♥ It doesn't last forever.

.Wednesday, December 30, 2009 ' 9:30 AM

It was like finally I went out with Bestie again (;
She meet me under my void deck, went ri ben chun to have buffet high tea.
I swear we both eat a lot okay, ate until our stomach was really bloated up.
Bestie's treat today, bus down to Jurong Point. Bought my clothes at Purpur.
I promise I will love this clothes and takecare of it, it's so pretty nice!
Trained down to Bugis after that, went to buy movie ticket again.
It's the 3rd time I am watching Alvin & the Chipmunk, it's so funny and cute. I love Theodore.
Shopped at Bugis street, accompany Bestie to buy her stuff.
And I bought her a MGL shorts as her belated birthday present.
Went to buy my slippers at M)phosis, I love it lah (;
Show ended, went back Bugis street. Bestie bought herself and I a jacket.
And I swear, I will takecare of this jacket too. My dream jacket.
Thanks Bestie for buying and treating me so many things, including the movie.
I promise, I will treat You back one day alright ;D

Trained back to Jurong Point, on the way chatted with Bestie lots lots.
We shared our sadness story and all, and Bestie remember that when You need someone.
I will be there to lend You a shoulder, ear will be there to listen your needs.
Since years ago, I have promised to be there. Therefore I will.
Don't think too much alright, Will be fine after some day! (;
I heart my Bestie, and lastly remember life is really important.

If I say I need You,
Will You be there?

.Tuesday, December 29, 2009 ' 8:54 AM

Happy 11th Birthday To My Dearest Meimei (;

& of course I heart her.

Treated meimei and her friend for movie , popcorn.
And home after that, daddy treat to dinner. Crab leh (; Super nice.
I swear I ate alot until someone cannot tolerate me, and he claims that I am becoming fatter!
Oh dear! Shorts getting tighter, shirt getting tighter too D;
So bad lah, I really have to reduce and look out for my diet already.
Someone claims that I wanted to look out for my diet, but few month le. Yet getting fatter D;
Haiyo, if the course I want really cannot go in. I will find a job and earn more money
To get myself a private school lah, if not I will sure having a no future life.
This few days, mood isn't good. Temper flared up very easily, aiyo! !@#$%^&.

All my dear fellow friends out there.
No matter where are your, schooling, working, slacking.
Please remember me nehs D; Jio me out when You all are free.
Schooling don't forget me leh, haish.
Wondering if friends are studying, what should I do at home?
Rot, sleep, eat, computer, shopping? Arghhh.
Haiyo. God bless me, to find a better job soon. Or else, I will sure go berserk.

Life without friend will be extremely bored.
Life without family member will be extremely loney.
Life without money will be extremely miserable.
Life with boyfriend will be extremely pathetic.
Life with shopping will be extremely outdated.
Life without alot of things we cannot survive, why must life have so much ups and downs?

No matter who You are,
& Where You are.
You will find a place and statue for yourself (;

.Monday, December 28, 2009 ' 3:03 PM

Now I realised, when he start falling in love with this game.
He no longer love me, because he will never reply my message whenever I messaged him.
Plus when I called him and talked to him, he reply things which doesn't link ;D
And so I don't see a point (; Girls out there, open big eyes to see how are your boyfriend.
I had chosen the wrong one from the very start, isn't too late to regret.

Anyway, the course I chosen is unsuccessful because the course was full already.
My goodness, should I stop studying and start working from now on?
But I want a better future, I will try to appeal and see how it goes ba.
Really regret didn't study hard, but no choice. It's all too late lah.
Sian sian sian, what should I do now? Rottening, rottening.
Anyway, going out later ba. Everyday quarrel quarrel.
I have super fucking enough of it, friends? Stead? Fucking sick.
I don't mind losing all at one time, i rather be alone to quarrel with people.
I don't see a need for me to have them, just leave me if your don't like it.
And seriously, I don't fucking mind. I wonder why does he treated me and his
Previous girlfriend so differently, treated her like as if she is a gold.
But me,? Just mud from the ground. I want to change to another Christine.

