.Friday, July 30, 2010 ' 12:15 PM
Enough is really enough.
My patient of limit reached.
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5 years of dumbness, 5 years of idiot, 5 years of stupid-ness. it's really enough.
whatever i done to You in the past, You returned me 5 times.
You are not enough, your lies, your whatever. Did i forgive You?
today is the last second day of July, it's enough for me to let go.
like what i said, no point holding on to a person which heart is not there.
i decided to change, by continue blogging :] well, this is my blog.
no readers coming in im still fine with it. I'll continue to blog as i wish.
my dumbness limit have finally really up, saying goodbye. Im serious this time.
no matter how much i cherish.
You wouldnt give me a chance to do so.
whatever i done to You in the past, You returned me 5 times.
You are not enough, your lies, your whatever. Did i forgive You?
today is the last second day of July, it's enough for me to let go.
like what i said, no point holding on to a person which heart is not there.
i decided to change, by continue blogging :] well, this is my blog.
no readers coming in im still fine with it. I'll continue to blog as i wish.
my dumbness limit have finally really up, saying goodbye. Im serious this time.
no matter how much i cherish.
You wouldnt give me a chance to do so.
.Monday, July 26, 2010 ' 10:29 PM
There is nothing i can do
To stop the hatred from coming.
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at this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don't notice,
but just look back over the past year and You will realize everything has.
people You thought were going to be there forever they aren't.
and people You never imagined You had been speaking to are now some
of your closest friends. Life makes the little sense, and the more we grow
the less it make. So make the most of now, before it all changes once again,
because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.
those people used to be with me all went missing, i swear.
the one who said willing to be my listeners, ended up didnt reply my text.
the one who said gonna be 24/7 with me went missing with another people.
the one who said anything i can look for her, went mia with the one who went missing too.
while the one who hate me the most became much more better with me.
what makes everything changed? Is the people surrounding caused it.
i use my finger to cross my heart that i will let all of your go.
no matter how many plans we make or steps we follow,
we never know how our day's going to end up.
we prefer to know, of course, what curveball will be thrown our way;
but it's the accidents that always turn out to be the most interesting
parts of our days, of life.
Life isn't about how many people call You and it's not about who you've
dated, are dating, or haven date at all. it's not about grades, money, clothes
or colleges that accept You or not. Life isn't about if You have lots of friends,
or if You are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted You are.
Life just isn't about that, but life is about who You love, who You hurt.
it's about how You feel about yourself, it's about trust, happiness & compassion.
life is about avoiding jealously, overcoming ignorance, & building confidence.
most of all, it's about living your life to touch someone's else.
it's a lot to admit than im mad,
than to admit that im hurt & disappointed.
it should be 1 year 10 months today ;
but just look back over the past year and You will realize everything has.
people You thought were going to be there forever they aren't.
and people You never imagined You had been speaking to are now some
of your closest friends. Life makes the little sense, and the more we grow
the less it make. So make the most of now, before it all changes once again,
because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.
those people used to be with me all went missing, i swear.
the one who said willing to be my listeners, ended up didnt reply my text.
the one who said gonna be 24/7 with me went missing with another people.
the one who said anything i can look for her, went mia with the one who went missing too.
while the one who hate me the most became much more better with me.
what makes everything changed? Is the people surrounding caused it.
i use my finger to cross my heart that i will let all of your go.
no matter how many plans we make or steps we follow,
we never know how our day's going to end up.
we prefer to know, of course, what curveball will be thrown our way;
but it's the accidents that always turn out to be the most interesting
parts of our days, of life.
Life isn't about how many people call You and it's not about who you've
dated, are dating, or haven date at all. it's not about grades, money, clothes
or colleges that accept You or not. Life isn't about if You have lots of friends,
or if You are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted You are.
Life just isn't about that, but life is about who You love, who You hurt.
it's about how You feel about yourself, it's about trust, happiness & compassion.
life is about avoiding jealously, overcoming ignorance, & building confidence.
most of all, it's about living your life to touch someone's else.
it's a lot to admit than im mad,
than to admit that im hurt & disappointed.
it should be 1 year 10 months today ;
.Sunday, July 25, 2010 ' 10:47 PM
You will never know how strong You are
Until being strong is the only choice You have.
