.Friday, October 2, 2009 ' 2:29 AM
Reached school @ 7.30am, today purposely late for school.
But too bad, no punishment leh? I wanted to have punishment!
Because next week will be our last week in school, and N level cannot be late.
I wanted to have the last punishment of walking round the field, -'-
Went back class, do Maths homework and chatted with classmates.
Recess time, had our breakfast together. It might be our last gathering already D;
I really miss those time in this school, studied for 4 years in this school.
Wanted us to leave, it will be quite uncomfortable but no choice.
Reflection period, Mr Chong wanted us to write an essay about,
' What will I miss when I leave Juying Secondary School '?
Wrote full page of it, and I've apologised to Mr Chong in the letter (;
I feel rather better now, alright readers! I'm so stress and tired now!
It doesn't hurt to feel pain, but pain to know others are hurt.
And that it's all caused me. But why did I have to cause it?
And why did you have to make me cry?
Why did I have to break myself because of it?
And why did you have to do it? You broke me and just left my shell.
Why am I even here? I'm still alone just like you said.
I'm still hurt, I'm still and outsider.
Dumb, stupid freak. I wasn't like others I knew that long ago.
I was not like anyone else. Because I couldn't make something right.
Stupid freak! Who made me think so about myself?
I made my think so, I was always the problem.
Or was that what you made me? Made me like this?
Nothing seems to change, I know now this is who I really am.
♥
I've been too much.
Having a boyfriend is suppose to love,
And you are suppose to love me.
Then when you stop caring,
And why should i care?
When You Stead With A Person Longer,
You Might Eventually Lost Feelings For The Person
For A Period Of Time As You And Him Are Together For Long
And You Would Have Burden In Both Hearts.
You Will Find Out That You Are Actually Relying On Him,
So Even If You Break With Him.
It Won't Be Wholeheartly.