Whatever You like, I won't give You straight. Mostly will surprised You with it.
Wake You up every morning when we are going to school.
Help You with things which You needed help.
Scold You when You did something wrong. Love You no matter how You treated me.
When I was leaving You. You never stopped me. Never even holding me back.
From now on, I will live my life without You. I shall earse everything about You.
Sometimes I wondered, whatever I do for You still not enough?
Whenever I need You, You don't simply show me a little concern.
I will never change my mind of breaking up with You.
Takecare my boy, this is my last time calling You baby.
And, I really love You just that. I can no longer tolerate You (;
Anyway, all the best being a chef and study hard for your future. Goodluck!

You made me fall in with love You.
And You took a knife to stab me.
Is all this love?
It's just all puppy love.

.Sunday, December 27, 2009 ' 7:45 AM

Hey yo readers! I'm free now, that's why I am blogging over here!
Went to work in the morning, I'm really super tired okay. I swear.
After work, went Boyfriend's house. Had lunch and television programme with her.
Lied on her net, and accidentally just fall asleep (; So comfortable lah.
And seriously it's more comfortable than by lying on the bed okay.
Woke up at 4pm, shake her to ask her wake up. Her eyes is looking at me, but she falls back.
Went toilet and saw Boyfriend's ah gong opening the gate and I just ran out without
Anyone noticing me ;x Haha, messaged Boyfriend and telling her I've left.
And she said I never told her, walao! I did shake her alright. She said she was half asleep.
Oh my god, looked totally like those pig in the zoo. She's even worst.
Home, bathe and computer for the whole day lah. Sleeping soon somehow.
Chatting with Boyfriend in msn (; With her, my life isn't bored at all!
But she can be really very very irritating leh ;x

It's over! I love You so much, but it didn't work out.
I'm like finally strong enough. To say aloud that I'm tired of this stuff.
I had You once, and I lost You again. I want You back, but it's all fate.
You tell me I'm too sensitive because I care too much.
You just don't care enough, You might not even care at all.
Last night You tore my heart apart. And I will hate You for period (;

♥
Just tell me You no longer love me and just get lost.
After 23 hours then You decide to look up for me.
What are all this! How much do I still mean to You.
Well, boy. I won't bother and disturb your life too much already (;
I don't want to be tied down by a meaningless love.
This isn't real love, it's just a puppy love.
I'll find my own life (; And do whatever I want.
I won't bother your things, and You have no right to bother my things.
!@#$%^&*!@#%&*!@. Let it go ~

Strength to get through.
The time You left.

.Saturday, December 26, 2009 ' 8:49 AM

Happy Birthday To Popo ;D

Happy 1 Year 3 Month Anniversary To Baby And I (;

It had been a long time since I last posted my blog.

In love with the movie of ' Hi My Sweetheart '.

Such a touching movie that made my tears dropped.

Anyway, yesterday went Orchard with Baby, Boyfriend and Zhenyuan to watch movie.

Alvin and the Chipsmunk (; Was super interesting and funny.

The whole cinema was in a laughter mode, (; Never ever regret watching this movie!

Alright, I'm so lazy to post my blog already. When I am really free, I will be back then.

♥

Baby.

Hmm, thanks for still concerning me when we are outside.

Takecare of yourself whenever You are out with friends.

Nothing much to say, lastly.

Happy 1 Year 3 Month Anniversary (;

Cherish whatever You have,

They might leave You Someday.

.Thursday, December 17, 2009 ' 6:53 AM

Isn't It Cute!? (;

Haiyoo! It's my last day working in the factory today D;
So unwilling to leave, those auntie and uncle suddenly became so good.
Gave present to three uncles, shared with boyfriend of course.
One uncle gave us a lovely pet, which will move forward and backward.
Super cute lah, boyfriend and I loved it and smiling non-stop when we recieved it.
Aunties bought fruits for us to eat, walked under the rain just to buy snack for us.
Those concern from them and the love from them we will never and never dare to forget.
And another auntie gave me a red packets, really very touched by their action.
They dun seems to be a monster and evil to me already, back to angel again (;
Hugged one auntie because she went off earlier, she paiseh leh. Dun dare hug me ;x
Mrt back with another auntie, brought those sadness with us.
My tears really dropped, I swear. I really missed them alots. Those fun, and laughter.
I never regretted working there although I am very tired of those work.
At least I have earned those concern and learned skill from my work.
I will remember Li Hua auntie, Yongzhi auntie, Xin An Uncle, Liu Da Ye Uncle.
And lastly, Nail Uncle. Missed five of them alots alots (; I'll remember them for life.
Everything they done, touches me heart really very much. Loves <3.