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Until being strong is the only choice You have.
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Many many days have passed, i never thought things will ended up in this way.
how much im fighting back for it, how much tears did i drop to hold back.
how much can i still do to search back our past? We're no longer there.
You are much more closer with someone else, i'll let the person to take over me.
i declared i really given up, the pain is numb now & i'll let it be forever.
waiting is easy. You know what's hard?
realizing that the one You are waiting for is not coming back anymore.
when im older, and my child asks me who is my true love was,
i don't want to take out an old photo album. I want to be able to point
across the room and say ' He's right over there'.
love is handing someone a gun
and letting it point to your head,
believing that he won't pull the trigger.
how much im fighting back for it, how much tears did i drop to hold back.
how much can i still do to search back our past? We're no longer there.
You are much more closer with someone else, i'll let the person to take over me.
i declared i really given up, the pain is numb now & i'll let it be forever.
waiting is easy. You know what's hard?
realizing that the one You are waiting for is not coming back anymore.
when im older, and my child asks me who is my true love was,
i don't want to take out an old photo album. I want to be able to point
across the room and say ' He's right over there'.
love is handing someone a gun
and letting it point to your head,
believing that he won't pull the trigger.
.Tuesday, July 20, 2010 ' 5:44 PM
Everytime i see You, there's something about You
That makes me want to kiss You. Something about You
That makes me want to just hold on You tight,
And never ever let go.
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i miss texting You everyday, how close we were. Something changed,
and it scares me that we won't be able to go back to what we were.
i just want You to hold me in your arms, and tell me that everything will be okay.
and that You love me because i miss You so much that it hurts.
i don't like to hear words come out from your mouth like this girl pretty, not bad.
i don't like You to sweet talk with any girls, that really double stabbing into me.
i don't like everything but i couldn't control it. Letting the pain to be continued.
anyway living in this world is to live for ourself, but not others.
just hope You will give me more attention, share my burden, listen to me.
lend me your shoulder when my mood was really very low.
all i left was just You but no more others, without You life was really meaningless.
although things weren't the same anymore but i still hope things won't change even worse.
the truth is if i could be with anyone, it had still be You. I've no regrets.
see if your boyfriend is good ;
1) If he had a car, he will personally open the car door for You.
2) during bus, if left only one sit. He'll ask You to sit down.
3) if bus there's a lot of sit, he shall give You the privilege to sit first.
4) while in mrt, as a gentleman guy should allow girl to sit if there's a space.
5) while having lunch/dinner in hawker centre, will he help You buy food?
6) will he send You home after the whole day dating?
let me be the one calls You baby all the time.
surely You can take some comfort knowing that You're mine.
last min edit - it's time for me to say goodbye to You, i hate people flirting behind me - 10.51pm.
and it scares me that we won't be able to go back to what we were.
i just want You to hold me in your arms, and tell me that everything will be okay.
and that You love me because i miss You so much that it hurts.
i don't like to hear words come out from your mouth like this girl pretty, not bad.
i don't like You to sweet talk with any girls, that really double stabbing into me.
i don't like everything but i couldn't control it. Letting the pain to be continued.
anyway living in this world is to live for ourself, but not others.
just hope You will give me more attention, share my burden, listen to me.
lend me your shoulder when my mood was really very low.
all i left was just You but no more others, without You life was really meaningless.
although things weren't the same anymore but i still hope things won't change even worse.
the truth is if i could be with anyone, it had still be You. I've no regrets.
see if your boyfriend is good ;
1) If he had a car, he will personally open the car door for You.
2) during bus, if left only one sit. He'll ask You to sit down.
3) if bus there's a lot of sit, he shall give You the privilege to sit first.
4) while in mrt, as a gentleman guy should allow girl to sit if there's a space.
5) while having lunch/dinner in hawker centre, will he help You buy food?
6) will he send You home after the whole day dating?
let me be the one calls You baby all the time.
surely You can take some comfort knowing that You're mine.
last min edit - it's time for me to say goodbye to You, i hate people flirting behind me - 10.51pm.
