.Saturday, December 25, 2010 ' 11:59 PM
You are the risk,
I'll always take.
Firstly, Merry Christmas to everyone !
this was the first 17 years i spent so much money on Christmas Present for all of my beloved.
few hundred dollars, and of course i won't feel heart pain.
seeing your love one opening the present and show their happiness smile.
this is the happiest things i could ever done to them.
and this is the first 17 years that i didn't receive any Christmas Present.
I'm fine with it actually, because i don't lack of anything either (:
Few years ago Christmas was always celebrated with friends, or couple dates.
this is the first year that I'm celebrating with my BabyLuv only.
although we didn't really celebrate but just normal shopping, and hanging out.
i will still feel very happy whenever i was with him.
it seems like no one could ever replace him inside my heart.
it might be true, it might be not. God will help me do every decision.
this few days spending time with BabyLuv, time passed super fast.
how i wish time could ever slow down for him and me.
let me love him, show him my care, let me takecare of him.
I'm gonna be a mature girl from now onwards.
he have been tolerating my temper, my attitude, my unreasonable actions.
i guess he had enough. So am i have enough of all of his nonsense.
I'll just accept whatever things regarding about him. It's the facts that i Loved him.
which doesn't have any choice to make me stop loving him.
although i know that one day he might just walk away again.
i just have to admit my fate & wish him all the best for every path he move on.
Christine Whally will always Love my BabyLuv, till the day he choose to move on without me.
there will never be a quote that explains how much You mean to me,
never a song that truly hits the spot,
not enough words to tell You how i feel,
and not enough time to show how long i wanna be with You.
i wish i was cuddled
in your arms right now.
this was the first 17 years i spent so much money on Christmas Present for all of my beloved.
few hundred dollars, and of course i won't feel heart pain.
seeing your love one opening the present and show their happiness smile.
this is the happiest things i could ever done to them.
and this is the first 17 years that i didn't receive any Christmas Present.
I'm fine with it actually, because i don't lack of anything either (:
Few years ago Christmas was always celebrated with friends, or couple dates.
this is the first year that I'm celebrating with my BabyLuv only.
although we didn't really celebrate but just normal shopping, and hanging out.
i will still feel very happy whenever i was with him.
it seems like no one could ever replace him inside my heart.
it might be true, it might be not. God will help me do every decision.
this few days spending time with BabyLuv, time passed super fast.
how i wish time could ever slow down for him and me.
let me love him, show him my care, let me takecare of him.
I'm gonna be a mature girl from now onwards.
he have been tolerating my temper, my attitude, my unreasonable actions.
i guess he had enough. So am i have enough of all of his nonsense.
I'll just accept whatever things regarding about him. It's the facts that i Loved him.
which doesn't have any choice to make me stop loving him.
although i know that one day he might just walk away again.
i just have to admit my fate & wish him all the best for every path he move on.
Christine Whally will always Love my BabyLuv, till the day he choose to move on without me.
there will never be a quote that explains how much You mean to me,
never a song that truly hits the spot,
not enough words to tell You how i feel,
and not enough time to show how long i wanna be with You.
i wish i was cuddled
in your arms right now.
.Wednesday, December 15, 2010 ' 4:50 PM
there's something about You
that made me wouldn't give up.
First day in Chalet
first of all, happy birthday to Cynthia on that day (:
reached our chalet place located at Coasta Sand Pasir Ris Resort.
the place looked kinda haunted, lol! But afterall. The aircon was marvelous one.
rest ourself in the room before wenfa set fire for the BBQ.
he was a nice guy after we have spend with him for that one day in chalet.
baby came afterwards brought a lot of things with him, as i asked him to buy uh.
thanks baby so so much, although we had some conflicts before he came.