Sweetheart and Zhenyuan came Poineer Mrt to fetch boyfriend and I home (;
Slacked with them, chatted with my dearest Sweetheart.
He accompany me home and went pool with his friends.
Tomorrow N level will be out soon, heart beating very fast.
Trembling with fear D; God bless me to go at least a ITE or else, I will be killed D;
Sleeping soon already, having a aching body. Tired eyes leh!
Woots, alright got to go already lah (; Nights readers,
And lastly, mind your own business.

♥
Every post I am used to have a red paragraph below (;
So I will still continue to have this red paragraph.
My sweetest Sweetheart thanks for fetching me from work although You are late!
Still at least You are willing to fetch me. Thanks You.
Goodluck for your N level result tomorrow (; I am sure You can do it.
JiaYou my dearest Sweetheart.

Jealous, envy?
Freak off then.

.Tuesday, December 15, 2009 ' 5:25 AM

Helloooo.. Readers! I'm finally back for blogging already (;
My life had totally changed, a person who is very close to me is drifting away from me.
I don't know what can I do to have the person back, I guess this time I've to give up.
I already tried all my best to save it, but the person won't be coming back.
Giving him all the best, and good luck for the thing he do in the future.
As for myself, I guess I am in a weak condition. Having bruise all over my body.
All bones starting to have sound, and seems like it's going to be dislocated anytime.
Lucky, he is leaving me. Or else, I'll bring lots of problem.
A relationship won't last in this way too, I'll face my own problem myself.
This Thursday is my last day working in the factory, and finally I can get some rest.
And this coming Friday our N' level result will be out, I don't have hope for myself.
Hope that I can get into an ITE will do, my wish isn't that much.
God bless my health gets better, and friends surrounded me are in good condition and so.
Alright, won't say much too. Mood isn't good, and I'm gonna rest.

I brought all the things you bought for me to work, example ;
Bonia wallet, small little bottle, your photo, micky and minnie small soft toys.
The earstick you bought for me, the necklance you gave me since seconday 1.
Everything you gave me, I am keeping in a good condition inside my cupboard.
Never did I dare to make lost and spoilt. Boy, do you know how I feel?
Haish. Are we really ending like nobody business? How much do I stand in your heart?

Don't tell me to have sweet dreams when You leave before I can say I love You.
Don't feel sorry for me when it's my fault You can never sleep.
If I didn't love You so much I would probably just give up on life right now.
You have no idea how I feel no idea how much pain I'm in right now.
I'm sorry that my memories still hurt me. I wish they didn't, too.
I'm sorry that I'm so god damn pathetic. And I'm sorry that I ever hurt You.
I just want to give up You, to let You have your own freedom life.
You are my everything, never did I want to let go of You.
But since I'm no longer inside your heart, it's just all meaningless.

♥
Baby, Sweetheart, Dear, Honey.
This might be the last time I'm calling You and writing about You.
I never want to let go of You, in fact I'm missing You everyday without failed.
Did You? I was waiting for your calls and messages.
I'm crying almost everyday, this few days I've never attitude or vent angers on You.
Because I believed by doing all this, nothing will change You.
I don't wanna waste both of our time again, I'll let You find the things You want to do.
I'll be at the back supporting You until I'm really very very weak.
I gave up everything because of You, You made me love You so deep.
And You just left me without even telling me. I'm a girl who wants to find love from a guy.
Is that really so hard? I hope I'm able to call You my dearest boy again.
But You will never be back already. Boy, thanks for enduring whatever nonsense I've.
Love me and Care for me in the past. You used to be my everything but now.
Slowly, You'll no longer be inside my heart. I don't see a need for me to love you deeper.
I thought I would have the chance to celebrate my Christmas with You.
I guess I might have to celebrate it with my tears and sobbing everything to myself.
Boy, good luck for everything you do in the future (; Take care!
And lastly, my last time to tell You that. I really really loved You.
15 July 2006 is the first date we first started our journey, and now 15 December 2009
Is also the date we walked apart and the very last date where our journey stopped.
1 year 2 month and 19 days. Had been stopped counting from now on.

We used to discuss about our future,
When are we marrying, .
Now ended up, not even next year and everything had changed.