.Saturday, July 17, 2010 ' 11:59 PM
Just because You know my name
Doesn't mean You know my game ;
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Happy birthday to my dearest Father Ytd, i love him tons :]
went Sakura for dinner. My treat to whole family, precious dad is very happy.
seeing family member happy and that really ease my heart the most.
this few days i have been thinking whether to let go or to hold back.
my mind have given me the answer, im gonna follow my own thinking.
now a days Christine take things very lightly already because and why?
because she is really very very very tired this time, it's more than my own limit already.
im gonna let go everything and free myself in the air ; therefore life will be better.
had my checkup today, wow wow the x-ray clothes i love the most :X
so sexy one, hahaa. Imagine i went checkup alone & how frighten i am? No one knows.
mum said im very brave, so yeah thanks. Show them that i can be very independent on my own.
don't want them to worry about me anymore, i can and i have matured Kays!
i live in this world for like 17 years, & it's the first time i went to see doctor on my own.
wow, i feel very happy although im alone uh (: had Japanese food for dinner again.
outing with bestie today, isn't really very enjoying maybe because of the boring place we went.
had my fringe cut, one word to describe ; terrible -'-
how much i feel like hugging You now, how much i feel like kissing on your lips.
how much i feel like seeing You now, how much i feel like holding onto your hands.
how much i miss You now, how much i feel like watching You making cute faces.
how much i want to see You acting cute infront of me and made me wanna sayang You.
how much i wanna see You smiling with your handsome face.
no matter how much i feel, i want and i miss, currently im unable to see it.
i wanna be the girl who makes your bad days better, the one that makes You say ;
' my life have changed since i met You ' & i wanna be the girl that will always be there for You.
i love it when i hear the lyrics
that totally apply to my current situation.
went Sakura for dinner. My treat to whole family, precious dad is very happy.
seeing family member happy and that really ease my heart the most.
this few days i have been thinking whether to let go or to hold back.
my mind have given me the answer, im gonna follow my own thinking.
now a days Christine take things very lightly already because and why?
because she is really very very very tired this time, it's more than my own limit already.
im gonna let go everything and free myself in the air ; therefore life will be better.
had my checkup today, wow wow the x-ray clothes i love the most :X
so sexy one, hahaa. Imagine i went checkup alone & how frighten i am? No one knows.
mum said im very brave, so yeah thanks. Show them that i can be very independent on my own.
don't want them to worry about me anymore, i can and i have matured Kays!
i live in this world for like 17 years, & it's the first time i went to see doctor on my own.
wow, i feel very happy although im alone uh (: had Japanese food for dinner again.
outing with bestie today, isn't really very enjoying maybe because of the boring place we went.
had my fringe cut, one word to describe ; terrible -'-
how much i feel like hugging You now, how much i feel like kissing on your lips.
how much i feel like seeing You now, how much i feel like holding onto your hands.
how much i miss You now, how much i feel like watching You making cute faces.
how much i want to see You acting cute infront of me and made me wanna sayang You.
how much i wanna see You smiling with your handsome face.
no matter how much i feel, i want and i miss, currently im unable to see it.
i wanna be the girl who makes your bad days better, the one that makes You say ;
' my life have changed since i met You ' & i wanna be the girl that will always be there for You.
i love it when i hear the lyrics
that totally apply to my current situation.
.Thursday, July 15, 2010 ' 10:16 PM
If im the only girl that You see,
You wouldn't take a look at other girls.
isn't this tattoo a pretty and cute one :] I kinda love it, but im not gonna have myself tattoo.
im just so gonna view and peep and see. It's kinda omggomgg, i love it yeah.
geisha rocks! But only cartoon one rocks more :X Cause i simply love cute things.
alright, life is getting dontknow more meaningful or more meaningless.
just hope gonna earn moremore money and fly to taiwan soon.
back with bags and bags of things in my hand, in my bags.
so gonna work hard and don't give up half way. Because family needs me (:
im off to bed soon, short post for today. Im kinda tired and sick of something.
don't fucking do things behind me
that will made me kill You :]
i mean what i said, it do hurt.
.Wednesday, July 14, 2010 ' 12:45 PM
In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities ;
im back! Currently having lunch, mum's fried rice and added love inside :X
Gonna continue work after my lunch ): someone complained that im fierce, not friendly.
lol. so what if i smile to everyone? i hate smiling to those who don't return smile.
it makes me feel like im smiling to the air and look so damn retarded.
it's okay like how You wanna see me as, it's my own life i won't bother how You look at me.
to me You aren't friendly too anyway lahhs.
