.Sunday, March 25, 2012 ' 6:01 PM
Happy 3rd Month Anniversary
to Dearest Hunny & I.
had chalet last night with family, hunny & friends! (:parents went off after eating, whole chalet were left with 3 couples.
hunny and i, leelim + kangjie, peiwen + yaocong. Although its just one day, we really enjoyed.
full of laughter, nonsense, and jokes. How i wish we could stay there even longer.
left chalet in the morning with hunny first, as he still need to work.
reached home, packed back my things and lie on bed straight away coma.
last night only manage to fall asleep like 6am, & woke up at 8.50am.
was scared by peiwen's scream in the morning, because everyone of us overslept!
we're like suppose to wake at 7.15am, i'm like a gan chiong spider. Showered so fast!
and left with hunny, my sleeping position in MRT looked ugly, but hunny no difference.
managed to clear things up with hunny, but still i feel that scar inside my heart.
i'll still think of that incident, and everytime he texted me cold, i'll tell myself that
i don't know what is he thinking again, giving me that cold attitude with no reason.
and asking myself, maybe his feeling fade? Full of worries, but i'll know when to let go.
like i told him. I'm not sad, just disappointed that you can be influence by your friends.
it just proven us that our relationship aren't strong although we looked like.
the reason that i posted this photo, was thinking if i should cut this fringe.
wanted to change hairstyle, but ended up still cutting bangs.
maybe i'll trying cutting this fringe, hopefully it doesn't look weird.
there's so many things i wanna do, but i got no money!
wanted to get new handbag for work, put braces for my bunny teeth,
oversea with hunny & friends and a lot a lot more!!
Too bad, monthly salary not even enough for me spend and to save up.
so shouldn't mention about getting this, or that.
the life i had. My past is something that haunted me still.
but, in this life, i know what i have been. But then i met you. You my hunny love.
you held me close and made me yours, kissed your lips and then you gently whispered
"i love you hunny" and here in your arms. I know what i am and who will i be.
cause you are my future.
it's a girl thing.
Girls aren't always going to talk to you first. We don't like starting the conversation
because we like to feel like you want to talk to us. We feel like that wait was worth something.
we feel like you've waited for us like we've waited for you.
the number reason why we hate talking first is when we hate to seem needy or clingy.
cause to us, being needy and obsessive just pushes guys away. And no girls want that.
i care about you, i worry when you text differently.
i stay up late thinking what i have could said to you,
wake up early to look pretty for you.
think about what i'm gonna say to you.
i'll get a little jealous when i sees you walking around with another girl.
i'll be crying when i find out you're dating somebody else but pretend to be fine.
obviously won't show that i'm upset because i wants you to be happy.
i'm afraid that:
if you see me all the time, you'll get sick of me.
if you talk to me all the time, you'll run out of things to say.
if we do the same things all the time, you'll get bored of us.
if i'm too nice to you, you'll get advantages of me.
if i'm too mean to you, you'll drift away from me.
if someone gets your attention, you'll ignore me.
if you meet someone new, you'll leave me.
what hurts the most
is pretending it doesn't.
