.Thursday, January 14, 2010 ' 12:00 PM
Haish, are You doing fine in your camp? Remember to eat?
Did You get trouble for yourself? I don't know why am I still concerning about You.
Although we are no longer together, but I cannot control myself to care about You.
But You don't worry, I won't message or call You de (; Never will I disturb your life.
Used to be so tiongxim. But now, just that we haven met up for 4 days, tell me feeling fade?
Sunday we are still alright, I just wonder why guys awhile can treat their girl very good.
Yet awhile changed, treated her cold and all that. Haish.
1 year and 3 months plus, You can choose to let go le. I don't see what can't I.
Just takecare of yourself ba, at least we are remained as friends.
Go find other girls who can give You happiness, because I never give You happiness at all.
Thanks for everything, I'm throwing everything away that You have gave me.
All those memories, I don't feel like seeing it again le. Always make me think of You.
You said when You become a chef, I'll be the first one to try your cooking skill.
Now, I bet not even a little chance, allow your next girlfriend to try it ba. All the best boy!
Do You remember the time You and I joke with each other?
And we really laughed a lot.
Do You remember I bang on the MacDonald's window?
And You laughed as though You are to going to lie on the floor.
Do You remember how I read the ' ichibang '?
And You laughed as if You are going to fall anytime.
There are alots alots more, I bet when Your feeling fade.
You won't think so much about those fun we had, I should let it go too.
But your smile, laughter is everything inside my brain kept on repeating.
When I walked into Cinema, You used to hold me. But today, hand was missing.
When I took bus, You used to sit beside me playing with me.
But now, I'm sitting all alone. My tears just kept dropping down.
XXL chicken, You used to buy for me whenever we walked pass. Now?
I don't even look at it, and just walked pass it. You break my fucking heart.
Fuck up of myself, dumb. A real fucking stupid dumb.
lt hurts when You don't notice me, It hurts when You don't listen to me.
It hurts when You don't care about me. It hurts when You act too busy to me.
It hurts when I think about what I can't have. It hurts when I imagine bliss but have to wait for it.
It hurts when You don't know why I'm hurting. It hurts when You don't know that I'm hurting.
There is so much pain inside me, I need to release it.
Don't fix me anymore, because I no longer need it (; Thanks.
Crying everday,
Things won't changed.
Waiting for You? I guess I'm not.