As for some jerks, You promised to takecare of him for me.
ended up You are one of them who disturbed him, i shouldn't have trust You from the start.
let me make this clear, if You are getting more and more over.
i won't let You off and i fucking mean it, i won't let You disturb him because
You are nothing to him and me :] I will never trust You again, and oh yeah.
from the start i never believe single words that You said, don't be so naive and dua pao.
You are the one being that fucking bloody fool that makes You think that i believed You.
stupid fucking dumb idiotic fellow, bloody hell. Make my blood boil only.
i won't let You disturb him because his my precious and everything, i dare You again.
sorry readers for the rough post. Just couldn't take it but to vent out (:
come live inside my heart
no pay & no rent.
Gonna continue work after my lunch ): someone complained that im fierce, not friendly.
lol. so what if i smile to everyone? i hate smiling to those who don't return smile.
it makes me feel like im smiling to the air and look so damn retarded.
it's okay like how You wanna see me as, it's my own life i won't bother how You look at me.
to me You aren't friendly too anyway lahhs.
As for some jerks, You promised to takecare of him for me.
ended up You are one of them who disturbed him, i shouldn't have trust You from the start.
let me make this clear, if You are getting more and more over.
i won't let You off and i fucking mean it, i won't let You disturb him because
You are nothing to him and me :] I will never trust You again, and oh yeah.
from the start i never believe single words that You said, don't be so naive and dua pao.
You are the one being that fucking bloody fool that makes You think that i believed You.
stupid fucking dumb idiotic fellow, bloody hell. Make my blood boil only.
i won't let You disturb him because his my precious and everything, i dare You again.
sorry readers for the rough post. Just couldn't take it but to vent out (:
come live inside my heart
no pay & no rent.
.Saturday, July 10, 2010 ' 11:59 PM
Life is the flower for which love is the honey.
Trying to get my life back on track.
love this shirt and it's very expensive :]
im not gonna bother to those who don't give a damn to bother.
i wouldnt waste my time thinking so much from now on.
after hearing so much about friendship, i was totally very numb now.
just wanna have a simple and peaceful life and that's it.
people sure have ups and downs, people come and go.
it isn't very special or what so ever anymore. My life, i will love and cherish it.
gonna change a new Christine real soon. A one that will be remembered hard by people.
friendship is looking inside your heart,
not to find a face or a name, the feeling that comes with it
the feeling of being truly accepted and love,
both on the outside and inside.
it is an invisible bond that cannot be broken no matter how many hits it takes,
it's like a scraped knee, it drys, scabs, flakes and heals,
and becomes stronger. Leaving only a scar - a memory.
memories that we look upon and laugh about.
im not gonna bother to those who don't give a damn to bother.
i wouldnt waste my time thinking so much from now on.
after hearing so much about friendship, i was totally very numb now.
just wanna have a simple and peaceful life and that's it.
people sure have ups and downs, people come and go.
it isn't very special or what so ever anymore. My life, i will love and cherish it.
gonna change a new Christine real soon. A one that will be remembered hard by people.
friendship is looking inside your heart,
not to find a face or a name, the feeling that comes with it
the feeling of being truly accepted and love,
both on the outside and inside.
it is an invisible bond that cannot be broken no matter how many hits it takes,
it's like a scraped knee, it drys, scabs, flakes and heals,
and becomes stronger. Leaving only a scar - a memory.
memories that we look upon and laugh about.
anything will give up its secrets if You love it enough.
not only have i found that when i talk to the little flower
or to the peanut they will give up their secrets,
but i have found that when i silently commune with people
they give up their secrets also. If You love them enough.
not only have i found that when i talk to the little flower
or to the peanut they will give up their secrets,
but i have found that when i silently commune with people
they give up their secrets also. If You love them enough.
.Thursday, July 8, 2010 ' 8:32 PM
No matter how much i try,
It's never enough to You.
♥ Happy 4th Month Anniversary.
