much kiss, hug and left the person. What's this?
It seems like all are fairy tales, it's really disappointing.
I guess everything should go back to the past like one month ago.
I'm returning it to you,
I understand everything now.
Don't worry, Just want see you xin fu.
My heart is getting weaker when each day passes.
My legs no longer can support me for standing up.
If you love me, you would have call me in every ways.
.Tuesday, March 16, 2010 ' 9:31 PM
I am sorry.
I cannot even finish one paragraph in that 15 min. Sure gone case liaos.
Kicked bestie's chair to ask for answer :x Hahaa, then last page also gone case.
Cannot understand what the passage is trying to say, I just copy all down. Lol!
No hope liao, all thing become hopeless le. Sian, no cert no future no everything.
Went Plaza Singapura with bestie for window shopping.
Then Tiong Bahru with dearest, pei him eat then arcade and movie after that.
Watched Alice In The Wonderland, super boring -.- Almost fall asleep.
Think of watching Happy Go Lucky, but have to wait until 9pm. So forget it!
I'm sure I will watch the show soon, but now I'm really super broke eh.
Home after that. Stupid bus fare, within 3 days $10 fly away. Very rough lahhs, buay tahan.
Had dinner like as if few days haven eat anything, watched television and blogging over here.
Chatted with Jiahui, discussing a lot of things together (: Meeting up with her soon.
I wrote his name on my arms with a sharpie, the label said pernament but
I think it's lying to me. As the day passed, I watched the name fade and felt emptiness
In my heart grow, I ate to fill the space but I still feel the same.
As I stepped out of the shower four and a half days later, the name was gone.
And so was he.
You killed all of my dreams,
With your black black heart.
.Monday, March 15, 2010 ' 8:33 PM
Next up, it's gonna be body art. [ Tattoo ]
Late a little bit for school, stomach upset for the whole day. Kept running to the toilet :[
Bestie kept sian sian, cause I kept running to toilet and she needs to wait for me.
Exam for the whole day. Kept wanting to sleep, super tired. Don't know why.
English Paper, flunk for sure. So many words that I cannot understand.
Chemistry, goodbye too. Lol, totally shag when I read the question -.-
My studies confirm gone case liaos le, wanna buck up. But seems to be so useless.
Who want to help me? I know Rayner you want but you still have your O level to cope with too!
Hope I'm able to cope it after the help from some teachers. I want a O level cert (:
Christine gonna follow her dreams, work super hard for it.
Shopped at Jurong Point after school, accompany bestie to see new handphone.
She bought me 3 tongue stud, thanks bestie. Super nice one, I loved it :]
We humans are different.
That's why we hated each other because we are different.
But if God made us all the same, then wouldn't life be boring?
So be thankful that you are different, because God made you that way.
Now I have something that I wanted to share, I have a feeling that my wound is opening again.
Some of you out there don't know how it feels to have a wound re-opened.
And have to live through it all again until it heals.
Your actions and your words, you don't seems to care anymore.
Why must people be heartless, why must people be cold?
Respect others is what I have been told, respect everyone for who are they.
For it really does not matter whether you are ;
Black or white, fatter or thinner, tall or short, popular or alone,
Ugly or pretty, ordinary or unique, in the country or in the city.
So stop and think before you call someone a name.
You never actually know whether or not they are already experiencing pain.
So jolly well stop all nonsense from disturbing or insulting other people.
Why do I have a feeling of pure emptyness &
When I open my eyes, everything is in a mess.
Bestie kept sian sian, cause I kept running to toilet and she needs to wait for me.
Exam for the whole day. Kept wanting to sleep, super tired. Don't know why.
English Paper, flunk for sure. So many words that I cannot understand.
Chemistry, goodbye too. Lol, totally shag when I read the question -.-
My studies confirm gone case liaos le, wanna buck up. But seems to be so useless.
Who want to help me? I know Rayner you want but you still have your O level to cope with too!
Hope I'm able to cope it after the help from some teachers. I want a O level cert (:
Christine gonna follow her dreams, work super hard for it.
Shopped at Jurong Point after school, accompany bestie to see new handphone.
She bought me 3 tongue stud, thanks bestie. Super nice one, I loved it :]
We humans are different.
That's why we hated each other because we are different.
