.Friday, October 29, 2010 ' 1:36 PM
Take note that in mind,
I'm a human.
You're just using a non living things
to compared with me, i'll fuck You upside down.
i think no one step into a relationship was like as worse as me.
i missed my boyfriend, i called him in the middle of the night.
he hang my phone, i called 10 plus time. He just pressed it away.
behind, he send me a text scold me and said what his making iphone things.
and i kept calling him simi lanjiao, said his fucked up scold me ccb.
haha, yeah. According all this, it shows that i can't even compare with an iphone.
what a beautiful relationship im having, he totally sux to the super max.
i missed him, call him got wrong? It's really over my limit already.
if You wants me to hackcare, wants me to stop calling You, wants me to stop texting You.
just tell me straight, & now i don't need You to say. The answer was well shown.
to you if love was so easy to be taken for granted.
now, immediately you can go and find which girl is stupid as me.
can tolerate you, no matter how much fucking stuff You have done.
i think there won't be such a woman anymore, i'm the one left in this world.
kena dumped, kena lied, kena everything. Ended up, i never learned my lesson.
but don't worry, ever since last night. I can know how much i stand inside your heart.
can't even compare to an iphone, or your fucking games.
no matter how fucking much i love you, it's totally fucking useless.
i will find the fastest way to stop loving, caring about You.
seeing friends around me, are so sweet with boyfriend. But me, i can do nothing but to envy.
when a person is weak, taken for granted.
when a person became strong, You're nothing.
i missed my boyfriend, i called him in the middle of the night.
he hang my phone, i called 10 plus time. He just pressed it away.
behind, he send me a text scold me and said what his making iphone things.
and i kept calling him simi lanjiao, said his fucked up scold me ccb.
haha, yeah. According all this, it shows that i can't even compare with an iphone.
what a beautiful relationship im having, he totally sux to the super max.
i missed him, call him got wrong? It's really over my limit already.
if You wants me to hackcare, wants me to stop calling You, wants me to stop texting You.
just tell me straight, & now i don't need You to say. The answer was well shown.
to you if love was so easy to be taken for granted.
now, immediately you can go and find which girl is stupid as me.
can tolerate you, no matter how much fucking stuff You have done.
i think there won't be such a woman anymore, i'm the one left in this world.
kena dumped, kena lied, kena everything. Ended up, i never learned my lesson.
but don't worry, ever since last night. I can know how much i stand inside your heart.
can't even compare to an iphone, or your fucking games.
no matter how fucking much i love you, it's totally fucking useless.
i will find the fastest way to stop loving, caring about You.
seeing friends around me, are so sweet with boyfriend. But me, i can do nothing but to envy.
when a person is weak, taken for granted.
when a person became strong, You're nothing.
.Thursday, October 28, 2010 ' 9:11 PM
You should have opened your eyes,
i was crazy for You.
Life Natural High
falling in Love
hearing your favorite song on the radio
lying in bed listening to the rain outside
bubble baths
giggling
long conversation late at night
laughing at an inside joke
laughing at yourself
laughing so hard your stomach hurts
laughing for no absolutely no reason at all
friends
having someone telling you that you are beautiful.
Is this the world?
a man who have a girlfriend flirts around with woman.
a woman who have a boyfriend flirts around with man.
world shouldn't be like it, it makes me don't dare to fall in love.
a man who have a girlfriend went on bed with other woman.
a woman who have a boyfriend went on bed with other man.
why is life becoming this way?
sometime i do blamed myself why am i not given birth earlier.
now 20 centuries are really scary, there isn't love.
but a lot of cheating love, playful love & puppy love.
sux, it really sux to the super max already.
it's terribly difficult to find someone who completely loves you for the person whom you are.
most of the time, people make ridiculous demands.
they expect you to change the little bits of yourself to cater to their wishes.
what i think is we all deserve that someone, who will love the good.
the bad, the disgusting, the weird bits and pieces of us.
being late all the time, not knowing how to play sports properly.
not having any talent in particular.
that person worth keeping for the rest of your life.
we are all simple beings.
falling in Love
hearing your favorite song on the radio
lying in bed listening to the rain outside
bubble baths
giggling
long conversation late at night
laughing at an inside joke
laughing at yourself
laughing so hard your stomach hurts
laughing for no absolutely no reason at all
friends
having someone telling you that you are beautiful.
