.Monday, January 18, 2010 ' 11:43 PM
l forced myself not to think about You, I really can't.
I don't understand our 4 years of memories, You can let it go so quickly.
Is just because I'm too soft hearted? My heart really stopped, I cannot breathe.
6 days of crying, how much can I still say? How would my wound heal?
Yesterday I should bring more money to buy the night safari of our photo home.
I really regretted alot, can I stop thinking about You. 4 years leh?
Anyone who stepped into a relationship for 4 years, and just let it go so easily?
6 days, weight gone down 3 kg le. I don't want this to happen to me again.
I want to be like how I eat in the past, that's me. Not now de me.
Now, no longer have the mood to attitude and temper people? Why?
Because of him I want to change everything, but he will never be back anymore.
Why am I still writting about him, since I said I will not write about him again?
It's because, touch wood. If I really leave this world, at least this will be the memories too.
Christine will fall anytime, it's the matter of the time.
All people asked me to let go, move on my life.
Let me tell your, If I can forget him. I will choose to forget.
It's my heart and mind wouldn't let go of him. Not me.
If so easy, 3 years ago. I would have leave him and never go back with him.
It's not easy, I cannot stand up to be strong. Or Im just a loser, a useless freak.
That made people worry for me, he no longer love me, care me like in the past.
His heart never the same anymore, I don't know what to do for the time being.
Just let me cried until I step into the coffin. I still love him, and I really do.
Christine is different now, really different.
Your hands, hugs and kisses. I guess not even a guy can take over your place.
You will never be replaced in my heart, the lovely boy I ever had.
Losing You,
As well as losing me.
Without You,
As well as without me.
I know You would not come back again,
But I really wish You will and You would.