3th March 2010.
we knew each other for more than 5 years, how many ups and downs did we go through?
after this 5 years. Whatever i did, it never touches You at all.
i realised it really never. Freedom is all You want, your friends are getting more.
while my friend is getting even lesser. Just return a wishing it seems to be so hard?
less than 5 min You couldn't even spare for me, if that's the case.
i really see no point anymore. as You wish and as You like.
this time i leave, i will never ever turn my head back again.
just a very typical person. Life's ahead perhaps will be a better one.
if there's the end of the story after 5 years?
i hope You will exchange me for another friend.
after this 5 years. Whatever i did, it never touches You at all.
i realised it really never. Freedom is all You want, your friends are getting more.
while my friend is getting even lesser. Just return a wishing it seems to be so hard?
less than 5 min You couldn't even spare for me, if that's the case.
i really see no point anymore. as You wish and as You like.
this time i leave, i will never ever turn my head back again.
just a very typical person. Life's ahead perhaps will be a better one.
if there's the end of the story after 5 years?
i hope You will exchange me for another friend.
.Tuesday, July 6, 2010 ' 10:19 PM
After all, what was more important, in the end, than love?
someone said im stupid and i admit that i am.
stop scolding me stupid, i know i am.
but can You just show me some respect, because You are directly shooting my parents
for giving birth a stupid girl like me and anyway thanks for your comments.
im all along stupid, it's not too late for You to know yeah.
and for your information im a human but not a dog, thanks.
a very small degree of hope is sufficient
to cause the birth of love.
stop scolding me stupid, i know i am.
but can You just show me some respect, because You are directly shooting my parents
for giving birth a stupid girl like me and anyway thanks for your comments.
im all along stupid, it's not too late for You to know yeah.
and for your information im a human but not a dog, thanks.
a very small degree of hope is sufficient
to cause the birth of love.
.Monday, July 5, 2010 ' 9:54 PM
I promise to Love You forever,
Every single day of forever.
Hellooooo readers ]: Perhaps your are wondering why did i put a sad face Yeah?
because since one month ago i never really understand what's laughter all about.
1 week, only one day i will be laughing. Rest of the 6 days i guess im all along lonely.
what is friends for? Think back the past, friends i needed 10 fingers to count.
now less than 5 fingers i can simply count how many friends i have left.
everyday having headache, while having headache im thinking of so many things.
im just simply very fucking stressup, looking forward for next friday pub.
gonna drink drank drunk and forget whatever things, perhaps its just one day of forgetting
i will still choose to have it, rather than 12 hours thinking of so many things.
i was fucking just so stress up but who was there for me, hahaha there's no one.
all busy doing own things, who can i turn to? Yeah it's only myself.
yesterday my fucking bone is aching again, mum was beside me helping me to rub.
thanks mummy, always my bones pain. You will be there to apply medical oil on me.
no matter You are very tired anot, You will never fail to standby me.
bone ache till im unable to sleep, due to i was really very very tired.
although it hurts i still force myself to sleep because i still have work today.
and yeah, i was lost on my way to work -.- walked like 2.4km couldnt find my work place.
called daddy for help, daddy chiong out from office just to bring me back to work.
thanks daddy, if not my leg is really gonna broke down immediately already.
actually i didnt lost my way is that i walked too much over my office, it's super over!
work was not very fine one, i couldnt understand and very hard to communicate with
my colleague. Our language doesn't match at all, one duck one chicken.
had one bun for lunch, head was really bursting and very stress about work and other private things.
All the pain im going through who really understand it?
when im feeling very low, how much i need You by my side.
either You are busy with your things or hackcare.
in the past You say i wasn't auto at all and full of alot of things.
i changed. I changed to become more auto so that we would then last.
things don't change, i trust You i really do. Even i knew or saw anything
i still forgive You, why? You can simply ask yourself this question.
3 words to describe it because [ i love You ] It's just simple as that.
i texted, i called, i do everything what i can do.
sometime no reply, no answer. I was waiting for You to tag my blog.
but You didn't. But You tag others, i won't angry. Erm, yeah this is part of life bah.
due to something i gtg now, i seldom write so long already so yeah :]
im tearing for the moment, goodnight guys., Fattywhale love everyone!
how i wish everything
always turn out the way i want ;
because since one month ago i never really understand what's laughter all about.
