.Tuesday, February 28, 2012 ' 9:56 PM
What hurts the most,
was being too close.
had a small tiff with boyfriend, as usual he will text/call me first.
everything was back to normal after few hours.
well tomorrow will be my first day going school again, kinda scare.
lucky Leelim is attending this class with me or else i guess i'll be terribly dead there.
chatted with Terence in msn, ask him to help me look out for jobs.
and yes evening time he contacted me, telling me his friend looking for temp admin.
sent my resume to his friend already, hopefully this job will be a successful one.
then i won't headache about money issue, god bless me! I promise i'll work hard this time.
this few days don't even feel like stepping out of my house, there's 2 reason.
first one, i got no money to spend already! 2nd one, the sunny sun can melt me!
gonna start to work hard on everything, no more time to waste! old already.
hopefully my that boyfriend can just work hard for everything too! (:
i was the one who listened to your problems.
i was the one who actually cared about you.
i was the one who stuck around even when everyone told me to leave.
i was the one who loved you even you gave me reason not to.
i was the one who was there for you when you've no one to talk to.
i was the one who being used by you all the time, and never reject by saying no.
and i was the one who need to get my wound heal when you already start chasing other girls.
this is the lesson that i should learnt and never get history repeat.
i'm not angry, disappointed but just upset that this is the repay for everything i did.
think of something really hard you've to go through in the past.
well, you've survived it. You're alive, aren't you?
think about that the next time you're going through a really hard time
you'll pull through, you'll survive. You're strong!
your skin may tear, and your bones may break, but your soul?
your soul can never be irreversibly damaged.
have you ever felt like you were missing out on everyone and everything?
humanity around you lived and breathed in the moment,
while you were merely just a mass of matter, mainly existing like an invisible soul.
days tend to become a blurry, without anything that would separate one confusion
of chaotic thoughts from another. You consign into oblivion,
dismiss everything from your tired mind, and lose consciousness of precious memories.
you forget which day you lived in, while time simply passed by, and you didn't even noticed.
cause it's time to leave those feelings behind.