.Tuesday, December 8, 2009 ' 6:36 AM

Went to work, as usual late for a few min. Working really made me feel so boring D;
Those aunties over there used to be angels towards us.
Yet now, slowly each of them are changing into devil already.
Sigh, I really wonder why do human changed so much after maybe for days or few weeks.
Always went in to work, brought along my unhappy face with me. Super shag I swear!
Sweetheart came over all the way from Hanhui's house to fetch me from work.
And I am so suprised that Hanhui came too (; Happy to see them.
Chatted inside bus with them, Hanhui took same bus with boyfriend.
While Sweetheart accompany me home, Pearlyn was with me too.
Kiss goodbye with Sweetheart, he cab home after fetching me home (; So sweet of him.
Had dinner, watched television programme, bathe and preparing to sleep already.
Everyday seems to be the same routine, but I am quitting my work soon (;
Next week gonna be my last week over there, finally it's time for us to take a break!

Maybe I don't have the heart to say the things I wanted to say.
I was scared to hurt you, but you know what? Payback is a hell.
You may not know it, but you hurt me worse than anyone.
Empty promises, broken words, what did you think?
Did you really think I was dumb enough, to never find out?
I tried, I really did. I continued on like nothing was wrong.
I wanted life to be normal again, I am old enough to know that games are something for kids!
I have never been so honest with someone, you hurt me. And it takes time to mend.
I am willing to forgive, but only if you are willing to be Honest,
To be Trustworthy, Never to lie again. And most of all, be Faithful to me.

♥
Thanks Sweetheart.
Whenever you meet me, you treated me really very very good.
But why the moment we are apart, you treated me super cold?
Sweetheart, sometime I was asking myself whether are you a person with
Two different characters? Everynight we are almost quarreling.
Sweetheart, do you realise where is the problem that lies?
Sigh, I do hope my Sweetheart would change. But, will you?

Never to give up a person so easily,
Unless the person choose to give up on their own.
Should I give up?

.Saturday, December 5, 2009 ' 9:58 PM

Helloooo, I'm back again. Went for work, home and prepared.
Waiting for everyone to get ready, sad to say I prepared even faster than them.
Suddenly heavy rain pour down, daddy decided to drive all of us to Jurong Point.
Fetch Boyfriend and Zhenyuan from xingnan, and then fetch Dear from boon lay.
Trained down to Orchard Road, during the trip down four of us are having cold war.
All of us walked individually. Slowly, everything is back to normal.
Mac at Lucky Plaza, cab down to Cathay. Planed to watch 2012, but ticket was fully booked.
Arcade, and Dear caught another soft toys for me (; Thanks Dear.
Cab back to Orchard, shopped around at Paragon. Bought things to eat.
Walked under the rain, to another Cathay. Still unable to watch.
Next movie was at 2am, lol. Shopped around and wanted to go home le.
But we saw the new shopping centre, Sommerset 313. Walked in and take a look.
My eyes simply cannot tahan anymore, I am just so so tired. Eyes closing.
Finding bus 502 to bus back to Jurong, manage to find seat. Somehow seat is still available.
Childish with Dear awhile and all of us slept, Dear's shoulder was so nice.
Saliva nearly drip down, home @ 12 plus. Bathe and sleep immediately.

How many more times am I going to have a sit by and wait for you.
How many more times do I have to wonder what you are doing,
That makes you too busy to talk to me.
I sat down and watched television programme.
Showed ended, I just kept going on to watch the next programme.
Just to watch it, once more.
It seems that whenever I get one thing, something else disappears.
I can see the smile on your face, but I never hear your voice anymore.
I will make you see what you do to me one day, but right now. I'm tired.

Finding a girlfriend/boyfriend, it shouldn't find them for their looks.
Ugly is not shown upon a face, but ugly is grown within a space.
Why do so many people find girlfriend or boyfriend in good looking?
So what if they are good looking? They may have a black hearted,
They may be evil, they don't respect people older than them? They are cold blooded?
Are all this human being are finding? If their looks are fine,
Then they don't need to care about how are the person and so? Think twice.
That's not love, that's just showing how pretty or handsome your stead was to others.
To me, maybe I have found my true love. But sad to say, I'm not the one his finding.

