.Wednesday, September 30, 2009 ' 1:47 AM
Kept sleeping in the classroom when teacher asked us to revise.
My migraine is getting worst, feel like vomiting and fainting at any moment D;
No matter what, I have to finish my N level first (; Studies comes first!
After recess I teared in the classroom, thinking of something, skipped.
Lifeskill, Mr Chong prepared a small graduation party for us.
He went to find our photo when we are in secondary 1, those innocent face.
Unfortunately his unable to find my photo, or else i'll be so paiseh larhs ;x
He wrote cards for each and everyone of us and said those touching words.
Jubellina and I teared, I regretted not letting Mr Chong to know me more.
Dismissed from school, slacked and home sweet home (;
Things that I wanted to say to Mr Chong ;
Thanks you for being such a great teacher towards our class,
Enduring our nonsense and craps all along.
You never gave up our class no matter how naughty are we.
Infact, you still continue to encouraged us and do what you can for us.
When we are taking social studies N level, you spent so much time to print those
Social studies notes for us to study, and wanted us to pass with flying colours.
I wanted to say sorry to you, in the past I used to send you those stupid message
That I did not know it would hurt you, and I insisted of not communicating with you.
After I leave Juying Secondary, I'll never forget you no matter what.
You're the teacher that treated our class the best, you'll always be in our heart (;
The stress is killing me, all I do is think, about the past.
The future, the present, what happened, why they happened?
Will things get better? The whole world is moving.
And I seem stuck in my place, I can't go back. And change things.
Can't move forward, being stuck here is slowly killing me.
Thoughts are rushing through my brain, some meaningless.
Some stupid, some disturbing. I can't seem to stop them.
It's life coursing through my veins? Heartbeat? Air? Vision?
Can I tell? Vision blurry, Somewhat yes.
Mortal flurry, living test. Black out emotionally.
It's loneliness going through my brain. Feelings? Care? Tearful?
Can I yell? Stressful Scurry and begging rest.
Clumps of hair are falling off my head, life has no meaning.
♥
Everything have changed.
I feel like avoiding you all the time.
Give me some days to consider should we remain as couple.
Jiayou for your coming N level.
It Is Impossible For A Man To Learn,
What He Thinks He Already Knows.