Is this the world?
a man who have a girlfriend flirts around with woman.
a woman who have a boyfriend flirts around with man.
world shouldn't be like it, it makes me don't dare to fall in love.
a man who have a girlfriend went on bed with other woman.
a woman who have a boyfriend went on bed with other man.
why is life becoming this way?
sometime i do blamed myself why am i not given birth earlier.
now 20 centuries are really scary, there isn't love.
but a lot of cheating love, playful love & puppy love.
sux, it really sux to the super max already.
it's terribly difficult to find someone who completely loves you for the person whom you are.
most of the time, people make ridiculous demands.
they expect you to change the little bits of yourself to cater to their wishes.
what i think is we all deserve that someone, who will love the good.
the bad, the disgusting, the weird bits and pieces of us.
being late all the time, not knowing how to play sports properly.
not having any talent in particular.
that person worth keeping for the rest of your life.
we are all simple beings.
.Saturday, October 23, 2010 ' 9:38 AM
Those night You cannot sleep?
Well maybe You are awake in someone's dream.
Hello, i'm back for blogging (: bet that yeah no one missed me.
my work is slightly improving, at least i never being scolded by my manager already.
end of this month hopefully im able to confirmed by company & end of year im able to get bonus =X
who don't like $ uh? Haha, anyway i will be taking away my tagbox soon.
since no one even taking effort to tag me, this blog shall be my personal reading dairy :]
everyday work, i'm like so boring uh. Only always looking forward to Sunday.
it's the only day that everyone will see Christine with the best smile.
think of closing this blog, but to me all the past is still as important so i will not ever close it.
lifes have been changing everyday, the people whom are important to me.
im gonna slowly let it go, time will stop everything including the pain im taking right now.
Isn't Love, was only use to be
i don't deny that i think about You all the time.
i knew that You don't, but i still love You so much.
everyone can scold me a fool, a dumb, a hopeless bitch, a worthless slut.
i don't mind, because he is the the one letting me understand what's love.
but soon, im not gonna take it anymore.
i don't like empty promises, i don't like my boy care others more than me.
if i really love him, i should really let him go. Let him find other girl that can make him changed.
he knows what a person am i, his trying to take everything for granted.
why am i so daring to write all this in my blog?
because he never step into my blog anymore, all he knows was facebook & dota.
he totally neglected that i have a blog, all my happiness & unhappiness was here.
if i really love You, i should really let You go this time round.
hopefully i guess when the next time You read this blog, we're no longer together.
and i don't know when is the next time You gonna read my blog anymore.
perhaps years later, perhaps no more next time ;
my work is slightly improving, at least i never being scolded by my manager already.
end of this month hopefully im able to confirmed by company & end of year im able to get bonus =X
who don't like $ uh? Haha, anyway i will be taking away my tagbox soon.
since no one even taking effort to tag me, this blog shall be my personal reading dairy :]
everyday work, i'm like so boring uh. Only always looking forward to Sunday.
it's the only day that everyone will see Christine with the best smile.
think of closing this blog, but to me all the past is still as important so i will not ever close it.
lifes have been changing everyday, the people whom are important to me.
im gonna slowly let it go, time will stop everything including the pain im taking right now.
Isn't Love, was only use to be
i don't deny that i think about You all the time.
i knew that You don't, but i still love You so much.
everyone can scold me a fool, a dumb, a hopeless bitch, a worthless slut.
i don't mind, because he is the the one letting me understand what's love.
but soon, im not gonna take it anymore.
i don't like empty promises, i don't like my boy care others more than me.
if i really love him, i should really let him go. Let him find other girl that can make him changed.
he knows what a person am i, his trying to take everything for granted.
why am i so daring to write all this in my blog?
because he never step into my blog anymore, all he knows was facebook & dota.
he totally neglected that i have a blog, all my happiness & unhappiness was here.
if i really love You, i should really let You go this time round.
hopefully i guess when the next time You read this blog, we're no longer together.
and i don't know when is the next time You gonna read my blog anymore.
perhaps years later, perhaps no more next time ;
nothing was beautiful
& everything hurts ;
& everything hurts ;
.Wednesday, October 13, 2010 ' 4:47 PM
When I say I wanted to give up,
I really mean it this time.
I really mean it this time.