But if God made us all the same, then wouldn't life be boring?
So be thankful that you are different, because God made you that way.
Now I have something that I wanted to share, I have a feeling that my wound is opening again.
Some of you out there don't know how it feels to have a wound re-opened.
And have to live through it all again until it heals.
Your actions and your words, you don't seems to care anymore.
Why must people be heartless, why must people be cold?
Respect others is what I have been told, respect everyone for who are they.
For it really does not matter whether you are ;
Black or white, fatter or thinner, tall or short, popular or alone,
Ugly or pretty, ordinary or unique, in the country or in the city.
So stop and think before you call someone a name.
You never actually know whether or not they are already experiencing pain.
So jolly well stop all nonsense from disturbing or insulting other people.
Why do I have a feeling of pure emptyness &
When I open my eyes, everything is in a mess.
.Sunday, March 14, 2010 ' 4:36 PM
Work in the morning, afternoon koufu with boyfriend for our high - tea. Lol chey!
Slapped boyfriend and home after that, she tsk. Make wo so paiseh, tao yan her.
Reached home, computer for the whole day until now 4.10pm. Out soon with family.
Maybe to Taman Jurong for dinner and down to bugis for shopping.
It had been a long time that I last shopped with parents around in a shopping centre.
Missed the past super much uh, anyway I'm gonna do that 1 week a time with family members.
Human with a dog look, and looking down on poor people?
And god allowed him to be with a chiobu, oh my god I was like what the hell uh.
Nevermind this is only a start to let him be happy, slowly his girlf will realise everything.
So I hope guys don't mention tiongxim this words, it seems to be very irritating.
Swallow tiongxim into the stomach, don't use it with mouth. Very irritated by this words.
I wonder why guy haven get the girl, will keep on finding her for example.
Once have her in hand, hackcare everything. I was wondering what love is?
Love can be patient, kind, not jealous, not boastful, not proud,
Not rude, not demanding of it's own way, not irritable,
Not keeping record of wrong, not rejoicing in injustice,
Rejoicing whenever truth wins out, never giving up,
Never lost faith, always hopeful and lastly enduring through every circumstance.
Love is nothing
Love is everything
Love is fragile.
Love is emotion
Love is weakness
Love is affection.
love is mystery
Love is unpredictable
Love is drug.
Love is life.
Love is happiness.
Love is uncontrollable.
Love is pain.
Love is cruel.
Love is sorrow.
Love is disappointing.
.Saturday, March 13, 2010 ' 11:52 PM
Today went Jurong Point with boyfriend to fix our dead phone, and trained to bugis.
Stupid laogong keep disturbing me. And she really look like model, super tall.
My head have to really turn up then can see her, my goodness. Walked with her, very paiseh :x
Headed to bugis street, bought myself a long black sleeve clothes like finally lahhs.
Laogong and mummy like nerd, bought spec don't know for what.
Oh yea boyfriend and I bought a same watch but just different colour, super cool.
But I was still considering to buy myself a sunglasses, saw a very nice one at cotton on.
Went OG, they wanted to see branded wallet and i'm staring at those branded bag -.-
Craving for my Guess perfume, have to get it someday soon :]
Headed to bugis juction. Very boring one, bugis really make me bored.
Laogong and mummy went off first, boyfriend and I went back bugis street.
She bought the same clothes as me and trained back to Jurong Point.
She off to meet her parents at interchange while I met my parents at Singtel's shop outside.
Because i'm buying a phone for myself! Heart sibei pain :[
While waiting for our number to reach, we went for dinner at kopitiam first.
Back to singtel place, wait wait and wait. Wait until I want sleep uh.
Finally reached my turn, got myself a W995. Once again 3rd phone also black -.-
Daddy bought me ice cream cone in mac, walao was like so in love with ice cream.
Going to be a pig soon. Damn it man, super shag one. Growing fatter and fatter!
Off to have my fruits now, watermelon and mango! :] Bye readers, and please leave a tag down.
Never gonna believe there's still tiongxim this word
Existance in this whole world, it's just a word to lie others.
.Friday, March 12, 2010 ' 11:29 PM
Had Physic and Mathematics common test today, prepare to flunk everything.
Both subject left 3 page blank and pass up, having great headache.
