.Saturday, December 10, 2011 ' 11:59 PM
Once again, i tear because of you
i tear because of him again, is it wonderful or powerful?i didn't manage to control myself after receiving a shocking text from him.
he asked if i am still waiting for him, i replied calmly like no and stuff.
he asked me not to wait any longer for him and say stuff like there are better man outside.
those nonsense craps, he knew that i haven get over him.
know what, boy? To me, it seems like i just use to have you as part of my life for this
damn few years, imagine we've been seeing each other almost everyday since we're 13.
how you expect me to get over things so easy? To you yes, i don't know what the hell are you
make of. Maybe metal huh? i don' care, cause we're just over the rainbow.
those days, i made you laugh, i made you sad, i made you special. Did you realize?
no! you don't. You simply don't. So yah, my life is still gonna move on as usual.
maybe you should think back, when i was damn faithful to you, what did you do behind my back?
flirting with so many different girls, and when you asked for forgiveness, did i forgive you?
i don't owe you a living, i've been suffered a lot. Now it's time for me to really say goodbye.
hopefully by end of this year, you go back china. I'll forget every single things about you.
next year when you come back, we're just gonna be maybe passerby.
i don't want to know any of your things, or who are you with. Just fuck off.
we can be real good friend, best friend but provider if i've get over you.
if not, just fuck off! I might be violent @ times, but remember this.
you're the one who trained me out in this way, im not complaining or what.
just that being with you the feeling of comfortable was hard to get rid.
soon i know some other guys would eventually take over, but it might be different.
i sincerely wish you all the best here, from now on. We're not gonna be those super close.
after being loved by you,
it's hard to get love by other guys, the feel isn't same.
.Monday, December 5, 2011 ' 8:39 PM
You're leaving forever
sometime i was wondering what makes us like that again.you use to call me almost everyday, what happen that make you stop all this?
maybe i'm use to it that you would call me, you suddenly stopped.
i feel that i cannot breathe anymore. You know exactly how much i missed you?
i doubt you know, maybe now you're chatting with other girls happily.
while i'm missing you & wanting to call you. My life went sucks ever since i knew you.
i hate it when i am waiting for a text and then my phone vibrates
but it's not from who i want, especially phone calls.
you know how much i miss you, i mean i sacrifice so much but you didn't saw it at all.
what's love, what's cherish, what's treasure. Did you know?
i want to be a very very good friend with you, as good as we can be holding hands.
a best friend that i can be like your brothers, can i? Today i'll try giving you the last call.
if it shows that it's over, then i'll put you forever away. I'm gonna mean what i say.
i can talk to hundreds of people in one day but none of them
compare to the smile you can give me in one minute.
.Sunday, December 4, 2011 ' 12:45 AM
Wounds Everywhere!
2011 is the year that went by so fast, maybe a little too fast.
it's the year your so called friend walks out of your life, and it's the year you realize
who the real ones are. It's the year you felt most pressure to the point where
you gave up so many times but you're still learning how to get back up.
it's the year you said you were going to accomplish great things yet you feel like
you just wasted time. It's the year you cried over too many pointless things, too many times.
it's the year you look back on all the lifetime memories in which you find yourself missing
the people in them. But it's also the year you move on, slowly, and you realize that
actually its okay.
2 months & 8 days have passed, this is the totally amount of days we've broke up.
did you even remember? I doubt so, i was thinking of you in fact everyday.
the feeling sucks, i'll still wait for you call, your text. And now a days no more.
i wondered why. Know what? I must be too strong that i can be friend with you.
i can choose to be enemy with you, i stopped that. Cause i believe we'll be good friend.
i teared while writing this post. Because i really miss us, the moment we met up.
either for movie, dinner, or slacking. I still love facing you, the feeling just too comfortable.
our 5 years plus of love why you can be so heartless to let it go without thinking back.
after today, i'll make everything change. & i must hold my words.
i sincerely wish that this year will pass faster and i'm gonna get rid monster out of my head.
next year will be a new year, i don't even want to dwell onto something that isn't worth.
i'm gonna let it totally go, i know that we wont be back together again.
but i just hope that our contact wont lost, i just have the urge to have contact with you everyday.
maybe it's just my use to it having you as part of my life.
as days goes by,
a part of me is going to be totally missing.
i wish you all the best for your life, ns life and so on.
my love for you seems like still exist, or maybe just use to it.
it's the year your so called friend walks out of your life, and it's the year you realize
who the real ones are. It's the year you felt most pressure to the point where
you gave up so many times but you're still learning how to get back up.
it's the year you said you were going to accomplish great things yet you feel like
you just wasted time. It's the year you cried over too many pointless things, too many times.
it's the year you look back on all the lifetime memories in which you find yourself missing
the people in them. But it's also the year you move on, slowly, and you realize that
actually its okay.
2 months & 8 days have passed, this is the totally amount of days we've broke up.
did you even remember? I doubt so, i was thinking of you in fact everyday.
the feeling sucks, i'll still wait for you call, your text. And now a days no more.
i wondered why. Know what? I must be too strong that i can be friend with you.
i can choose to be enemy with you, i stopped that. Cause i believe we'll be good friend.
i teared while writing this post. Because i really miss us, the moment we met up.
either for movie, dinner, or slacking. I still love facing you, the feeling just too comfortable.
our 5 years plus of love why you can be so heartless to let it go without thinking back.
after today, i'll make everything change. & i must hold my words.
i sincerely wish that this year will pass faster and i'm gonna get rid monster out of my head.
next year will be a new year, i don't even want to dwell onto something that isn't worth.
i'm gonna let it totally go, i know that we wont be back together again.
but i just hope that our contact wont lost, i just have the urge to have contact with you everyday.
maybe it's just my use to it having you as part of my life.
as days goes by,
a part of me is going to be totally missing.
i wish you all the best for your life, ns life and so on.
my love for you seems like still exist, or maybe just use to it.