I'm a human but not a dog
I'm feeling so super tired to repeat so many complains.
while being with You, i felt so happy than anyone else.
because your silly smiles and act cute face cheers me up for every time i seen it.
but perhaps it's time for me to use to it that You aren't there anymore.
I'm facing family problems, where are You? I text-ed You, You don't even reply me.
I can only cry to sleep, every Sunday we are supposed to meet out.
but You can just bloody dragged the time till like in the late afternoon.
ended up quarrel, I'm like facing all the blames again?
when will all the devil disappear and angel coming into my life?
I'm feeling so damn terrible inside that i rather choose not to live anymore.
no one understands me, really. If one day, i'm really gone. Who would realize it?
Fucking work stressed me up
having family problems, i should love office more than staying at home.
now i was all wrong, i rather stay outside man. Lol.
no work, is the best time i ever had. That's why i'm always looking forward to only Sunday.
the people here sux to the max, attitude problem same as me uh.
but what, sometime things i haven never done before yet they assume i know uh?
keep kaobei kaobu. I will ask them to find people to take over me soon.
I'm finding jobs now, any lobang anyone? Introduce it to me man.
I'm dying soon in this freak company. Why do my life sux more than other people that much?
I'm just sibei suay, lol. Down in family, down in relationship and guess next coming up is friendship.
and soon I'm going off down inside the coffin.
sometime i think about the past
and i fall apart inside ;
I'm feeling so super tired to repeat so many complains.
while being with You, i felt so happy than anyone else.
because your silly smiles and act cute face cheers me up for every time i seen it.
but perhaps it's time for me to use to it that You aren't there anymore.
I'm facing family problems, where are You? I text-ed You, You don't even reply me.
I can only cry to sleep, every Sunday we are supposed to meet out.
but You can just bloody dragged the time till like in the late afternoon.
ended up quarrel, I'm like facing all the blames again?
when will all the devil disappear and angel coming into my life?
I'm feeling so damn terrible inside that i rather choose not to live anymore.
no one understands me, really. If one day, i'm really gone. Who would realize it?
Fucking work stressed me up
having family problems, i should love office more than staying at home.
now i was all wrong, i rather stay outside man. Lol.
no work, is the best time i ever had. That's why i'm always looking forward to only Sunday.
the people here sux to the max, attitude problem same as me uh.
but what, sometime things i haven never done before yet they assume i know uh?
keep kaobei kaobu. I will ask them to find people to take over me soon.
I'm finding jobs now, any lobang anyone? Introduce it to me man.
I'm dying soon in this freak company. Why do my life sux more than other people that much?
I'm just sibei suay, lol. Down in family, down in relationship and guess next coming up is friendship.
and soon I'm going off down inside the coffin.
sometime i think about the past
and i fall apart inside ;
.Saturday, October 9, 2010 ' 10:30 AM
Loving a person is easy.
Wanted to forget a person, it can rips You apart.
Wanted to forget a person, it can rips You apart.
Lame Excuses
forget, never see?
all this reason none other than him, no one will give already.
I'm just simply tolerating it very hard. Don't really test my patience.
i have tolerating for so long, i believe everyone have limited lines.
don't cross it too much, if not i really will turn everything at once.
I'm not joking, just telling myself not to be a stupid idiotic fool anymore.
forget, haha this word sux to the super max.
no one would give me such an reason other than You!
i didn't mention anything, it doesn't mean that i can believe your lies.
for the next time if i cannot take it anymore, i will treat You back how You treated me.
You really deserve that very much.
Love
love is when You give someone the power to break your heart,
but trust them not to. People that are meant to be together
always find their way to the end.
the hardest part of a break-up is accepting it's over.
i have done my best part for loving my boyfriend.
but he don't simply give me a damn.
he would concern other people more than me.
who's his girlfriend? He might not care and bother anymore.
since the day i started to be with him, it's just all for real.
if i was given a chance, i will still choose You. And never ever mention a word break at all.
and we wouldn't be in this state now, am i right? It's all fated anyway.
if it's fated to end,
promise me don't let me ever
met You again, it do really hurts ;
all this reason none other than him, no one will give already.
I'm just simply tolerating it very hard. Don't really test my patience.
i have tolerating for so long, i believe everyone have limited lines.
don't cross it too much, if not i really will turn everything at once.