Keep forcing myself to think of the answer, in the end it's still hopeless.
After school meet dearest, we trained down to Orchard. Had movie today :]
Dearest wanted to watch movie, so accompany him. Jacky's Chan movie.
Overall I thought it was very bored but turned out to be very funny and nice uh, rated 4/5.
Walked round Orchard today, kept eating non - stop. Dearest said I'm fatter than last time.
So what? Lol. I really ate so much this whole month, sibei jialet. Hopeless liaos :x
Nevermind, fat then cute uh :] someone said that. Hahaa.
Crapped in mrt with dearest, super irritating one. Keep disturbing only.
Nonsense craps all the way home. Reached home now, super tired.
Bathing soon and bomb, wanna sleep liaos. And so good of dearest, didn't reply my text -.-
You'll get it from me soon soon soon (: Xiao xin yi dian I warn you uh.
And I hope everyday go school with a happy mood but not a disappointed mood.
I believe you will change, because we all are human being.
Giving up doesn't mean you are weak.
Sometimes, it means that you are strong enough to let go.
.Thursday, March 11, 2010 ' 11:10 PM
Today is a ' lucky ' day for me -.- damn it, freaking hate today can.
Lost my comb when I was reaching my school, went to bought it in mama shop.
Lesson really sux. I couldn't understand single things that teacher is explaining.
Obviously my O level cannot make it already. What should I do now, brain cracking soon.
Handphone broke down and left me already, dead. zz, what's wrong uh.
Whatever I do it seems to be so unlucky. The comb I bought I lost it when i'm on my way home.
See that, what the hell. I wonder what is happening uh, to cause me to be this suay.
Going to find a black long sleeve clothes for myself, my job needed black -.-
Troublesome, gonna shop with dearest tomorrow to find my clothes :]
Gonna enjoy myself with dearest baby tomorrow, and i'm gonna get myself a new handphone.
I realised something, woman and man in town is so handsome and beautiful.
But in Jurong area, i bo wei gong. Want find a chio and handsome guy also hard. Laughs!
Some guys are really very thickskin, don't know what's wrong with them.
Love crapping with horny stuff, and love to hong girls.
I was like what the hell. They think they really look very handsome uh? -.-
I've totally lost interest in guys eh, no one can really caught my eyes.
Not interested in guys for time being, and definitely I won't fall in love with girl. Lol.
Now a days everyone relationship seems to be so weird. Jiayou to those who are in relationship
Loving a person isn't hard.
Letting go of a person will be harder.
But no matter how, we are able to forget.
It's the time matter guys [:
.Wednesday, March 10, 2010 ' 10:57 PM
Once again I'm still late for school, class no people. Loither awhile then back classroom.
Had English lesson, teacher wants us to write letter writing. I'm the first one to finish it eh :]
I'm so proud, but because I anyhow write. Lol, that's why. Let's see how many marks I'll get.
Had Physic and Chemistry after that, nearly faint. Now I realised, I've no lots knowledge at all.
It seems that I don't understand everything eh, O level I'm dead for sure. 100 percent dead meat!
Class dismissed at 2plus, went to have lunch with Bestie. Didn't managed to finish, no appetite.
Hate training in mrt. Stand until leg really super duper tired, plus super boring! Walao eh.
Met dearest inside mrt, shopped in Jurong Point. Bus down to previous school.
Met Dar, Boyfriend, Mummy & Dear. So long since I last seen Mummy, finally joke with her.
Had dinner at central, crap for awhile and home after that. Finished my Chinese thanks to dear.
She helped me alots, hahaa :] She went off at 10plus from my house.
So hopefully to meet up with my friends again. Takecare guys! < 3
I hate horny guys, I really do. If any of my guys friend happen to be horny.
Just freak off away from my life, I simply don't like entertaing horny guys.
Rather feel really very disgusting. I cannot stand the way your speak with those desperate way.
To me, guys now seems to be damn disgusting lahhs. So what if god make your horny.
Does it mean that your have to react it out? hahaa, that's joke huh.
Anyway, don't wanna waste time about talking this dirty, disgusting topic.
Make me feel so damn uncomfortable only, forget it. I'm gonna stop posting here, nights.
Just ask yourself,
How much you really love me.
You don't even dare to hold a hand which is just beside you.