1 week, only one day i will be laughing. Rest of the 6 days i guess im all along lonely.
what is friends for? Think back the past, friends i needed 10 fingers to count.
now less than 5 fingers i can simply count how many friends i have left.
everyday having headache, while having headache im thinking of so many things.
im just simply very fucking stressup, looking forward for next friday pub.
gonna drink drank drunk and forget whatever things, perhaps its just one day of forgetting
i will still choose to have it, rather than 12 hours thinking of so many things.
i was fucking just so stress up but who was there for me, hahaha there's no one.
all busy doing own things, who can i turn to? Yeah it's only myself.
yesterday my fucking bone is aching again, mum was beside me helping me to rub.
thanks mummy, always my bones pain. You will be there to apply medical oil on me.
no matter You are very tired anot, You will never fail to standby me.
bone ache till im unable to sleep, due to i was really very very tired.
although it hurts i still force myself to sleep because i still have work today.
and yeah, i was lost on my way to work -.- walked like 2.4km couldnt find my work place.
called daddy for help, daddy chiong out from office just to bring me back to work.
thanks daddy, if not my leg is really gonna broke down immediately already.
actually i didnt lost my way is that i walked too much over my office, it's super over!
work was not very fine one, i couldnt understand and very hard to communicate with
my colleague. Our language doesn't match at all, one duck one chicken.
had one bun for lunch, head was really bursting and very stress about work and other private things.
All the pain im going through who really understand it?
when im feeling very low, how much i need You by my side.
either You are busy with your things or hackcare.
in the past You say i wasn't auto at all and full of alot of things.
i changed. I changed to become more auto so that we would then last.
things don't change, i trust You i really do. Even i knew or saw anything
i still forgive You, why? You can simply ask yourself this question.
3 words to describe it because [ i love You ] It's just simple as that.
i texted, i called, i do everything what i can do.
sometime no reply, no answer. I was waiting for You to tag my blog.
but You didn't. But You tag others, i won't angry. Erm, yeah this is part of life bah.
due to something i gtg now, i seldom write so long already so yeah :]
im tearing for the moment, goodnight guys., Fattywhale love everyone!
how i wish everything
always turn out the way i want ;
.Saturday, July 3, 2010 ' 11:35 PM
You are my life.
You're the only thing it would hurt to lose.
now a days life was much much different.
seldom saw my friends, somehow not even one.
seldom contact with them too, only sometime we does.
while my baby he doesn't even bother to find me.
all he does is maple, facebook and work.
im totally transparent in life, what the hack.
as for me everyday same routine, work, eat, tv, com and sleep.
sometime i just need someone to give me a little attention and im happy le.
but none, baby sometime i just need You to be with me.
some text also will do, i don't mind You mapling or what.
at least show me some concern will You? Life's seriously sux!
wanna thanks parents for buying me one high heels and one cover shoes.
wanted to buy dress for work too, but ended up couldn't find any.
it's either im too fat or im too short. Oh please, can i get rid some of my fats?
im so extremely fat like hell :] hopeless Christine! Eat more, eat more.
gonna go onto diet soon. If no diet, no pretty dress, no pretty figure ):
erm oh yeah can god make me grow abit taller will do? Im like really so short -.-
pull me up, stretch me! Lol. I knew its just impossible huh.
if life with You was hurtful
i will still choose You,
because i really do Love You.
but You just never know how hurtful am i.
seldom saw my friends, somehow not even one.
seldom contact with them too, only sometime we does.
while my baby he doesn't even bother to find me.
all he does is maple, facebook and work.
im totally transparent in life, what the hack.
as for me everyday same routine, work, eat, tv, com and sleep.
sometime i just need someone to give me a little attention and im happy le.
but none, baby sometime i just need You to be with me.
some text also will do, i don't mind You mapling or what.
at least show me some concern will You? Life's seriously sux!
wanna thanks parents for buying me one high heels and one cover shoes.
wanted to buy dress for work too, but ended up couldn't find any.
it's either im too fat or im too short. Oh please, can i get rid some of my fats?
im so extremely fat like hell :] hopeless Christine! Eat more, eat more.
gonna go onto diet soon. If no diet, no pretty dress, no pretty figure ):
erm oh yeah can god make me grow abit taller will do? Im like really so short -.-
pull me up, stretch me! Lol. I knew its just impossible huh.
if life with You was hurtful
i will still choose You,
because i really do Love You.
but You just never know how hurtful am i.
