.Wednesday, May 23, 2012 ' 5:30 AM
You can't choose what stays
and what fade away.
well, i'm back after 1 month of missing in action.
kinda busy for this one month. Almost everyday after work hang out till late then home.
probably this is what i want in my life too, to keep myself busy all the way.
didn't have enough sleep and that causes all my pimples to pops out! :<
i've been working in this company for 2 months plus, reaching 3 months.
i was looking forward to it from the very start, but now i don't know what made me lost interest.
maybe because i don't really talk to my colleagues. Sometime felt being left out.
everyday is a struggle to me. Just force myself to wake up and head down to work.
hopefully things will be better down the road, because i'm really sick and tired of it.
we aim to finally find that special someone who will see us through our imperfections,
through our shortcomings and yet accept us wholeheartly, without prejudice.
without doubts, just pure love.
sometime things don't last forever, but some things do.
like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory.
you can take out and unfold in your darkest times,
pressing down on the corners and peering in close,
hoping you still recognize the person you see there.
how do you know when you love someone?
when you wake up , and they're you're first thought and you're looking at your phone
to see if they've text or called you while you were asleep.
and when you go to bed, you fall asleep thinking about them.
when you miss them, even though it hasn't been more than a day or so since you've seen them.
but mostly, when you put yours needs before your own.
when their happiness is more important than your pain.
when you really love someone, you're willing to give it your all, and you'll know when you're.
the blue paragraph really represent my love, but it only applied on the two men that i really love.
one day cannot go without their calls, texts. I gave my all, and they returned me back the same.
full of bullshits, nonsense, craps. I accepted, it's my fate.
just because i laugh a lot doesn't mean my life is easy.
just because i've a smile on my face everyday,
doesn't mean that something is not bothering me.
it's just that i choose to move on with my life and keep my head up
instead of dwelling on the past.
i don't hate you actually, but because you told me we can be friends.
ended up what are we? Yes, we're strangers but with memories.
memories not with you but me. I've to admit that i already no longer love you.
probably yes, my love for you haven reached those max that i can't live without you.
and now i hate you to the super max. Not because you'd hurt me.
but i just can't forgive a person like you, broke up with me yet ashamed to face me.
worst part finding girls to be with, i don't know if you wrote those sweet things to other girls
just to let me read and get jealous, envy. To me it doesn't work at all.
because you made me stronger now, it doesn't hurt me that much.
and now, i got no feel towards it. if that makes you happy for changing girlf like clothes.
i really wish you would find the right girl, and she doesn't hurt you.
friend is just what i'm asking for, who like to hate people. It's a tiring job.
but it seems like i'm getting use to it, cause it doesn't matter to you dude.
people may not remember exactly what you did,
but they'll always remember how you made them feel.
