.Monday, January 30, 2012 ' 5:22 PM
Yes, I'm smiling.
But you're not the reason anymore.
oh it seems that i had neglected my blog for going 1 week.
have been busy working since 25th, finally today a off day.
so decided to stay @ home, i'm so getting lazy & lazier already.
even hunny said i'm a pig now, thanks lo! Influence by you!
probably gonna study business course in May, meanwhile just gonna find new part time job.
earn enough to return debts, give parents money & save up some for future.
life seriously hard to survive, i'm like so going mad living in such reality world.
hope hunny could get into dragon boat as CCA, can see tan & fit handsome boy soon.
it sucks when you miss that person so much that you look through old photos,
old text messages, even old statuses and it brings a smile to your face,
but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn't be looking back,
but you can't help it because they really mean something to you
and you thought it would of lasted. Now i've totally ignore the text, facebook message.
or i really let down my dearest hunny a lot, hunny know that i haven really get over.
rather getting angry or disappointed he encouraged me. You're the best hunny.
promise i would try my best to get over and put everything behind.
someone who really loves you sees what a mess you can be,
how moody you can get, how hard you are to handle,
but still wants you in your life.
girl: you stayed, even when i tried to push you away, you never left.
i don't know what made you stay, but i'm glad you're here.
boy: i'm here because i know how happy we make each other.
i know that i don't want anyone else but you.
i never will, it will always be you.
admit it, we changed each other.
i want to hear your voice, make you laugh,
talk to you all night, just want you.
have been busy working since 25th, finally today a off day.
so decided to stay @ home, i'm so getting lazy & lazier already.
even hunny said i'm a pig now, thanks lo! Influence by you!
probably gonna study business course in May, meanwhile just gonna find new part time job.
earn enough to return debts, give parents money & save up some for future.
life seriously hard to survive, i'm like so going mad living in such reality world.
hope hunny could get into dragon boat as CCA, can see tan & fit handsome boy soon.
it sucks when you miss that person so much that you look through old photos,
old text messages, even old statuses and it brings a smile to your face,
but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn't be looking back,
but you can't help it because they really mean something to you
and you thought it would of lasted. Now i've totally ignore the text, facebook message.
or i really let down my dearest hunny a lot, hunny know that i haven really get over.
rather getting angry or disappointed he encouraged me. You're the best hunny.
promise i would try my best to get over and put everything behind.
someone who really loves you sees what a mess you can be,
how moody you can get, how hard you are to handle,
but still wants you in your life.
girl: you stayed, even when i tried to push you away, you never left.
i don't know what made you stay, but i'm glad you're here.
boy: i'm here because i know how happy we make each other.
i know that i don't want anyone else but you.
i never will, it will always be you.
admit it, we changed each other.
i want to hear your voice, make you laugh,
talk to you all night, just want you.
.Tuesday, January 24, 2012 ' 3:27 PM
I didn't change, i grew up.
1st day of new year, went to Popo's house & realize family member there is decreasing.not as many people and as noisy as before, everything changed when each year passed.
i wish things can go back to 8 years ago, where family members are all together.
but i have also learn that things can't go back, therefore we can only move on.
still enjoyed ourself @ Popo's house, left at about 11plus pm.
headed to plaza sing to purchase the movie ticket 'Dance Dance Dragon' for 2am show.
seriously it had been a long time since i hang out with my family.
maybe the only days we would all be gather together is only on Chinese New Year.
movie ended at 3.45am, reached home at about 4.30am. Eyes can't even open wide.
finish shower, text with hunny & fall alseep immediately. Heading to Ahma's house later on.
don't force anything to happen, let everything fall into it's place as it should.
don't try rushing anything, because if it's meant to to be, it'll happen eventually.
you might just end up ruining something by rushing it or trying to force it to happen.
let things happen naturally, and you'll notice how much more happier you'll be when
they happen unexpectedly. I want to refresh my mind, delete all my problems
undo all my mistakes and save the happy moments.
3 days without seeing my hunny, i miss him so so much.
its probably the first time we haven't seen each for this long.
but i'm sure tomorrow hunny bunny will come and fetch me from work,
cause you never fail not fetching me home for the everytime i work(:
you light up my world like nobody else. Prove to me that you're not like the rest.
4 words i never want to hear :
i don't love you.
you're diagnosed with cancer.
i found someone else.
it was never real.
we need to talk .
you're going to die.
i don't remember you.
let's just be friends.
we can't be together.
i never loved you.
i'm not your second choice neither your backup plan,
so don't text me when you're bored.
.Saturday, January 21, 2012 ' 4:18 PM
Hunny's advance birthday
my life changed, when Jieren' Hunny appeared.
we knew each other since November when we're working @ expo.
didn't really talk much, just know that i always disturbed him.
out of a sudden we contracted frequently, texting almost everyday & we get somehow close.
i remembered the flower he gave, & how he asked me for being his girlfriend.
i appreciated everything he does for me, tolerate my damn temper, my everything.
it might be just starting, but i'm sure i will always remember him existing in my life
giving me a memorable days that my ex didn't really give.
wanted to surprise him for his birthday yesterday with more people, things cock up.
and all thanks just left 4 person included me. My mood was really turned off.
i just wish that he appreciate what have i done for him, i may not be the girl he ask for.
but i'm trying so hard to get into relationship again, without getting hurt once more.
dearest hunny just wanna tell you, i love you. i'll try to be the best girlfriend.
i wish i had never met you then there would be no need impress you.
no need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you.
no need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises.
no need for crying myself to sleep. No need for acting like you care.
no need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing.
but when i think back, without my past. I wouldn't have learn my lesson & move on with life.
it teaches me no matter what problem i meet, problem will be solve sooner or later.
i will never be the past me, because its dead.
story of breakup: Why did i break up with him? Oh well, its like, once i sat down
and looked at the situation, all the pieces lying on the floor,
it just wasn't a puzzle anymore. None of the pieces fit together.
and even i tried really hard, the pieces, they were two different puzzles.
pay no attention to those who talk behind your back;
it only means that you're two steps ahead of them.
we knew each other since November when we're working @ expo.
didn't really talk much, just know that i always disturbed him.
out of a sudden we contracted frequently, texting almost everyday & we get somehow close.
i remembered the flower he gave, & how he asked me for being his girlfriend.
i appreciated everything he does for me, tolerate my damn temper, my everything.
it might be just starting, but i'm sure i will always remember him existing in my life
giving me a memorable days that my ex didn't really give.
wanted to surprise him for his birthday yesterday with more people, things cock up.
and all thanks just left 4 person included me. My mood was really turned off.
i just wish that he appreciate what have i done for him, i may not be the girl he ask for.
but i'm trying so hard to get into relationship again, without getting hurt once more.
dearest hunny just wanna tell you, i love you. i'll try to be the best girlfriend.
i wish i had never met you then there would be no need impress you.
no need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you.
no need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises.
no need for crying myself to sleep. No need for acting like you care.
no need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing.
but when i think back, without my past. I wouldn't have learn my lesson & move on with life.
it teaches me no matter what problem i meet, problem will be solve sooner or later.
i will never be the past me, because its dead.
story of breakup: Why did i break up with him? Oh well, its like, once i sat down
and looked at the situation, all the pieces lying on the floor,
it just wasn't a puzzle anymore. None of the pieces fit together.
and even i tried really hard, the pieces, they were two different puzzles.
pay no attention to those who talk behind your back;
it only means that you're two steps ahead of them.