♥
Dear.
Thanks for treating me so good when we meet out.
I hope this love will kept going on, the sweet talk of yours won't stop.
Stop making me worry for you, You can have your freedom of course.
But please remember me that I am still your girlfriend.
Don't neglect me when you have friends or games, sometimes I really needed you alots.
I may regret knowing you, but I never regret being with you.
Our sweet memories will always be remembered by me, you are the one I am looking for.
Baby Whale is willing to love Baby Sandwich for life unless he never let me go.
Sorry for being a unreasonable girlfriend, thanks for enduring my attitude.
I love you, nothing would change me. Three years ago, I love you that deep.
Three years later it means now, I will love you even deeper.
Takecare dear, I will be there for you when you need me (; 24 hour standby you.

I may not be good looking,
I may not treat you the best,
I may not give you what you want.
But I will try my best to be the girl you want.

.Friday, December 4, 2009 ' 8:20 AM

Yesterday.
As usual went to work, but never worked for over time (;
Home, bathe. And trained down to City Hall, dinner @ New York!
Yummy, but boyfriend is heartpain of her money lah D;
She said her money is flying away from her wallet, because it's a treat from her.
I simply cannot finish the Fish & Chips, it's so super big piece leh.
Boyfriend helped me to finish it (; good boyfriend.
But she kept mumbling that I'm wasting her money, cannot finish the food! !@#$%^&*.
Arcade after that and home at 1am. Boyfriend is staying at my house (;

Today.
Did not turned up for work as we are really tired, anyhow find reason and slept back.
Woke up at 1.30pm, lunch at 2plus. Watched tv until 3pm plus.
Decided to trained down to City Hall again, bathe and everything.
Brought sister down this time (; She's very happy nahs.
Arcade, she spent my money huh D; my turn to heartpain uh.
Dinner @ esplanade there, Stingry & Chicken Wing. Yummy!
Went Suntec for another arcade session, spent all my money there.
Laughs, everyday spending money. Wallet is going to have a hole again D;
Jastine met us at arcade, spent time together there and trained back @ 10plus.
Daddy drove us home from Jurong Point, boyfriend left my house today le.
Bathe, television and sleep soon. Tired already! Haiyoyo.

What you stole from me, give it back!
The pain you gave me, I'll pay it back.!
You have no idea what you've done to me.
You have no idea, but I will make you see.
What's rightfully mine, give it back.
The hate you've shown me, I'll pay it back.
You laugh at my pain, you've always hated me.
You laugh at my pain, you're sure that's how it'll always be.
You think that we've forgotten, but forgotten I have not.
I hold your soul within my fist, forever it will rot.
It's hard to make a human being, suffer when they once were dear.

♥
Sweetheart.
It seems like after 1 week, things are changing even worst now.
What's all this? Revening of the past that how I treated you?
Sweetheart, I don't want this way. I wanted back the sweet memories of us, will we?
You've neglected me this 1 week, Sweetheart. My heart is really aching alots D;
Did I put too much love in this relationship? I thought love should be in this way?
Sweetheart, I will wait for you to change back. I will definitely be waiting.
No matter where am I, my mind and heart is always you.
I don't seems to be myself anymore, you are controlling my whole soul.
Sweetheart, I no longer can take it already. Please, Sweetheart.
Can you change back? I love you.

I know you're lost,
And down I kneel.
You cannot know the pain I feel.

.Tuesday, December 1, 2009 ' 6:43 AM

Yo! Now a days, I wonder what is Sweetheart doing outside with his friends.
Getting lesser call each day, sigh. I just want to know what are you doing out there.
Am I wrong to care so much for you, as a stead of yours.
I should have the right to know what are you doing out there, doing illegal stuff or whatever?
Being a girlfriend of yours, I feel that I'm getting useless already.
Sweetheart, do takecare of yourself. You should choose wisely for the path of life you want.
I'm a failure D;

Some people think of Teen Love and smiles, it's not real love.
Puppy Love, people all called it. Those people, I think have very short memories.
And no longer recall the realities of their first love experiences.
While few expect teens love to last a lifetime, that hardly makes it less real.
Half or more of all adult love doesn't last a lifetime either.
Teen love is very real. And powerful, perhaps at no time in our lives are the joys
And pains felt as strongly, or experienced more deeply. Who among us,
After all, can never forget our first love. That's what I am going through now D;

♥
Sweetheart.
Takecare of yourself.
Nearly ended everything last night.
Maybe you don't feel anything, but I am D;
Do what you should and do not do what you think it's wrong.
Choose your life properly, okay? Sweetheart.
If I said I need you, will you still be there for me?

Live your life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
But many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each new vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
The summit will proud to be astonishing.