.Tuesday, December 15, 2009 ' 5:25 AM
Helloooo.. Readers! I'm finally back for blogging already (;My life had totally changed, a person who is very close to me is drifting away from me.I don't know what can I do to have the person back, I guess this time I've to give up.I already tried all my best to save it, but the person won't be coming back.Giving him all the best, and good luck for the thing he do in the future.As for myself, I guess I am in a weak condition. Having bruise all over my body.All bones starting to have sound, and seems like it's going to be dislocated anytime.Lucky, he is leaving me. Or else, I'll bring lots of problem.A relationship won't last in this way too, I'll face my own problem myself.This Thursday is my last day working in the factory, and finally I can get some rest.And this coming Friday our N' level result will be out, I don't have hope for myself.Hope that I can get into an ITE will do, my wish isn't that much.God bless my health gets better, and friends surrounded me are in good condition and so.Alright, won't say much too. Mood isn't good, and I'm gonna rest.I brought all the things you bought for me to work, example ;
Bonia wallet, small little bottle, your photo, micky and minnie small soft toys.
The earstick you bought for me, the necklance you gave me since seconday 1.
Everything you gave me, I am keeping in a good condition inside my cupboard.
Never did I dare to make lost and spoilt. Boy, do you know how I feel?
Haish. Are we really ending like nobody business? How much do I stand in your heart?
Don't tell me to have sweet dreams when You leave before I can say I love You. Don't feel sorry for me when it's my fault You can never sleep.If I didn't love You so much I would probably just give up on life right now.You have no idea how I feel no idea how much pain I'm in right now.I'm sorry that my memories still hurt me. I wish they didn't, too.I'm sorry that I'm so god damn pathetic. And I'm sorry that I ever hurt You.I just want to give up You, to let You have your own freedom life.You are my everything, never did I want to let go of You.But since I'm no longer inside your heart, it's just all meaningless.♥Baby, Sweetheart, Dear, Honey.This might be the last time I'm calling You and writing about You.I never want to let go of You, in fact I'm missing You everyday without failed.Did You? I was waiting for your calls and messages.I'm crying almost everyday, this few days I've never attitude or vent angers on You.Because I believed by doing all this, nothing will change You.I don't wanna waste both of our time again, I'll let You find the things You want to do.I'll be at the back supporting You until I'm really very very weak.I gave up everything because of You, You made me love You so deep.And You just left me without even telling me. I'm a girl who wants to find love from a guy.Is that really so hard? I hope I'm able to call You my dearest boy again.But You will never be back already. Boy, thanks for enduring whatever nonsense I've.Love me and Care for me in the past. You used to be my everything but now.Slowly, You'll no longer be inside my heart. I don't see a need for me to love you deeper.I thought I would have the chance to celebrate my Christmas with You.I guess I might have to celebrate it with my tears and sobbing everything to myself.Boy, good luck for everything you do in the future (; Take care!And lastly, my last time to tell You that. I really really loved You.
15 July 2006 is the first date we first started our journey, and now 15 December 2009
Is also the date we walked apart and the very last date where our journey stopped.
1 year 2 month and 19 days. Had been stopped counting from now on.
We used to discuss about our future,
When are we marrying, .
Now ended up, not even next year and everything had changed.