I'll hackcare everything, since you choose it this way.
.Tuesday, March 9, 2010 ' 10:20 PM
Woke up early but still late for school, but nevermind eh. Class haven even start.
Class only got 2 person, lol. Chinese teacher I first met her, she is super friendly.
Teacher whatever we don't know, explained slowly. This school really super good.
And thanks to Hwa Keong throw my face in class, tell teacher now I just come into class
Then very quiet, he said previously I at secondary school !@#$%^&. Whole class laughed -.-
Walao eh, nevermind. And this class they super dirty. Discussing about sex things, wtf.
But the coversation was really funny lahhs. Laughed until whole face red. Hahaa.
Had POA at 5pm all the way to 7pm plus, today I'm really very very tired. Cannot tahan.
So many subject I still cannot understand, I don't know what to do uh. Cannot cope uh.
Forget it I just try my best can le (: And my stupid stomach bloody pain -.-
Going bathe and sleep after that, gonna hackcare everything. Just want my sleep now.
As for that Jovian, stop asking your friend to text me. I'm not stupid.
I'm not answering your call, not replying your text and obviously i'm hiding from you.
Stop being a fool kept contacting me like a dog, wanna me change attitude towards you.
You change attitude towards your friends first, treated friend as dog?
No wonder you are slowly losting a lot of friends. I guess you really deserved that.
Friends is so hard to find, yet treated them like. Forget it, I don't want say so much.
Making myself very piss off only, don't wanna talk about you. Throw my mood -.-
No man or woman in this world is worth your tears.
The one who is will never make you cry.
.Monday, March 8, 2010 ' 10:01 PM
My dearest tortoise (:
Muackmuack x3.
First day of school. It's so sucks, imagine no friends only Bestie.
Lol, but manage to see a ah beng shuai ge. First sight only, he looked normal also uh.
Studied Mathematics and English for today, abit blur but it's better than my previous class.
The teacher here looked more caring not like previous school, hackcare like hell.
I'll try to study hard although I'm still abit blur of some question. Jiayou! (:
Ended lesson at 1pm, slacked awhile at Cathay. Walked all the way to Plaza Singapura.
Windown shopping for around 1 hour and meet boyfriend at City Hall.
Mrt people is really a lot, squeeze me until jialet. Although I looked short but I'm still human.
They cannot see me uh? Lol, sound of insulting myself huh -.-
And trained all the way down to Paya Leba going for our job interview.
Half way we lost our way, and I called the person for clarifying the place. She's super rude zz.
Managed to find the place with a girl which are going for interview too.
Had my interview, surprising that I'm not like very nervous at all. She's friendly anyway.
Straight away trained back to Jurong Point, very tired. Cannot stand it.
Boyfriend ask the bus driver to ask us alight when the place reach, when he talked to us.
He simply saw 3 of us sleeping, hahaa. His reaction very funny, wahs all sleeping :x Lol.
Bid goodbye to boyfriend when we reached Jurong Point, she took different bus from us.
Talking nonsense with Bestie in bus, thinking of what to URL to change.
Very headache leh, want change a new URL also must rack my head. Brain storming.
Wonder how's tomorrow lesson, gonna stay in school all the way until 6.30. Damn bored.
I hope boy don't lie to me again, I believe you because I hope you will change.
And I believe you had already changed. That's why I have choose to forgive you.
Hope you are very serious this time, don't let me down again and again.
Be a wise man, do the right thing. Be happy, have a better life kays.
I cannot be with you forever, I bet you know the reason. Takecare of yourself.
In a relationship. Faithful, honesty, caring and loving are compulsory.
Stop changing yourself into a different guy from once I know, I just don't really like it.
I hope you can understand what I have to say, hope it can really change you.
I want to see a special you, and a different you too (:
If you ask me who is my dearest baby.
I'll still repeat your name everytime.
Because in my heart, you will never be replace.
.Sunday, March 7, 2010 ' 1:53 AM
Boyfriend's pattern I really cannot stand it eh, she kept on making silly action.
Made me laughed until my mouth very tired. Tears kept coming out, too over. Lol.
Stupid boyfriend, cannot tolerate her at all. Skip all this nonsense.
After work. Home bathe prepared and meet boyfriend at 2.30pm, suppose to be 2pm.