Cynthia and bunch of friends came in the evening, bbq for them to eat.
and they played around happily, some camwhoring around.
i love all this life, surrounded with friends for example. Feels so happy.
everyone went off at around 11plus pm in the night, Jubellina started to be auntie.
asked all of us to wash our leg and sit on the bed, she is moping the floor and clearing stuff.
all went to shower, pokercard session! Played all the way till 4plus, all started to get hungry.
ordered Macdonald delivery and slept at 5plus, while baby and i slept at 6plus.
he kept playing those fei yi qing song and sing it aloud somemore! LOL.
disturbed all of my poor thing friends, bastard him.
Second day in Chalet
all woke up at 11plus, wanted to bbq things immediately. But guess what?
our charcoal was missing! Lol, i went next door to steal.
but lucky neighbor was checked out. Haha, had BBQ for the whole afternoon.
Wenfa ordered Pizza. Everyone started showering at around 4 plus to 5plus.
baby slept again, wake him up using a lot of method. Jubellina & Wenfa left.
Peiwen, Leelim, Baby and I cabbed down to Seragoon Nex.
had our movie, sucky boring i suppose. LOL! After show, brought BBQ things again.
a little one, Bryan coming which was Peiwen's boyfriend.
BBQ till around 11plus or 12 plus, had pokercard game after showering all that.
i drank and face totally turned red. Baby don't allow me to continue.
he put me to bed, and they continued. Baby got hot water for me to drink.
that is the time that i feel that his caring, his loving me, he has me inside his heart.
slept at 6am plus, headache totally ruined my mood and couldn't get to sleep.
Third day in Chalet
Everyone was up, my head is still aching badly. so damn badly.
showered everything, checked out. Shuttle bus to Pasir Ris Mrt for Macdonald Breakfast.
trained all the way home after that, unpacked my stuff and nap for few hours.
showered everything and meet baby at central again, had our dinner under void deck.
while waiting for leelim dar to come back dinner with her parents.
Peiwen and boyfriend then came after that, slacked slacked everyone left at 10pm plus.
baby send me home and went to meet Bryan and home together.
seriously, i love my baby a lot. But i don't know if he feels this way.
just v. afraid to lose him again and again, this time i realized how to cherish.
baby, i hope You understand me. I'll never tie You, my promise to You.
i want You to stay forever by my side,
You're the important sunlight i needed to live on.
first of all, happy birthday to Cynthia on that day (:
reached our chalet place located at Coasta Sand Pasir Ris Resort.
the place looked kinda haunted, lol! But afterall. The aircon was marvelous one.
rest ourself in the room before wenfa set fire for the BBQ.
he was a nice guy after we have spend with him for that one day in chalet.
baby came afterwards brought a lot of things with him, as i asked him to buy uh.
thanks baby so so much, although we had some conflicts before he came.
Cynthia and bunch of friends came in the evening, bbq for them to eat.
and they played around happily, some camwhoring around.
i love all this life, surrounded with friends for example. Feels so happy.
everyone went off at around 11plus pm in the night, Jubellina started to be auntie.
asked all of us to wash our leg and sit on the bed, she is moping the floor and clearing stuff.
all went to shower, pokercard session! Played all the way till 4plus, all started to get hungry.
ordered Macdonald delivery and slept at 5plus, while baby and i slept at 6plus.
he kept playing those fei yi qing song and sing it aloud somemore! LOL.
disturbed all of my poor thing friends, bastard him.
Second day in Chalet
all woke up at 11plus, wanted to bbq things immediately. But guess what?
our charcoal was missing! Lol, i went next door to steal.
but lucky neighbor was checked out. Haha, had BBQ for the whole afternoon.
Wenfa ordered Pizza. Everyone started showering at around 4 plus to 5plus.
baby slept again, wake him up using a lot of method. Jubellina & Wenfa left.
Peiwen, Leelim, Baby and I cabbed down to Seragoon Nex.
had our movie, sucky boring i suppose. LOL! After show, brought BBQ things again.
a little one, Bryan coming which was Peiwen's boyfriend.
