.Friday, November 26, 2010 ' 5:10 PM
My mind tells me to give up,
But my heart won't let me.
Neglected Feeling
which person Loved to be neglected by their boyfriend/girlfriend?
i believed nobody like. Same goes to me, sometime i wondered why am i treated so unfairly.
my girlfriend got their boyfriend to message, or talk to each other in phone.
my boyfriend most likely everyday will call me, but now he hang out with his friends.
and i supposed that he already forgotten that he have a girlfriend, and where's his girlfriend.
i just hope You won't regret for what You are doing now, just because You have your friends.
You dumped me aside, once remember me then give me a text making me happy for a short while.
can You stop adding onto my stress if You don't even have the heart to stay with me at all.
please leave la, i rather You dump me forever than dumping me bit by bit till i feel so dead inside.
when i need You, where are You? When You need me, did i appear?
i've been treated like a dog and clinging onto You when You needed me.
You mean all i did was never enough to make You feel that i Loved You that much?
this is the maximum i can give out already, holding You back a not. All relying on You.
i kept holding You back, You kept trying to run away from me. I shall let You be happy isn't it?
i won't be selfish this time, my relationship was always sucky than anyone else.
just because i was once a bitch, and i wasn't given any chance to change myself.
sometime i wondered is god being unfair to me? why treated me in this way.
as in use that man to come and hurt me again and again and made me still Love him so much.
and once in a while i think back, perhaps god is teaching me not to fall in Love so deeply.
i will get back to same hurting and pain if i continue being so clinging onto a relationship.
maybe it does make me have a mature thinking, but still i need time to get rid of memories.
it kinda hard, but i believe i shall move on my life without him. He shall be my memories.
i'll move on to a place and station at a place which there's a man willing to share things together.
i always thought that if i stop thinking of him, i can forget him faster. I'm wrong.
it's the time that matter, at least i'll never cry for him like as if someone is dying or so.
it's time for me to grow up and have a better mind set and live on my life with happiness (:
close your eyes and pretend You didn't see a thing,
i guess it won't hurt that much then ..