I'm not joking, just telling myself not to be a stupid idiotic fool anymore.
forget, haha this word sux to the super max.
no one would give me such an reason other than You!
i didn't mention anything, it doesn't mean that i can believe your lies.
for the next time if i cannot take it anymore, i will treat You back how You treated me.
You really deserve that very much.
Love
love is when You give someone the power to break your heart,
but trust them not to. People that are meant to be together
always find their way to the end.
the hardest part of a break-up is accepting it's over.
i have done my best part for loving my boyfriend.
but he don't simply give me a damn.
he would concern other people more than me.
who's his girlfriend? He might not care and bother anymore.
since the day i started to be with him, it's just all for real.
if i was given a chance, i will still choose You. And never ever mention a word break at all.
and we wouldn't be in this state now, am i right? It's all fated anyway.
if it's fated to end,
promise me don't let me ever
met You again, it do really hurts ;
.Friday, October 8, 2010 ' 12:18 PM
Fuck Yes!
Today is a Friday :D
Today is a Friday :D
Thanks god! It's finally a friday (:
it means tomorrow and sunday is freedom day! Lol.
this few days, i have really been thinking a lot. Whether what to do, or what should i do.
till now my problem haven yet solve, because i just don't know what to do.
if people are treated hot and cold in times, what will your guys do?
to me, i hate this kind of feeling as in I'm not a toy or wad. I'm also a human with blood!
i don't really need to see people's face to pass my each day.
trust, i given to You. Ended up what did You do? Broke promises single day.
if one day i really mention, i finally given up after years. It means i feel hopeless already ;
If you really knew me
if You really knew me, You had realize I'm not the girl i was before.
i have been hurt, walked all over, used and rejected.
i still have hope for new relationships but if You really knew me,
You will know I'm scared to death of falling in love again.
I'm scared to death of getting hurt, I'm scared to death of being attached and throw to the side.
please don't do that to me if You really knew me, You had know i trust You.
Joke of the day
dear boss, You know i want to resign?
since i worked for You, i have no time to blog anymore.
when i don't have time to blog anymore, my readers hate me.
when my readers hate me they don't visit my blog anymore.
when they don't visit my blog anymore, my hits drop.
when my hits drop, i become unhappy.
when i become unhappy, i will eat a lot.
when i eat a lot, i will get fat.
when i get fat, it will affect your company's image
when your company's image is affected, your business no good.
when your business no good, You become unhappy.
when you become unhappy, you eat a lot.
when you eat a lot, I'm afraid You will become fat, like me.
You see, Boss. I did everything for your own good.
because i care for You.
so the conclusion is, i want to resign. Please let me go la.
7th month anniversary today.
You don't remember all this date but i always do.
it means tomorrow and sunday is freedom day! Lol.
this few days, i have really been thinking a lot. Whether what to do, or what should i do.
till now my problem haven yet solve, because i just don't know what to do.
if people are treated hot and cold in times, what will your guys do?
to me, i hate this kind of feeling as in I'm not a toy or wad. I'm also a human with blood!
i don't really need to see people's face to pass my each day.
trust, i given to You. Ended up what did You do? Broke promises single day.
if one day i really mention, i finally given up after years. It means i feel hopeless already ;
If you really knew me
if You really knew me, You had realize I'm not the girl i was before.
i have been hurt, walked all over, used and rejected.
i still have hope for new relationships but if You really knew me,
You will know I'm scared to death of falling in love again.
I'm scared to death of getting hurt, I'm scared to death of being attached and throw to the side.
please don't do that to me if You really knew me, You had know i trust You.
Joke of the day
dear boss, You know i want to resign?
since i worked for You, i have no time to blog anymore.
when i don't have time to blog anymore, my readers hate me.
when my readers hate me they don't visit my blog anymore.
when they don't visit my blog anymore, my hits drop.
when my hits drop, i become unhappy.
when i become unhappy, i will eat a lot.
when i eat a lot, i will get fat.
when i get fat, it will affect your company's image
when your company's image is affected, your business no good.
when your business no good, You become unhappy.
when you become unhappy, you eat a lot.
when you eat a lot, I'm afraid You will become fat, like me.
You see, Boss. I did everything for your own good.
because i care for You.
so the conclusion is, i want to resign. Please let me go la.
7th month anniversary today.
You don't remember all this date but i always do.