BBQ till around 11plus or 12 plus, had pokercard game after showering all that.
i drank and face totally turned red. Baby don't allow me to continue.
he put me to bed, and they continued. Baby got hot water for me to drink.
that is the time that i feel that his caring, his loving me, he has me inside his heart.
slept at 6am plus, headache totally ruined my mood and couldn't get to sleep.
Third day in Chalet
Everyone was up, my head is still aching badly. so damn badly.
showered everything, checked out. Shuttle bus to Pasir Ris Mrt for Macdonald Breakfast.
trained all the way home after that, unpacked my stuff and nap for few hours.
showered everything and meet baby at central again, had our dinner under void deck.
while waiting for leelim dar to come back dinner with her parents.
Peiwen and boyfriend then came after that, slacked slacked everyone left at 10pm plus.
baby send me home and went to meet Bryan and home together.
seriously, i love my baby a lot. But i don't know if he feels this way.
just v. afraid to lose him again and again, this time i realized how to cherish.
baby, i hope You understand me. I'll never tie You, my promise to You.
i want You to stay forever by my side,
You're the important sunlight i needed to live on.
.Wednesday, December 8, 2010 ' 1:00 PM
I hope this December,
I will remember hard.
FML seriously, i have been living in wad kind of life?
boring life, shag life, worrying life, clumsy life.
i wanna get myself a life man, ding ding ding dong!
chalet is coming, christmas day is coming & new year is coming.
after that wad stupid life will i have in the next year again?
sigh! Life's just sux everything man, gonna wake up & have stand up right!
wanted to study for o level next year, haven yet find another tuition teacher.
everything was like only saying without action.
god bless me, im dying soon man.
i wanna have a better future & have more more money!
although it comes with hard work, i hope i can tolerate the current Job.
the pay was really well little man, lol! Not enough for me to spend on my things.
gonna buck up & find a better Job instead. The people here sometime like monster.
hmph, i wanna love and care for those people whom are worth.
i don't need a perfect boyfriend, i just want someone to act silly with,
someone who treats me well & Loves being with me more than anything.
please don't be like others, prove to me You're different.
show me that You're worth fighting for.
You make me feel %^&^%$#@
but in a good way ;
boring life, shag life, worrying life, clumsy life.
i wanna get myself a life man, ding ding ding dong!
chalet is coming, christmas day is coming & new year is coming.
after that wad stupid life will i have in the next year again?
sigh! Life's just sux everything man, gonna wake up & have stand up right!
wanted to study for o level next year, haven yet find another tuition teacher.
everything was like only saying without action.
god bless me, im dying soon man.
i wanna have a better future & have more more money!
although it comes with hard work, i hope i can tolerate the current Job.
the pay was really well little man, lol! Not enough for me to spend on my things.
gonna buck up & find a better Job instead. The people here sometime like monster.
hmph, i wanna love and care for those people whom are worth.
i don't need a perfect boyfriend, i just want someone to act silly with,
someone who treats me well & Loves being with me more than anything.
please don't be like others, prove to me You're different.
show me that You're worth fighting for.
You make me feel %^&^%$#@
but in a good way ;
.Thursday, December 2, 2010 ' 5:30 PM
My heart is drunk with beauty
and fats didn't decrease but keep increasing, that's so damn marvelous.
what's all of my friend busying about now? I'm glad to know Jingyi as a friend.
but somehow i don't think we'll contact sooner because nobody wants to talk about past things.
and i'm also trying to move on and on. Never regret falling in Love.
treated everything as a piece of lesson and learn from the mistake.
i'm so looking forward to our chalet, although it's not like a lot people coming
it shows that how much friends i have? I'm a loner isn't it? Haha, yup.
gonna get to know more people. Hopefully, my boy could takecare of himself.
i'm gonna stop here, short post for today. Gonna go home! It's raining so heavily now! ._.
guess i'm falling out of love,
but gonna move on.
