.Tuesday, July 12, 2011 ' 11:42 PM
Don't trust too much
Don't love too much
Don't hope too much
you're really far too much, first day of your attachment work & drifted with me?
hey who do you think you are to treat me in this way? -.-
excuse me i'm your partner not a toy nor a dog to be cold and hot with.
freaking get the facts right, everyday i am just following your mood to live my life.
oi, fuck you okay. You might affect me a lot in the past, now fuck you man.
it will sure affect me, do you think it still affect me that much?
took me for granted because you know i'll always be there.
for the next time, i'll guarantee things will never be the same.
i always say i wanna let go, & i did not. Know the reason why? Check it out yourself dude.
there's always that one person, no matter how many relationship they have had,
how many times they didn't respond to your text, how many times they ignored you,
how many times that they made you feel like you didn't matter,
how many times you sit on the floor crying because of them,
or you feel like shit; no matter how many times you say they don't matter.
deep down, every time that they text you, look at you, give you a hug, even just say your name;
your walls break down and you can't help out but be happy, even if you don't want to be.
time flies, people change.
you only talk to me when you need me. Other than that, you are too busy for words.
so, i guess you were one of those people who were supposed to walk into my life,
teach me a lesson, and then walk away.
being left alone,
with my mind,
is actually quite dangerous.
.Friday, July 8, 2011 ' 3:31 PM
Cry, it doesn't indicate you weak.
Life isn't getting better, perhaps it's because of relationship problems again?till now i realized he really isn't the one for me, & i'm not the one for him too.
my work partner just advice me a lot of things, so i realized i still have more choices outside.
they might not be perfect, but they might be better than him.
he doesn't bother about me at all, on the 28th i start my first work.
he didn't even call and ask me how is my work and all that? When i am having my lunch,
the one who accompany me chat is my mother and stanwin, where's my boyfriend?
his super useless to a max already, the happiness moment with him is only when we meet up.
on the 27th, he can happily message his gan mei to ask if she is fine for the first day of school.
oh my bloody hell god, she is even important than me. If i didn't check your hp, i'm still toot.
i admit i was wrong to see your privacy, but i can't let myself know nothing about you.
the more i know about you, the more i feel like having a little distance with you.
to me, no matter how many time we patch. Our love will never be the same as the first time.
I'm not an expert at relationships, i don't know how to handle every fight
we are going to have and i will never be a perfect person.
we're both still young, and we still have a lot more to learn.
but i'm willing to take chances, to risk it all, and learn everything there is to know just so
i can keep us together. I won't give up on you unless there's already 0% of love within us.
fate brought 2 of us together since many years ago, it then made us separated again & again.
but it still made us back together, but i'm still the one suffering.
perhaps previous life i owe you a lot, and i'm back to return you today.
are you happy with the outcome that i'm always here for you & i don't get any return?
i will never be there for you all the time, there will be a time that i'll choose to leave forever.
cherish someone hard,
before it will never come back
and love you like someone else couldn't give.