As usual we always delayed time, reached east coast at about 4pm plus.
Plus we alighted at the wrong place, we walked for half an hour to reach Mac. -.-
Spent our time all the way at catching soft toys, our money fly away zz.
But we enjoyed ourself a lots. Manage to know a uncle who worked there, damn friendly one.
My next aim, going back to win a Micky Mouse which weight 20 plus kg.
Boyfriend and I are not able to carry by ourself, super tall. Even taller than us, wth. Tsk!
Went to have steamboat for dinner, treated boyfriend today. And one word to describe.
The steamboat was really very super duper sux eh -.- we only ate chicken and fish.
No more other things, little prawns and hotdog. Paid $36 for this lousy food, kinda heartpain.
Next proceed to our Taiwan Snowflask Icecream, boyfriend's treat :D
Kays. 95 marks for this Icecream, super duper nice. But very ugly so minus marks :x
Went back arcade there, we went to talk nonsense with the uncle again.
11plus walked to wait for cab, did not managed to hire for cab. So long queue, wtf.
Walked like thousand years to reach a bus stop, and like million years for the bus to arrive.
Bus to bedok interchange, went to mrt. And wth, mrt to Joo Koon had closed.
Gave daddy a call, he came down to fetch us at bedok. Super tired, tomorrow still need school.
Thanks parents for coming down to drive us home (: with lots lots loves.
Slept while daddy driving, cannot stand it. And my leg no longer can make it, it's dying soon.
Bathe, now updated blog. I'm off to sleep already, zz schooling at so far tomorrow.
Cannot late for my first day in school, gonna be damn shame! Goodnight readers.
Just fuck off from my life will you? I really don't wish to use vulgar but you forced me.
Talk to me like you like, then offline without telling. Yup, you aren't my who.
But ask yourself the fact that are you being rude? You are really a freak.
I'm stopping myself from using vulgar, so no point scolding you. It's meaningless.
And harmful to myself. Just better fuck off from me alright, kinda fucking hate you.
Just get as far as you can from me, stop msn-ing me, stop calling me & lastly stop texting me.
The moment I mention your name or sees you, it really irks me. -.- sorry to say that.
This red sentence is meant for someone who names started with F.
I'm leaving.
Thanks for being my past.
And I'll remember you hard.
.Saturday, March 6, 2010 ' 11:03 PM
Ice-cream that we fry (:
I know it looks ugly somehow -.-
Outing with Pearlyn today, it had been such a long time I last went out with her.
Trained down to Marina Square. And troublesome her is finding a place to have her lunch.
Keep walking round and round, she cannot decide what to have for her lunch. Tsk!
End up went to Yuki Yaki to have steamboat for lunch, her treat. And fry ice cream.
Super nice kays, but eat until very sian. Lol, tomorrow going steamboat with boyfriend again.
If I don't grow fat is fake one, zz. Gonna reduce my bloody fats after tomorrow le.
Fry ice cream super nice kays! We are running out of time. So I suggested we mix everything.
Added, green tea icecream, yam icecream, vanilla icecream & lastly, durian icecream. Lol.
Eat until want vomit, although mixed up isn't that disgusting lahhs. But still we couldn't finish it.
After eating, Pearlyn stomach pain! Hahaa, confirm stiring inside her stomach.
Thanks to my suggestion, and I'm having my stomachache now too. Zz, pekche.
Accompany her arcade, she managed to catch herself a hello kitty after spending $39.
Trained to Jurong Point after everything, she accompany me to wait for my parents to come.
And she went off le, overall enjoyed alot with her. Laughed non - stop. Tsk!
With friends, my smile will never failed to be shown. Dinner at Taman Jurong, very full -.-
Someone asked me what's love, I honestly don't know how to answer them.
Although I have walked a very long relationship before.
I still don't know what's love, and I won't want to love anyone too.
Now I realise, for those couples who have walked very long, they tend to hackcare.
If this is the way so what for continue walking, and wasting time with each other?
If anyone prepare to walk into a relationship, think whether will your last.
And can stand each other, and feeling will never fade? I admit, I saw couples I will jealous.
But so how, what can I said? Forget it, don't mention relationship. It sux to the core. -.-
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
If you still love me,
You wouldn't have treated me so cold.
